Title: Summer of discovery
Author: Joy
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A/N: This is a strange filler/ tie chapter. I am trying to make it impossible for you to not read the sequel to this. I think I am going to name it More than Mrs. Potter... but we'll see. I have most of it written already. The beginning will be very angst ridden but it will make a lot of the summer stuff make sense. It will take a bit of time but not too much for Harry and Ginny to get on the right track...once they do I promise I will stop jerking you around emotionally so much...at least in a relationship type of way.-
Chapter 14: Misunderstanding Ginny-
Mrs. Weasley and Mr. Weasley were remarkably absent most days during the summer. No one quite knew what it was about but they came home every night for dinner so there wasn't much to be said. The order had its business.Fred and George thoroughly enjoyed their travels as well as their flat but still came by to see their younger siblings as often as their schedule allowed. It unnerved Harry to no end whenever Gin would talk to the twins alone for fear of his life...and well...bollocks. He just couldn't get past the idea that sometime soon a Weasley brother was going to pound him for his amorous activities with Ginny by the lake.
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Dumbledore had come by in recent days to check on Ginny's progress with her project. The old man praised her up and down for her attention to detail and advancements. He noticed the stack of non-descript letters on Gin's desk and raised an eyebrow. Harry had realized the letters had been coming less frequently of late. The irony was he never actually saw her write back (or even send out an owl). It was all rather odd. Ginny and Dumbledore spoke quietly together for a while and he presented her with a new volume. Hermione's eyes glazed over just looking at the age of the book. She offered to help but Albus kindly told her this was Ginny's project to work on.-
Once Ginny was once again set up, Dumbledore took Harry aside. "How are you my boy?""Fine, sir. I am curious what you are occupying Gin's time with that none of us can help as well?"
The old man's eyes twinkled. "It is not that you cannot help Harry. It is that you would not understand how to help properly. You have enough on your plate right now and Ginny has her own role to play as the war escalates."
"What role?" Harry asked.
"Did you honestly believe your unwilling damsel would be content to be Mrs. Harry Potter in the history books? That would be outrageously absurd... No Mr. Potter when time looks back on you and your friends the trio will stand together...but there are others Harry...including Ginny...whose contributions will be marked with great esteem."
"I don't understand Professor."
"Harry, you know that Weasley females are rare, correct?" Harry nodded. "Well, that is to ensure that when a Weasley female is born she is set apart for greatness in some way. Ginny has her own path to walk and all the things that have happened to her have led her to this point. You will find Mr. Potter, your girlfriend's talents exceed all expectation when she is given no limits."
The boy who lived stared at his professor who seemed to be speaking in riddles.
Dumbledore smiled, "When you return to school expect Ginny to have her time occupied with this project...expect that she will be working with individuals you may not know or even may not like...expect that like yourself she will have outside lessons to take. It is important that you do not block her progress and give her room to grow. She will need your support and understanding as much as you need hers."
"Yes Professor."
"Good man."
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Hermione and Ron joined him as their headmaster apparated away."Find out anything?" Ron asked.
"Probably...but I didn't understand him."
"How so?" Hermione questioned.
Harry gave pause. "It seems that Ginny will be remembered in the history books for different reasons then the three of us will."
"Really?" Ron stated.
"Yeah... It also sounded like he was warning me not to cause problems for Ginny when we get back to Hogwarts." Harry paused, "I get the distinct feeling when we finally get clued in on what this is all about, I'm not going to like it...or the people she is working with."
"Well then you have to trust Ginny and Dumbledore," Hermione said with a decided nodded.
"Of course."
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It soon became normal for Ginny to work in the morning while Ron and Harry flew and then for a few hours after dinner. Harry would sit up waiting for Ginny and they would snuggle on the couch chatting and such. They talked school and how things would change. They made plans for the DA and quidditch. They were comfortable together...it was the other things they did at night that were more intense.-
The four made regular visits of time turning at the lake so they could be together in a more relaxed way. Ginny had honored Harry's pace, which actually helped them both. Harry seemed more in tune with what she could or could not handle. It never failed that when she pushed to go further than what Harry felt was wise, she'd end up having a flashback. After the third time it happened Ginny just sucked up the fact he was probably right.-
She had honored it until the previous night. There was one thing Gin wanted to do that she was almost 100 sure would freak her out... giving Harry a blowjob. It would freak her out because that is what Theo was going to force her to do. Harry of course knew this fact and therefore oral sex was something he just didn't think was wise. This led to a not so fun argument that evening."Harry, you are being unreasonable. I need to get over this. The best way to is just to do it, as simple as that!" Ginny said tapping her foot.
Angry green eyes met hers, "That's right. Everything is always an experiment, isn't it? Everything is an experience rather than an expression of feelings. I'm sorry but you are asking me to consciously go into a situation knowing it's going to hurt you emotionally. I can't do that. I can't just decide, 'Okay. Now we're going to have oral sex and Ginny's gonna freak out. I'm aroused!' Come on. I couldn't even get it up if I tried."
Ginny leaned forward massaging his chest, "Harry you're about to be seventeen. Believe me, you can get it up." Her hand started to stray to his groin.
Harry caught her wrist stiffly, "I'm not a rent-a-boy Ginny."
With that Harry left a shocked redhead standing very much alone.
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In the morning Harry was completely non-verbal with everyone. Mrs. Weasley barely noticed, as she had to be gone for the day to help a friend. To the rest, it was as if he learned to bite his tongue about his heart. Eventually he just escaped to his room, locked the door, bound it, silenced it...you name it; he did it."What's up son?" James Potter called from a frame minus Lily and Sirius.
"It's personal," Harry mumbled.
"I see... Did you want me to get Sirius?" James asked thoughtfully despite being a bit hurt.
Harry quickly looked at his father, "What? No...Why is this so hard? Why can't we just be in love and not fight and..."
"Ginny wouldn't be the girl you love without her bristles Harry," James observed with a smile. "You're mum wouldn't have been nearly as fun if she couldn't hex me to high heaven."
"You don't understand," his son groaned.
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James conjured a chair in the picture frame to sit himself down in. "Try to explain it and I will try to understand.""Ginny was assaulted last year." Harry began. "Professor Snape made it so I could experience what she went through so I wouldn't be such a prat." James chuckled. "So see I remember it...feel it. Now Ginny is pushing that we go further in our relationship knowing full well it's going to upset her...but she...And it has nothing to do with our feelings for one another or anything. Its just a bloody experiment to her!"
The older man spoke softly, "Harry, this is hers."
"What?"
"If you were to tell Sirius what he needed to do to get over his incarceration, you would think yourself a prat, right?" James offered.
"Yeah, so?" Harry answered.
The Potter smirk came out, "The only difference here is that this is something you share together. This isn't like being incarcerated where its up to Sirius what steps he takes. He didn't need you to be part of it. Ginny needs you to help her through this. You are her partner. You have to be part."
"But..."
"Harry, this thing that Ginny wants to do...is it something on a subjective level you want... you would enjoy?"
"Yes, but..."
"Then let it go," James offered. "Let go of the notions of how it's supposed to be. Nothing in your life has taken a normal path. Your trip through sexual development is no different."
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Harry's chin quivered a bit, "I want her to love me.""She does. With everything that she is and everything that she has, she loves you, but she's got baggage to. While you have a hero complex a mile thick and desperately need to keep people from your heart...she needs the same...at least the heart part. She NEEDS to feel autonomous."
Lily walked into the frame slowly sitting on the arm of the overstuffed chair her husband conjured, "Harry, you also need to understand that Ginny got her hugs and kisses as a kid. She knows she's loved. Touch is something she takes for granted because it was always there. You are different because you didn't have that. You react strongly to the lightest touch...and it always means something to you."
She paused, "Ginny loves you. The proof is simply that she even wants to let you touch her in a sexual way."
"She could get a dozen guys to take my place in a heart beat," Harry said bitterly.
"She doesn't want a dozen guys. She wants you. No one else could do this...she wouldn't trust anyone else," James chimed in.
"Sort it soon. Talk to her honey..." Lily said quietly then drifted from the frame again.
James smiled at his son, "You're going to be fine son. We're right here...just knock."
Harry nodded and hung his head. Why has this whole summer been a series of frustrating and hurtful arguments?
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TBC...-
A/N: Next chapter will be the second to last chapter. Harry and Ginny will talk it through, which will take no time at all really. They will have a good make out session or two and then...well the rest of the chapter will be posted on my site. There is no way I can post it here...far too graphic.The final chapter is my how to guide on the girl's side to have sex comfortably. I have gotten really bent out of shape by all the stories I have read about how painful the first time is OR how easy the first time is. It just strikes me as odd that I have not read a realistic description in my opinion...so the twin's girlfriend's Alicia and Angelina for my purposes are going to tell the girls how to lose their virginities without great pains. Expect very to the point advice. It is an odd place to end the story but it will lead you into the next sequel...I am shameless.
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Repeat after me: I will REVIEW this story by Joy who has finally gotten a diagnosis of...an ulcer...with a side case of vertigo. I will REVIEW this story by Joy.