Disclaimer: don't own anything. Except Clara Speedle, John Speedle, and Michael Speedle and well the bad guy.

Pairings: Flashbacks of Speed and Calleigh.

When She Cries Chapter 1

I can't believe Tim died 3 days ago.' Calleigh said to herself. 'This will be my first day back at CSI and i don't think i can handle it. I know what the guys say that i'm just taking this hard because me and Speed were best friends. No Eric and Speed were best friends. Alexx and Speed were best friends. Speed was Horatio's wing man. Tim Speedle wasn't just my friend or collegue, he was my boyfriend.'

And not to many people knew about us. We had wanted to keep it a secret, because of conflict of interest and all that.

The alarm clock on her nightstand went off. Calleigh let it go for a few minutes before forcefully knocking it to the floor. Calleigh sighed and got out of bed and walked over to her closet. His closet.Their closet. People didn't know that Calleigh and Tim where serious. But they were, they were serious enough to move in together.

Calleigh opend the closet door and the first thing she saw was Tim's black button up shirt, the one he had worn the night before they got the call in about the little boy. Tim had woken Calleigh up saying that there was an accident on the Causeaway and Horatio needed both her and him there.

The day started out easily enough, Calleigh found out that her crime light wasnt charged and new of only one suspect. Tim. So she confronted him about it, and they flirted around a little bit. The last thing he said to her was "Go, ahead its in my kit".

But something happend that day that nobody could have predicited. Tim Speedle had gotten shot in the upper left chest area and had died instantly, so said Horatio. Calleigh knew that he hadn't told her the truth. For some reason she knew that he had suffered even for a few minutes. And that made her feel even more sick.

She remembered standing there not even 7 feet away from his dead body, and it freaked her out because she was going to know what he looked like in a week, a month, a year, 5 years and that freaked her out. She stood there watching Horatio and Alexx talk, what they said she didnt know. All she could think about was why he had to leave her, now.

The funeral was horrible. Calleigh didn't know what to do or say for his mother and father. Tim's brother Michael wasn't there, for what reason she had no idea. After the funeral Eric had asked her if she wanted to go out and get something to eat. But she kindly refused. And she went home and cried herself to sleep.

WHEN SHE CRIES

"Hey Cal." said Eric soflty as Calleigh walked into the break room.

"Oh hey Eric." said Calleigh walking over to the coffee pot and pouring herself a cup. The radio was playing in the background.

I'm not a perfect person

i never meant to do those things to you

and so i have to

say before for i go

to be the one who catches all your tears

thats why i need you to hear

i've found a reason for me

to change who i used to be

the reason to start over knew

and the reason is you...

Calleigh stared at the radio as the song played, Eric thought that she was going to go turn it off, but instead she shoved it to the floor. Smashing it to pieces. And then fell to the floor herself. Crying silently.

Eric got off from the coach and slowly walked over to Calleigh and bent down next to her. Eric put his arms around her and held her to his chest. "It's going to be ok Cal, it's going to be ok, I promise."

"No...No Eric it's not, Tim, Tim..was my..my boyfriend." said Calleigh threw sobs.

"Cal, i'm so sorry i didn't know."

"No one knew Eric, we wanted it to be a secret, and now he's gone and i have no one." said Calleigh threw sobs again.

"That's not true Cal, i'm here, and Horatio is here, and so is Alexx and Tripp and Yelina. Ok we. are. all here for. you." said Eric his own tears running down his face.

"Thank you." said Calleigh standing up. "I'm going to go to the ladies room. excuse me."

"Of course." said Eric as Calleigh walked out of the room and Eric bent over to pick up the pieces to the broken radio. But he stopped suddenly and looked up at the celling. "Why couldn't you have just cleaned your gun man. I mean would it have been that hard to take five minutes out of your day to clean your gun?"

Horatio stood outside the brake room window. He saw everything as he normally did. He sighed heavily knowing that he would have to deal with only two CSI'S verses three. He stood there and watched Calleigh confess to Eric about Tim being her boyfriend, and he even stood there long enough to were he saw Eric cry. Until finally he shook is head and said "What have i done, why didn't i protect him?" with that he left. In hopes that one day maybe not tomorrow or the next day, maybe not in a month, or even in a year but one day the team would be able to piece themselves back together again. And in hopes that they wouldn't turn on eachother.

TBC...

kinda cheesy i know but oh well hope u enjoyed it. i don't own that song hoobstank does. PLease review. thank you. next chapter up soon.