Chapter 56
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Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
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When her laughter rang out, it was like the tinkling of silver bells. It was gentle, light and pleasant to listen to. Anyone with a heart that heard it could not fight the urge to smile and laugh along with her. There was so much happiness in just that one small sound, it seemed to light up a thousand rooms, just as it could light up a thousand hearts.
One small sound and a burden was gone. It lifted the load and lightened the mood. When she laughed, it was hard to describe how you felt. It was like nothing you'd ever felt before. So unique, so personal.
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Want to vanish inside your kiss
Every day I love you more and more
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Love. There was so much love in that huge, golden heart of hers. She often put on a stern, respectable mask and some mistook her for harsh or unforgiving. But beneath all that, beyond the mask, was a kind, loving woman who did not use the word love lightly.
She knew what it was to love, knew the true meaning of it and its intensity. If the word 'love' passed her lips and was directed at you, she was giving you the world in all its entirety. Her love was the greatest gift of them all.
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Listen to my heart, can you hear it sing?
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change, winter to spring…
But I love you until the end of time
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Seasons come and go, but her beauty, inside and out, could endure all weathering. With every new dawn, she shone out the clearer. You would give her absolutely everything, for she gave you everything and more. She had no boundaries, no limits. She would stretch to the ends of the earth and beyond, if she had to, just to show you how she cared. Few people appreciated that.
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Come what may
Come what may
I will love you
Until my dying day
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No boundaries, no limits. Her eyes told you that much. Those large, forest green orbs told you all you needed to know. Truth resided in those two, glowing eyes. Many's a lie that passed from her mouth, but look into her eyes and you saw straight to her soul. Her eyes never lied. Fear, anger, hate - when they were visible, no dagger or sword could cause more pain. But when peace and compassion and affection showed, you could love her forever. Until your dying day.
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Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It revolves around you
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Everything was perfect. One touch of her hand and all your worries and problems were erased. One touch of her hand and everything made sense again. When the world seemed to have turned its back on you, she'd reach out to you and it all melted away. She was beginning and the end. The creator and the created. Nothing else matters, just so long as she was there. You couldn't help but think it all revolved around her.
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And there's no mountain too high
No river too wide
Sing out this song and I'll be there
By your side
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She was the sort of person that never leave you. she was always there, in mind, in spirit. You can never forget her, for once she has touched your life, she is a part of it forever. Memories will follow you, wherever you go, like a ghost. Come hell or high water, her spirit will never leave.
Many people walk in and out of your life, but only true friends leave footprints on your heart. She was the truest of them all and her dainty feet left the largest footprints, such an impact she was on your life. You could let the gap grow for years on end, but the moment you called out to her, she as there in an instant.
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Storm clouds may gather
And stars may collide
But I love you
Until the end of time
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She had a fiery temperament. Very small, insignificant events could anger her immensely, and that was not a sight to be seen. But when the storm of her rage was ended, she'd welcome you again with open arms, apologising repeatedly, professing her true feelings towards the victim of her fury.
And she would never let anything come between her and what she wanted to do. Whatever she became passionate about, nobody could or would stop her from indulging in it. Often, differing opinions caused strife and division, but in the end she would win. It would be she who made everyone else agree, or at least accept, her line of thought.
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Come what may
Come what may
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No matter what, her heart remained open to those whom she loved. She would never let anyone dictate her.
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I will love you
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Love. She always had more to give. The capacity of her heart was beyond any description. It was so important to her that everyone knew what they meant to her. Everyone had their own place in her heart, and each person received so much from that. The capacity of her heart was incomprehensible.
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Until my dying day…
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'I will love you until my dying day'. Such a profession of love. So sincere. So honest. And that she was. If she said it, she meant it, and the rest, as they say, is history. There was no questioning when she told you something like that. Accept maybe this now…
Did I tell her often enough? Did I show her that she possesses my whole heart? Does she know how devoted I was - and am - to her, how much of my love she received?
My Silvawen.
My Forest Maiden.
Six times the leaves have now fallen since my beloved passed over the sea…