It snowed this morning. Something that goes good with the events of today. A lot of people say snow is wonderful and magical and pretty. Yes, sometimes it can be pretty but it's not wonderful. I see snow as rain's evil twin. Rain is more pure. Snow gives you a cold feeling inside. When it snows, you feel lonely and incomplete. Rain gives flowers and plants energy to live, snow just kills them.
The snow has killed me. I look at your grave and wonder what is the point of living life without you. To see the look on our son or daughter's face when he or she comes home one day and says "Why don't I have a Dad?" or "What happen to my father?". So when our child is born and I look into his eyes, see your eyes looking back at me. I don't think I can handle it Mulder.
I'm gonna go on. Bring up our baby they best way I know how. But I know the best way would to have you here with us. If it's a girl, who's gonna walk her down the altar? I want you to be the one to do that on her wedding day. I want to see you two having the father/daughter dance and I crying seeing how happy and proud you are knowing that are daughter is all grown up.
And if it's a boy. I want to see you teaching him how to play baseball. I want to walk into the bathroom one morning seeing you shaving and our son sitting on the sink, copying what your doing with the end of his tooth brush. I want you and him watching Sunday night football with your feet on the coffee table.
I want these simple things. Something I'm not gonna have. I want to go to their graduation and hold your hand when they call his or hers name. I want to wake up every morning in your embrace and wonder how I got so lucky.
I want everything Mulder. Only with you. I knew long before I wanted it. I wanted it all... with you. I just didn't realize how easy it was to slip away.
This story has taken a life of it's own. I'm just getting more and more ideas. I got two more ideas for future chapters but more might come to me. I had a whole different idea for this story but this seems much better. I want to thank everyone for reviewing my story. I would have updated sooner but I went away from Friday to Monday and went I got back would not let me sign on until today. I hope you Enjoyed it!
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