I don't own stargate atlnatis L but I do own the stuff in italics. So nergh. Well I'd prefer to own atlantis but anyhoooooo……..
CHAPTER 2
"Sit with me in the shade, Sit with me in the sun, sit as a speaker,
Or sit as a king, sit as a preacher, Preaching the end, sit as a lover Or just sit as a friend, slide like a tear,
Down cheeks and face, to parted lips, I will kiss them but it just signifies my disgrace."
I've been avoiding Elizabeth since last night. She obviously didn't mean it so the best thing I can do is forget. Forget everything. I've never forgotten her. Evelyn, Evie for short. My first love, if I'm being honest with you, my only love. Until Elizabeth. But we know how it ends, but that's the thing I believe in the universe. I believe in infinity, I have two conflicting ideas that one day it will all be over but another saying that its never going to end. The universe is infinite, so there's infinite possibilities. that's what keeps me going. Somewhere else, another world, I carried on kissing Elizabeth last night. I didn't go onto the balcony with her. I kissed her first and she kissed back. I kissed her first and she hit me. Hell, if its all so infinite maybe somewhere I'm still with Evie, Evie is still alive. Evie is laughing at me because I'm such a coward. All the what ifs are getting me nowhere. I have to talk to Elizabeth. I read a quote once it went; "We cross our bridges when we come to them and burn them behind us, with nothing to show for our progress except a memory of the smell of smoke, and a presumption that once our eyes watered." I don't just want the smell of smoke, and my eyes sure as hell aren't watering from it. Tears, of defeat, of sadness, of loss; past and present.
She's sitting in her office. If she feels as bad as I does maybe she doesn't want company. Or daylight. My head hurts, alien alcohol. Wow. Talk about infinite impossible possibilities. Ha, I'm living one, I was adventurous to go through a wormhole to another galaxy and I'm not brave enough to tell the woman I love, I love her. God, I'm just going to do it.