And I Feel Home
by Tina
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Before I begin, I would like to say there's a huge mistake on the previous chapter! I wrote "friday" as if it came right after "wendsday". Meaning: I wrote Rachel's encounter with Mindy as if it'd happened the day after Rachel spoke to Ross on the phone! Clearing that up: Say they spoke on the phone again on thursday, ok? Ross and Rachel did not spend the night together... yet!
This chapter is rated R for sexual content!!
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"This is the door" Monica pointed out as she and Rachel reached Ross and Chandler's dorm.
Rachel rushed over and knocked several times, but no one answered.
"Damn it, they're not here"
She sighed on frustration and paced around. Monica watched her best friend with confusion. The whole ride Rachel hadn't told her anything, just acted kind of strange. She took a seat on a set of stairs and Monica joined her.
"Are you gonna tell me what happened now?"
"I just wanna see your brother"
"Why? What's so urgent that you had to drag me all the way here?"
"I didn't drag you, okay??"
Rachel's hostile entonation took Monica by surprise.
"Okay, sorry"
"No, I- I'm sorry Monica. God, I'm so sorry, I'm just so uurghh!!"
"Just wanna say that if you want to talk about it, I'm here" Monica looked at her watch. "Hopefully not for long"
Rachel smiled at her, looking truly thankful.
"Thanks, Mon. Sorry for, hm, for dragging you down here"
Monica smiled back at her.
"It's no problem"
"Did you have any plans?"
"Other than this thing on t.v., nothing"
Rachel's smile at the way Monica's cheeks turned pink.
"I- I had a fight with Mindy"
Monica looked at her and smiled in a supportive way.
"You guys fight all the time, I'm sure you'll work past this"
"No"
"Why, what happened this time?"
"I just... This isn't just about her, Mon, you see... It's about me too"
"What do you mean?"
"This afternoon while I was talking to her as she said these, whoa, stupid things I just... I realised it was just like listening to myself talking!"
"C'mon, Rachel, you know that's not truth. You're the most down-to-Earth cheerleader I know!"
Monica chuckled, but Rachel's look didn't get any better.
"See, that just makes me feel worst for the others, not better for myself"
"Okay, look, Rach... I'm gonna be honest with you. Yes, you're a little spoiled sometimes and a bit shallow and you say these things that I don't agree with and etc... But you're so... open to accept new things and learn! You've been changing so much! You- you had a fat, unpopular friend as a best friend in high school! You were not ashamed to be seen with me at parties and things, I don't think you'll ever understand how much that meant to me!"
Monica's eyes glisted a bit and Rachel smiled at her, taking her hand.
"And- and now you're dating my brother..." Monica looked down at the floor. "I know I gave you a hard time at first, but I can see that you like him. And you like him for the right reasons. Two-years-ago-Rachel would never do that!"
Rachel looked down too, her mind racing.
"My fight with Mindy was over Ross"
"Really?"
"Yeah... She uh... she didn't take the news well and said all these unfair things and I stood up for him"
Monica smiled.
"Wow. That's- that's great to hear, Rach, I-"
Before Monica could go any further, the girls heard Ross and Chandler's voices coming up the stairs. They quickly stood up and waited for them to reach their level. When they did, Ross quickly spotted Rachel and looked surprised.
"Rach? Hey, what are you doing here?"
They smiled at each other.
"Hey you"
"How are you?"
"Fine"
They approached each other and kissed.
"Did anything happen?"
"Not really, I just... wanted to see you"
His eyes glowed and she smiled. She'd done the right thing.
"Have you been waiting for long?"
"No, we just got here, actually"
"Okay then, come in"
Monica looked at Chandler, nervous.
"You know what, we'll give you two some time" she said.
Rachel nodded.
"Thanks"
Monica smiled at Ross and Rachel as they entered the room and was left alone in the hall with Chandler. A short and awkward silence followed.
"Hm, Chandler? Is there anywhere we can watch some t.v.?" She tried her best to get that to come out cooly.
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Rachel looked around Ross and Chandler's dorm. It wasn't too big. Two beds, two desks and a two small bedside tables. She could tell which one was Ross' because it bore a single framed picture of her. She smiled at it.
"This is nice"
"It's small"
"It's still nice" she shrugged and he smiled. "That picture there lightens up the intire room!"
She pointed at her picture.
"I agree"
She chuckled.
"Is this your bed?" she pointed to one.
"No, that's Chandler's"
She looked at the other bed, where a guitar layed.
"Is that guitar yours?"
"Yeah"
"What happened to the keyboards?"
"Nothing, just decided to try something new"
"Are you good at it?"
"I'm still learning" he blushed slightly and Rachel smiled.
"Play something to me" she asked.
He looked at her in this shy manner.
"I- I'm not really good yet"
Se tilted her head and smiled in the most adorable way Ross had ever seen her do it.
"Please"
He smiled back.
"Okay"
He took the guitar and sat on the bed. She took a seat next to him, indian style. He started playing softly. The melody was charming.
"Look at the stars, look how they shine for you. And everything you do, yeah, they were all yellow. I came along, I wrote a song for you and all the things you do, and it was called yellow..."
His voice was almost a whisper. He quickly looked up at her from the guitar and she felt shivers up and down her spine. She loved that song and she knew that even though Ross had not written it for her, he meant it.
"So then I took my turn, Oh what a thing to have done, and it was all yellow. Your skin, Oh yeah, your skin and bones turn into something beautiful. You know, you know I love you so. You know I love you so..."
At this last bit, Rachel noticed the way Ross looked down and blushed. He loved her...!
"I swam across, I jumped across for you, Oh what a thing to do. 'Cause you were all yellow. I drew a line, I drew a line for you, Oh what a thing to do, and it was all yellow. Your skin, Oh yeah your skin and bones, Turn into something beautiful, And you know for you I'd bleed myself dry. For you I'd bleed myself dry...."
Before he got the chance to finish it, Rachel moved closer, stroked an arm up his back and kissed his neck. Ross stopped playing and chuckled.
"I can't play like this"
"That's the idea" she giggled.
"Am I that bad?" he smiled at her.
"No, no. You're that good"
They kept looking at each other for a while, untill he leaned closer to kiss her and set the guitar down. When he was done, his arms occupied themselves with her. She also wrapped her arms around him and thought to herself that was it. She had never wanted anyone so much her entire her. It was a bit scary, actually, but the way he kissed her just made her cast her fears aside. The desire builting up inside of her left no room for much else.
They laid back down on the matress, she on top of him. She opened her legs and straddled him as they kissed even more intensely. His hands finally got bolder and ran up and down her tighs and ass. Hmmm, he had nice hands, she thought.
She moved her lips from his to kiss his neck.
"Do you have protection?" she whispered.
"Yeah"
He quickly sat up and Rachel sat up aswell. He reached into his bedside table and picked up a condom. He set it next to Rachel's framed picture and looked back at her. They smiled at each other and kissed again, this time slower. She sucked his botton lip - God, she loved his lips! - as his hands reached her shoulder. He slipped off her coat and she shuddered slightly. Even more when he finally got to touch her skin. It felt like fire. Wherever he touched her, it felt like he discharged some sort of electricity that traveled from that single spot to every tip of her body.
More, she wanted more of him.
They broke their kiss to take off each other's shirts. Ross stared at her body as she knelt down next to him with her pants and bra on. Her stomach was so flat, her bellybutton so charming. The curves of her chest rose up and down quickly, due her heavy and shallow breathing. He looked into her blue eyes and smiled.
"You never cease to amuse me"
She smiled and kissed him again. This time, having his naked torso pressed up against her body felt even better. Her sweaty palms explored the muscles of his back untill they found their way down and then his belt. Meanwhile, she felt him unclasp her bra. She had to stop her quest on his jeans to slip that off. Before she could resume it, he gently pushed her down to lay with her back against the matress.
His sheets were so smooth. As he began to kiss her shoulders, making his way down to her breats and stomach, she turned her face to a side and moaned. The sheets smelled good too. They smelled of Ross. Everything there was his. His scent, his lips, his tongue, his hands.
None of the guys Rachel had been with before had been good with foreplay. Now that she thought about, it shouldn't really matter to them, anyway. It's not like there were deep feelings involved. But with Ross... No. This was not a mechanical act, not merely about a quick fuck or a way to canalise his feelings.
This was about enjoying themselves. About showing how much they meant to each other and how amazing they could be together... And oh, amazing it was. Rachel was already craving for more. She'd never wanted someone inside of her so bad. And yet, she knew it wasn't just about the physical feeling. She opened her eyes and looked down at him as he kissed her stomach while unbuttoned her jeans. She couldn't believe how much she cared about him.
After he slipped her jeans off, she rolled over to be on top of him. She kissed his lips, his chin, his neck and down his chest. All the while, Rachel couldn't believe that man laying down beside her, with such smooth skin and sexy forms had been her boyfriend this whole time. 'So many sides of him you haven't seen yet', she told herself.
She took off his pants and dared to touch him. Ross closed his eyes and Rachel smiled. But she didn't want to tease him too much, she wanted him to last long. God, she wanted him to last long! He slid her panties off and as Ross turned to get the condom, she got rid of his boxers. After they were set to go, Rachel laid down and pulled him above her.
He kissed her one more time, as if reassuring himself this is what they both wanted. She kissed him back and with one hand stroked the back of his head while the other stroked of of his butt cheeks. They smiled at each other and she nodded, turning her head to a side of the pillow.
Ross guided himself inside of her slowly. He noticed as she squinted a bit.
"You okay?" he whispered.
"I'm fine, don't worry"
He kissed her neck and burried himself deeper. In the midst if the disconforting feeling, Rachel still felt a faint pleasuring feeling and sighed. Ross smiled to himself and waited a few seconds without moving, letting her body get used to him. She moved both her hands to hug him and they kissed. As the kiss got more intense by the second, Ross pushed himself in and out of her.
It had never been like that.
Rachel couldn't explain what it was, she'd had that very same in-and-out routine before. Why has it never been like that? He seemed to be hitting this very interesting spot with much more force everytime he thurst harder and very soon she was moaning his name and pleading him for more.
It didn't take too long untill both climaxed. Rachel first, quickly followed by Ross. He let his weight finally fall onto her body and she hugged him tight.
"Hmmm, wow" she whispered into his ear.
"I know"
He rolled off of her, scared of hurting his girlfriend. She cuddled with him, wrapping an arm and a leg around him, with her face resting on his chest. He kissed the top of her head and she sighed, closing her eyes.
So that's what it was like...!
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I'm expecting more reviews this time, people! So please post one! They make me happy and push me into writing. Pleeease!
Now, about some stuff... The song, "Yellow", by Coldplay. I'm not sure about the lyrics...! This is not the song I wanted, actually. I wanted something by Jack Johnson, but I couldn't find a song that I was really satisfied with (because the lyrics didn't match, obviously)! These lyrics are also weird though, huh? Oh well, don't read too much into it! It's supposed to be a cute romantic song! The end! And I know there was no Coldplay when they were in college! Forget about that minor detail!
by Tina
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Before I begin, I would like to say there's a huge mistake on the previous chapter! I wrote "friday" as if it came right after "wendsday". Meaning: I wrote Rachel's encounter with Mindy as if it'd happened the day after Rachel spoke to Ross on the phone! Clearing that up: Say they spoke on the phone again on thursday, ok? Ross and Rachel did not spend the night together... yet!
This chapter is rated R for sexual content!!
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"This is the door" Monica pointed out as she and Rachel reached Ross and Chandler's dorm.
Rachel rushed over and knocked several times, but no one answered.
"Damn it, they're not here"
She sighed on frustration and paced around. Monica watched her best friend with confusion. The whole ride Rachel hadn't told her anything, just acted kind of strange. She took a seat on a set of stairs and Monica joined her.
"Are you gonna tell me what happened now?"
"I just wanna see your brother"
"Why? What's so urgent that you had to drag me all the way here?"
"I didn't drag you, okay??"
Rachel's hostile entonation took Monica by surprise.
"Okay, sorry"
"No, I- I'm sorry Monica. God, I'm so sorry, I'm just so uurghh!!"
"Just wanna say that if you want to talk about it, I'm here" Monica looked at her watch. "Hopefully not for long"
Rachel smiled at her, looking truly thankful.
"Thanks, Mon. Sorry for, hm, for dragging you down here"
Monica smiled back at her.
"It's no problem"
"Did you have any plans?"
"Other than this thing on t.v., nothing"
Rachel's smile at the way Monica's cheeks turned pink.
"I- I had a fight with Mindy"
Monica looked at her and smiled in a supportive way.
"You guys fight all the time, I'm sure you'll work past this"
"No"
"Why, what happened this time?"
"I just... This isn't just about her, Mon, you see... It's about me too"
"What do you mean?"
"This afternoon while I was talking to her as she said these, whoa, stupid things I just... I realised it was just like listening to myself talking!"
"C'mon, Rachel, you know that's not truth. You're the most down-to-Earth cheerleader I know!"
Monica chuckled, but Rachel's look didn't get any better.
"See, that just makes me feel worst for the others, not better for myself"
"Okay, look, Rach... I'm gonna be honest with you. Yes, you're a little spoiled sometimes and a bit shallow and you say these things that I don't agree with and etc... But you're so... open to accept new things and learn! You've been changing so much! You- you had a fat, unpopular friend as a best friend in high school! You were not ashamed to be seen with me at parties and things, I don't think you'll ever understand how much that meant to me!"
Monica's eyes glisted a bit and Rachel smiled at her, taking her hand.
"And- and now you're dating my brother..." Monica looked down at the floor. "I know I gave you a hard time at first, but I can see that you like him. And you like him for the right reasons. Two-years-ago-Rachel would never do that!"
Rachel looked down too, her mind racing.
"My fight with Mindy was over Ross"
"Really?"
"Yeah... She uh... she didn't take the news well and said all these unfair things and I stood up for him"
Monica smiled.
"Wow. That's- that's great to hear, Rach, I-"
Before Monica could go any further, the girls heard Ross and Chandler's voices coming up the stairs. They quickly stood up and waited for them to reach their level. When they did, Ross quickly spotted Rachel and looked surprised.
"Rach? Hey, what are you doing here?"
They smiled at each other.
"Hey you"
"How are you?"
"Fine"
They approached each other and kissed.
"Did anything happen?"
"Not really, I just... wanted to see you"
His eyes glowed and she smiled. She'd done the right thing.
"Have you been waiting for long?"
"No, we just got here, actually"
"Okay then, come in"
Monica looked at Chandler, nervous.
"You know what, we'll give you two some time" she said.
Rachel nodded.
"Thanks"
Monica smiled at Ross and Rachel as they entered the room and was left alone in the hall with Chandler. A short and awkward silence followed.
"Hm, Chandler? Is there anywhere we can watch some t.v.?" She tried her best to get that to come out cooly.
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Rachel looked around Ross and Chandler's dorm. It wasn't too big. Two beds, two desks and a two small bedside tables. She could tell which one was Ross' because it bore a single framed picture of her. She smiled at it.
"This is nice"
"It's small"
"It's still nice" she shrugged and he smiled. "That picture there lightens up the intire room!"
She pointed at her picture.
"I agree"
She chuckled.
"Is this your bed?" she pointed to one.
"No, that's Chandler's"
She looked at the other bed, where a guitar layed.
"Is that guitar yours?"
"Yeah"
"What happened to the keyboards?"
"Nothing, just decided to try something new"
"Are you good at it?"
"I'm still learning" he blushed slightly and Rachel smiled.
"Play something to me" she asked.
He looked at her in this shy manner.
"I- I'm not really good yet"
Se tilted her head and smiled in the most adorable way Ross had ever seen her do it.
"Please"
He smiled back.
"Okay"
He took the guitar and sat on the bed. She took a seat next to him, indian style. He started playing softly. The melody was charming.
"Look at the stars, look how they shine for you. And everything you do, yeah, they were all yellow. I came along, I wrote a song for you and all the things you do, and it was called yellow..."
His voice was almost a whisper. He quickly looked up at her from the guitar and she felt shivers up and down her spine. She loved that song and she knew that even though Ross had not written it for her, he meant it.
"So then I took my turn, Oh what a thing to have done, and it was all yellow. Your skin, Oh yeah, your skin and bones turn into something beautiful. You know, you know I love you so. You know I love you so..."
At this last bit, Rachel noticed the way Ross looked down and blushed. He loved her...!
"I swam across, I jumped across for you, Oh what a thing to do. 'Cause you were all yellow. I drew a line, I drew a line for you, Oh what a thing to do, and it was all yellow. Your skin, Oh yeah your skin and bones, Turn into something beautiful, And you know for you I'd bleed myself dry. For you I'd bleed myself dry...."
Before he got the chance to finish it, Rachel moved closer, stroked an arm up his back and kissed his neck. Ross stopped playing and chuckled.
"I can't play like this"
"That's the idea" she giggled.
"Am I that bad?" he smiled at her.
"No, no. You're that good"
They kept looking at each other for a while, untill he leaned closer to kiss her and set the guitar down. When he was done, his arms occupied themselves with her. She also wrapped her arms around him and thought to herself that was it. She had never wanted anyone so much her entire her. It was a bit scary, actually, but the way he kissed her just made her cast her fears aside. The desire builting up inside of her left no room for much else.
They laid back down on the matress, she on top of him. She opened her legs and straddled him as they kissed even more intensely. His hands finally got bolder and ran up and down her tighs and ass. Hmmm, he had nice hands, she thought.
She moved her lips from his to kiss his neck.
"Do you have protection?" she whispered.
"Yeah"
He quickly sat up and Rachel sat up aswell. He reached into his bedside table and picked up a condom. He set it next to Rachel's framed picture and looked back at her. They smiled at each other and kissed again, this time slower. She sucked his botton lip - God, she loved his lips! - as his hands reached her shoulder. He slipped off her coat and she shuddered slightly. Even more when he finally got to touch her skin. It felt like fire. Wherever he touched her, it felt like he discharged some sort of electricity that traveled from that single spot to every tip of her body.
More, she wanted more of him.
They broke their kiss to take off each other's shirts. Ross stared at her body as she knelt down next to him with her pants and bra on. Her stomach was so flat, her bellybutton so charming. The curves of her chest rose up and down quickly, due her heavy and shallow breathing. He looked into her blue eyes and smiled.
"You never cease to amuse me"
She smiled and kissed him again. This time, having his naked torso pressed up against her body felt even better. Her sweaty palms explored the muscles of his back untill they found their way down and then his belt. Meanwhile, she felt him unclasp her bra. She had to stop her quest on his jeans to slip that off. Before she could resume it, he gently pushed her down to lay with her back against the matress.
His sheets were so smooth. As he began to kiss her shoulders, making his way down to her breats and stomach, she turned her face to a side and moaned. The sheets smelled good too. They smelled of Ross. Everything there was his. His scent, his lips, his tongue, his hands.
None of the guys Rachel had been with before had been good with foreplay. Now that she thought about, it shouldn't really matter to them, anyway. It's not like there were deep feelings involved. But with Ross... No. This was not a mechanical act, not merely about a quick fuck or a way to canalise his feelings.
This was about enjoying themselves. About showing how much they meant to each other and how amazing they could be together... And oh, amazing it was. Rachel was already craving for more. She'd never wanted someone inside of her so bad. And yet, she knew it wasn't just about the physical feeling. She opened her eyes and looked down at him as he kissed her stomach while unbuttoned her jeans. She couldn't believe how much she cared about him.
After he slipped her jeans off, she rolled over to be on top of him. She kissed his lips, his chin, his neck and down his chest. All the while, Rachel couldn't believe that man laying down beside her, with such smooth skin and sexy forms had been her boyfriend this whole time. 'So many sides of him you haven't seen yet', she told herself.
She took off his pants and dared to touch him. Ross closed his eyes and Rachel smiled. But she didn't want to tease him too much, she wanted him to last long. God, she wanted him to last long! He slid her panties off and as Ross turned to get the condom, she got rid of his boxers. After they were set to go, Rachel laid down and pulled him above her.
He kissed her one more time, as if reassuring himself this is what they both wanted. She kissed him back and with one hand stroked the back of his head while the other stroked of of his butt cheeks. They smiled at each other and she nodded, turning her head to a side of the pillow.
Ross guided himself inside of her slowly. He noticed as she squinted a bit.
"You okay?" he whispered.
"I'm fine, don't worry"
He kissed her neck and burried himself deeper. In the midst if the disconforting feeling, Rachel still felt a faint pleasuring feeling and sighed. Ross smiled to himself and waited a few seconds without moving, letting her body get used to him. She moved both her hands to hug him and they kissed. As the kiss got more intense by the second, Ross pushed himself in and out of her.
It had never been like that.
Rachel couldn't explain what it was, she'd had that very same in-and-out routine before. Why has it never been like that? He seemed to be hitting this very interesting spot with much more force everytime he thurst harder and very soon she was moaning his name and pleading him for more.
It didn't take too long untill both climaxed. Rachel first, quickly followed by Ross. He let his weight finally fall onto her body and she hugged him tight.
"Hmmm, wow" she whispered into his ear.
"I know"
He rolled off of her, scared of hurting his girlfriend. She cuddled with him, wrapping an arm and a leg around him, with her face resting on his chest. He kissed the top of her head and she sighed, closing her eyes.
So that's what it was like...!
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I'm expecting more reviews this time, people! So please post one! They make me happy and push me into writing. Pleeease!
Now, about some stuff... The song, "Yellow", by Coldplay. I'm not sure about the lyrics...! This is not the song I wanted, actually. I wanted something by Jack Johnson, but I couldn't find a song that I was really satisfied with (because the lyrics didn't match, obviously)! These lyrics are also weird though, huh? Oh well, don't read too much into it! It's supposed to be a cute romantic song! The end! And I know there was no Coldplay when they were in college! Forget about that minor detail!