Chapter 9: Dream

'It's not good for you to dwell on fantasy's.'

'You don't even know what love is.'

"No…leave me alone."

"Yuna you can't be with him, stop dreaming, wake up Yuna. Wake up!"

"No…STOP!" I screamed as I sat up abruptly in my bed covered in sweat.

"Oh…it's just a dream. Actually more of a nightmare." I said as swung my feet over the side of the bed and sat there with my head hanging down, so that my hair fell down around my face.

I was so perspiring that most of my hair stuck to my cheeks and forehead and made me itchy.

My gown clung to my body from the wetness of my sweat, which made me glad that it was a dark blue colour, otherwise it would have been quite revealing of what it was trying to cover up.

I lifted my head up to look around the room I was in, hoping that this was all just a nightmare and someone would slap me across the face and say 'wake up'.

My back felt a lot better and I could easily move without any pain. I then remembered the cause of it in the first place. I buried my face into my hands and whispered in a tone of anger, sadness and disappoint, "Oh how could he do this? He knew how Tidus and I loved…no 'love' each other. He used Tidus to gain something, which would never really be his. Who knows what will happen to Tidus after he finishes whatever he's trying to accomplish. Oh why can't Tidus just remember me? Why can't he make everything be okay?

I jolted my head up as I heard a noise. I could see the sentinel Seraph standing on the other side of the glass door mumbling some words to himself and then the door opened.

Must be a secret code.

For some strange reason I was actually happy to see him again. I suppose it was because he was the only person who had actually listened to me while I had been here. But I dared not show the feeling on my face. He was still an enemy, even if he had been kind to me.

"Young miss, I was told to bring you dinner." He said holding out a bowl of soup towards me.

I glanced at it cautiously and said prudently, "It's poisoned."

He only laughed and replied, "There'd be no sense to be killing ya yet. Everyone will be there on the day to see the big show. So it'd be a shame to miss out on the main attraction."

Even though I was offended by his words I didn't show it. I couldn't let these people get to me mentally.

"I'm not hungry." I simply said looking away with my arms folded.

He raised his eyebrows and asked, "You sure? You look like you haven't eaten in days."

"What does it matter? I'm going to die anyway." I said angrily, hating the way I said it. It made myself sound like I was giving up. But maybe I was.

"Hey I'm not the one who's doing this to ya. It's the master and that freaky mentor of his." He said looking away thoughtfully.

I lifted my eyebrows in a surprised manner and turned to face him, very interested in his comment about Auron.

"Freaky mentor?" I repeated questioningly.

"Oh yeah, that guy's weird. He acts like he runs the city. He basically tells the master what should be done and the master gives the final word." He said folding his arms in such a way, that I wouldn't want to make him angry at that exact moment.

"Um…do you know who he was before he came here to Zanarkand?" I asked curiously.

"Hmm…oh nah, not really. He came with the master claiming that the master was the new leader of Zanarkand. After that I don't really remember what happened. It seemed like the whole city just…blacked out and when they woke up the master was reigning over all of Zanarkand." He said not realising how much information he was giving me.

"Really? So…what did the master have to say about that?" I asked referring to the part where Tidus suddenly became the leader.

"Oh…I'm not quite sure. But I can tell ya, that mentor guy seriously brainwashes the master. I mean half the stuff that comes out of his mouth…it's all the mentor's doing." He said annoyed, clearly with Auron. "I mean if it wasn't for that guy, I really doubt you'd be here right now." He said looking at me sympathetically.

"Yeah…probably." I said looking down and reminiscing on the 'conversation' that Auron and I had, just before I had come in here. He had practically told me that this was all his doing.

"Well I'll leave this here and look…" he said referring to the soup, as he made me watch him take a spoonful, "It ain't poisoned."

I let a small but noticeable smile creep onto my lips and said, "Well, I guess…I am a little hungry." As I took the bowl from his hand.

"Alrighty then young miss, I'm off…and one more thing…if Docile the other sentinel comes here, don't mention how much nicer I am then him. It ain't good for us sentinels to go soft. Not good for our image." He said and gave me a sly grin and left.

"Wait!" I said looking up from the bowl of soup, I had started to taste.

He stopped and turned around and waited for me to start talking.

"I want to thank you… for everything you've done for me so far. But I want to ask a favour of you." I said hoping he wouldn't refuse my ask.

"Go on." He prompted me.

"Um…I wish…. to see the…the master…before I am to be taken to Mt. Demise." I asked pleadingly, with my head hanging down, not wanting to see his expression.

He was quiet for a few minutes but then spoke up.

"Hmm…young miss I don't know…he is rather busy and…" he began, but I interrupted.

"I don't care if he is busy. He has sentenced me to death and he can dam well have the decency to come down here and talk to me." I yelled infuriated by his lame excuse.

Surprisingly, the sentinel didn't even grow angry at my outburst.

"I see your point but…well…it wouldn't really matter what I say to the master…his mentor will tell him what's best. And I don't think he'll be saying yes to your request." He said fearfully, almost as if he was afraid I would lash out at him again. Just like Tidus had done when he had told me I was in a psycho ward.

"You think I'm crazy don't you?" I asked growing upset.

"Well asking to see the master is…" he began, but once again I cut him off.

"No, I mean overall. You think I really am crazy. Deep down, you even believe the words of that mentor. I'm crazy, that's why I'm here. So just leave before I do something I won't be able to control." I shouted at him and smashed the bowl of soup on the ground as if proving myself.

"Miss I don't believe a word that man says, please I didn't mean to offend you or anything." He said genuinely.

"No, just leave. I only asked to see the master and if you can't do that, then I don't want anyone coming here to see me…until I am to be taken to Mt. Demise." I yelled turning to walk to my bed.

"Very well then." He said seriously.

As I lay down on my bed with my back towards the glass door, I heard it close behind him and I wondered whether he meant, 'very well then' to just leaving me alone until the time came, or whether he meant 'very well then' to asking the master to come see me.

Either way it worked just fine for me.

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"You are very determined and yet you give up so easily."

I opened my eyes to a voice that seemed to be talking to me.

"Hmm? What?" I mumbled still half asleep.

"Wake up lady Yuna. There isn't much time. I must speak with you." The same voice requested.

I turned over to face the room and saw a little boy wearing a purple-hooded cloak standing in the centre of it.

"Who are you? How did you get in here?" I asked looking towards the sealed door.

"There is no time to ask futile questions. I must talk to you about Tidus." He said very prudently for a young boy.

As soon as he mentioned Tidus' name I was wide-awake and ready to listen.

"What about Tidus?" I asked, as I sat on the edge of my bed twiddling my fingers anxiously.

"He is no longer a dream. But I must warn you, that if you are to make him remember what he has forgotten, he will cease to exist at all." He told me warningly.

"But…what's going on? I need to know what happened to him, when he and Auron left us that day." I asked pleadingly.

"I can't tell you that. It may ruin everything." He said seriously with a hint of worry in his voice.

"Please whoever you are…tell me what I must do to make everything go back to the way it was. Before he left me. Before he forgot who I am." I pleaded once more as I left my bed and crawled along the floor towards him.

Then as I went to place my hands on the child's shoulders for support, I suddenly fell straight through him. I lay there on the cold hard floor for a few seconds then I turned my head to face him.

"Lady Yuna, you must understand…it's for the best. Stop dreaming. No one can dream forever." He said and started to fade away.

I suddenly realised who the child was. He was the Fayth.

"No wait, I must ask you why sir Auron is using Tidus just so he can…" but I let my voice trail off as I realised I couldn't stop him. He was gone.

I let my body rest on the floor below and thought to myself. It didn't seem like he was only referring to me when he said 'no one can dream forever'. Almost as if he was referring to himself. He seemed tired. Maybe…

'Knock, knock, knock.'

I turned to face the door, which was already open and in the doorframe stood the person I would have least expected to be standing there.

I rolled over onto my stomach and lifted myself up slowly, keeping my eyes on him until I finally stood only a few metres away from him.

"Hello." He said with no real emotion in his voice.

"Hello." I whispered back.

He started to walk towards me but stopped about a metre away and stared at me carefully with his ocean-blue eyes.

I looked away, afraid that I would do something awkward, like hug him.

After a few minutes of his eyes gazing over me he finally spoke, "Now my lady. Tell me, how is it that you knew my name. I didn't get a reasonable answer last time."

I looked up to see him with his arms folded, and his face wore an expression of uneasiness.

I wanted to tell him everything. How he and I had been together before all of this. That we had fought together against Sin. That he had left me standing there, as I had to watch him leave me forever. But I couldn't. He wouldn't believe me.

"I…I…I wish I could tell you but…" I started off but he cut in.

"But you are too afraid to tell me you are in fact an enemy and you just blew your cover by simply letting my name roll off your tongue. Am I right?" he asked accusingly.

"No…I'm not an enemy…I don't even know how I got here." I stuttered.

"Don't deceive me. If you are not an enemy how is it you know my name?" He questioned angrily.

"Why do you think I am an enemy for knowing your name?" I asked losing my temper.

"Only those who know my name are in fact enemies of mine." He said walking towards me.

"Who told you that?" I asked thinking how ridiculous the whole idea was.

"My mentor of course." He replied, walking closer.

"So let me get this straight, whoever says your name obviously knew you, so they are enemies from the past. And when you came here to Zanarkand, you made sure everyone knew you as master, so you could distinguish who was in fact an enemy and who wasn't?" I asked starting to understand his reason for putting me on death row.

"Precisely." He answered looking at me rather surprised, by my quick thinking.

"So that man…you say he is your mentor?" I asked waiting for a proper explanation of sir Auron's part in all this.

"Sir Auron. He is the one who saved me from your people, and you just won't leave me alone. After two long years. You come to me in my dreams. It's as if you have to invade my life in every way possible and now you're here, trying to brainwash me into believing that you are the real thing." He said getting frustrated once more.

"What do you mean by the real thing?" I questioned, giving him a look of confusion.

"You are not real. You and your people have always been a dream. You sucked me into your lies and dreams before, but I will not be fooled again. If it hadn't of been for Auron, who knows where I would be right now." He shouted throwing his hands up in the air as he walked to the other side of the room and leaned on the hard wall, letting his blonde tresses fall over his face, as he looked towards the floor below.

"You seriously think, that I am a dream?" I whispered turning to face his back from where I was standing.

"I don't think…I know." He replied calming down.

I didn't know what to say. It became apparent to me that Auron had made me and the rest of Spira, as I knew it, appear as the dream, when in actual fact this place that I was in right now was the only dream. He had seriously made Tidus believe all this and now he was going to kill me.

"Do you even know who you were before you came here two years ago?" I asked shaking a little.

He lifted his head and stared at the wall for a moment. He then turned to face me.

"You will not remind me of the deceitfulness I had to live through. It hurt me too much when I found out. Don't you dare make me remember it." He whispered, glaring at me and started to walk towards the door.

He suddenly stopped however and turned to face me once again.

"You…I remember you." He said pointing at me as he stepped closer slowly.

At first I felt happiness fill my soul, but then when I saw his expression it left me once again.

"You were the main distraction. You almost kept me there in your strange world of fantasy's and sorrow. I remember just before I left you looked at me with your pleading eyes. You tried to make me believe you were for real. Only Auron could see right through you. Thank Zenit he was with me the whole time, or I may have still been there." He said stopping and giving me a disgusted look, which cut so deep.

"Now I feel less worried by the fact that you are to be eradicated…in less then three days. If it wasn't for the fact that my schedule was already full, I would have done it sooner." He whispered callously, staring into my eyes.

He stood there for a few moments, almost as if he in fact remembered something else, but seemed to push it away as he shook his head and walked towards the door.

He stopped once more and whispered, "If you ever request to see me again…you will regret it."

He then let the door slide behind him as he left and for some reason I ran to it and started banging on the glass, screaming out, "Tidus come back. You cannot leave me here. Auron is the one hurting you. Please…"

It was then that I realised that the door must have been sound proof, or he was just ignoring me as he rounded the corner. Either way my message didn't get through, and if it did, it wasn't taken into account.

I then heard a voice in my head speak to me, "It's quite like your Yevon belief Yuna…am I right? You remember how shattered you were, when you found out that everything you knew and believed was a lie. Do you really want to put him through the same hurt?"

I replied, "No of course not."

"Then you must die to save him. You must let go forever and die like you should've two years ago. You didn't get to die for Spira Yuna. So why not die for the one you love?"

I suddenly felt obedient to this voice in my mind and whispered, "Alright. But I am dieing for him. No one else."

A/N: Hello again. Tears. Poor Yuna. Anyway enjoy. I don't know if I'll do another chapter before I leave. So I'll say bye for now.

Oh yeah I'm gonna do a disclaimer thing: I don't own anything. But I do own Seraph and Docile. Hehehe!

P.S. For those of you who love Tidus, (that's me. Hehehe.) well in the next chapter we will be seeing his point of view. So happy reading.

And I have decided that I will update when I can. I won't have a definite time. Because I can't wait to update to the end of each week every week. So expect a lot.

But remember I won't be here for two weeks from this Thursday the30th . So don't think I have abandoned the story or anything. As if I would. LOL!

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