Chapter 17: Control
By now you all know who Seraph is. He is the main sentinel in this story. He is the one who helped Yuna in the city. Let's take a closer look at his feelings and thoughts.
I hated doing what I was doing. But I knew that I couldn't do anything about it. I wasn't in control of my body anymore. I hadn't been for a very long time.
Maybe if I removed… I reached my hand up to touch it. No I couldn't…I'd die if I did it. I hesitated and placed my hand back on my side once more.
I'm so selfish.
Surely the lives that were being ruined because of me, were more important then my own. I had nothing to live for anymore, except to be ordered to hurt the people around me.
I was now heading back to the city, to see him. He had told me to meet him there and I had no choice but to follow orders.
He had done this to me. He had made me do his dirty work. I had done things in my past that I was ashamed of because of him. Now…my latest mission was to do to her, what he had done to me.
I didn't want to…but that's not to say that I wouldn't. Once he had control of me…that was it…I was no longer myself.
I wasn't entirely sure of his plan, I just did what he said as it came. I would find out what it would all lead up to in the end. If only I knew what it was now. I knew that it wasn't good. Nothing he did was for the good of anyone but himself.
The first part of the Moonshine mission was complete. I had done what he had asked of me. I had been ordered to find the girl and that was what I did. I brought her back to the abandoned hideout in the forest, where she would be safe until she was to be used. The way he said, "until she was to be used" made her sound like she was an object, and not a person. But I suppose now…she wasn't a real person anymore, not when she was under his control.
When she fought me back in the hideout, I knew that it wasn't her. It was him. He was trying her out. Seeing if it had worked. But I also saw a hint of her still in there somewhere. She was only just beginning to get used to it. She had most likely used her own skills when fighting me. That was why I was so amazed. Because I knew that he wouldn't have been controlling her the whole time. She wouldn't have been able to take the sudden mind-controlling power over her body, for very long.
It showed in her eyes when she handed me the glass of water. She was tired. Which was expected.
He himself could have blown the whole thing when he spoke to me through the microphone in my ear. If I didn't answer I would have been in for it, but that only caused her to lose her trust in me once more. Something I had been trying to gain since she had arrived, under his order.
Maybe I should try to get to know her past, from where ever she had come from and see if I could help her in any way I could. I knew that maybe it would somehow clear my conscience, being able to help someone instead of hurting them. But pretty soon, she would be lost as well. Not being able to help even herself. It was three nights until it happened and I knew that he wouldn't kill her until then.
The thing was though; he apparently had something for her to do that couldn't be done by me. He was going to carry out the rest of his plan with her as his main priority. He needed her for something special. Something he knew that only she could do. Whatever that was…well it was a mystery even to me.
The night at Mt. Demise would reveal all.
I was now heading into the city, leaving the young girl behind. The poor thing must be so terrified. She seemed to be able to contain herself. Never showing defeat, well at least not in front of me.
She was a lot younger then me, about six years I would say and she was handling things better then I probably could have in her position. I wonder who she was in her previous life. Before she came here. Was she a villain? A heroine? Or just an ordinary girl worrying about ordinary things?
No, I knew she would have to be one of the first two. She wouldn't have survived this long if she was just your average girl.
So was she a villain? It might have been possible, but I don't think so. The way she fought was fair and she would have most likely killed me in the hideout if she was.
So maybe she was a heroine or someone who always did, what she thought was in other people's best interests, over her own. Yes that seemed to fit her perfectly. She could have killed me if she wanted to, which I think she would have at least considered, but she saw me as a living person. That showed great power. Valuing life is the most powerful thing next to love.
Hmm… that hit a sore spot. I had never known love before. I may have once, but I couldn't remember anything that had happened before the master had come to Zanarkand. The whole city seemed to be like that. Not being able to remember anything at all. I guess that's why they partied. Trying to forget their worries and live for the moment.
I wish I could be like that sometimes. To be free would be so wonderful.
But I was never to live a life like that. It was wishful thinking. I had a job to complete and until that time, I would have no other choice but to do it.
I was now making my way through the people, building up a sweat as I walked past them.
The thing he used to control me was tricky. If I were to ever remove it, I would die. It was as if my soul was trapped within it. Once removed from my body, so was my soul.
Now I had done it to her. Burdened her with the same life. It didn't matter if I was under his control or not. I had done it. With my own two hands.
I was now out of the crowd and walking towards the abandoned arena.
The poor souls that lurked in there would be very pissed off to see me. I had an attraction for their kind. Not a good one either. They would enter my body easily and torture me for a bit. Not just for any old reason, but because I posed as a threat to them. I could easily take their very existence into my lungs with one breath. But they wouldn't dare touch him. He was the one thing that would end their dreams. He would be the one to make them sleep peacefully at last. In three nights. But not for their benefit. For his of course.
I was now walking up the stairs towards him.
Okay, now all you have to do Seraph, is wait for his next fucking brilliant step to this mission.
I reached the top stand and walked over to him.
"Ah you're back. Everything is in order I trust?" he said with his back to me.
"Yes it is." I answered as I glared at his back, quick to replace it with an expressionless face as he turned around swiftly.
He looked at me with those dark eyes and smiled, "Perfect."
"Now turn around so I can give you a quick check-up." He ordered sarcastically.
I did so and lifted my longish black hair away from my neck, which I had been forced to grow because of what I had to hide.
As my hair was taken away it revealed to him a small, purple device in the shape of a circle, which flashed a red light in the middle every few seconds for a signal. Which I greatly depended on. One flick of the switch and he could have me dead in a gutter somewhere if he felt like it.
"Well everything seems to be in order. I trust you succeeded in planting the one for the girl on her properly." He questioned as I turned to face him.
I reminisced on placing the life-threatening device on her slender neck, while she slept on the bed in the hideout. I had removed her hair away from her neck and moved the device towards it. Tiny black claws dug into her neck and attached to the Atlas (the base of her brain).
A bit of blood managed to seep out, which was quite normal, but after that she would be immune to harm, unless she was to remove it. But she wouldn't know it was there unless she dug deep into her hair and felt it. Her device had been made especially small, so as to make it less conspicuous.
Pretty soon she would be like me. Controlled by him and forced to do the unthinkable. Once I was done here, maybe I would go back to her and tell her everything.
Or would that land us in more trouble then we were already in?
A/N: Well there is chapter 17 for you. It's just to give you a bit of background on what is actually going on with Seraph and how it is affecting Yuna. You might have guessed who the "control" freak is by now. If you haven't…well I should think it was pretty obvious, but I won't tell you, if you like being kept in suspense for a bit longer. I won't be getting into a whole lot of characters minds trust me. Just seeing them through the eyes of Yuna and Tidus is what I plan to do.
I promise you that I have really loving and serene chapters coming. I just have to type them. It's all in my head. (Let's just hope I don't end up like Tidus and have Auron sabotage my memory). Okay, read and review and flame if you must?
Yunie Tidus