Watch Us Sin: Betrayal

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Rating: R

Pairing: Fred/George age 16

Warning: Slash, and incest (or twincest)

Disclaimer: Characters are not mine but JKR's, don't sue, blah, blah, blah.

A/N: I say that it's about time for me to update this story, I hope I did a good job. My writing style has changed or at least that's the way it appears to me. I still don't know what George did, but here are Fred's thoughts and feelings. I've never felt what he's had to feel and I hope it's accurate. So enjoy...

Forgiven

There are times when I'm forced to admit that ignorance really is bliss. I wish that I could deal with the truth as it is, though it may be horrible, though it may be painful. I would have gladly encouraged honesty, but I didn't know then what I know now.

I could almost forget everything. Almost. But that isn't good enough, and I'm willing to admonish the part of me that wishes that it was good enough.

Life has been awkward, the days have been torturous and I want to forgive and forget and live happily ever after. Sometimes I wish life were a fairy tale, handsome prince included. A red headed, hot headed, beautiful brother of mine-prince. My fantasies are more for little girls in pink dresses than for a boy who's in love with his brother. I want to say that I don't love him anymore because loving him hurts just enough for me to want to end it all.

People are noticing, we are not one anymore, it's like they finally realized we're two different people and we are very different. It's odd and strange and the common room is uneasy when we're there, by accident these days.

I don't want to see his face. He shows remorse, but then, I just don't know...anything...I just don't know him anymore. We are perfect strangers. Though neither of us is perfect, we're far, far from it in fact.

I know, I'm blathering on and on and getting nowhere. I want to sort out what I feel, I want to know more than I do. I want a lot of things that I can't have anymore. I suppose I should be more angry at him now, he betrayed me and I should hate him. I should want revenge for the hurt that he has caused me.

But I see that he suffers too, and that's good for now.

I just didn't see it coming. Of all things, knowing him as much as I did, and it came as a total surprise. It's a shock, and I just haven't felt everything yet. I know, I'm jealous, and confused and I'm just sad and disappointed.

I've accepted it as a fact that we are no more, I don't know if I can trust him. I don't know if I want to, he could hurt me again. My brother could hurt me more than anyone, and he has.

I hesitate to forgive him for what he has done. I don't know his motivation, perhaps if I did, than all this would be much easier on me. Or if I knew, maybe I could just get on with my life, maybe we weren't meant to be forever. I always thought we would last, like we were eternal and nothing bad could touch us.

I'm sad to be wrong.

Now I'm forced to choose, will I forgive him and move on or will I forgive him and take him back. This would all be much simpler if I didn't feel everything all at once. If only I could think through this devastation.

I don't want to think anymore, I just want to fall into a sleep where I will not dream of him, where I will not think of him. Where there will be no 'him'.

And maybe... when I wake up, all will be forgiven.

Finis------Forgiven

And that's another update, sry it's short, but it's longer than the last chapter.

Any ideas for what George did to Fred are welcome...please help me, I'm begging... Oh well, it'll come to me eventually.

The story is almost over, a few more chapters and I'm done, it will take me forever to get the chapter out but so far I've enjoyed writing this twincest.

And as I cannot resist: please review, I love critiques

And thankz to all who have read this story, it means a lot to me.