I sat at the counter at the Java Lava; my boyfriend Chuckie standing behind it serving some kids their drinks. It was Sunday and I had nothing else to do but hang around with Chuckie. I turned and looked at one of our usual tables. Angelica, Suzie and Kimi were all sitting there. The place is usually dead on a Sunday morning except for us lot, it was great to have a place like this to ourselves maybe not for the business but it felt more relaxing. I couldn't help but feel great today. There was nothing wrong with my life. I had the best group of friends, I have a great boyfriend and for once my brother hasn't been annoying me!
"Err sorry Chuckie what were you saying?" I asked as I came back to reality.
"I was saying where's Phil this morning?" he's usually around here on a Sunday.
"I don't know where he is, he left the house at about half 10 this morning but I never saw him," I explained.
"So what have you got planned for today?" Chuckie asked as he dried one of the trays.
"Just sitting around here and making your shift more worth while," I grinned at him. He smiled back with his perfect teeth.
Suddenly his smile dropped as he looked at the door.
"What's the matter?" I asked. He was still looking at the doorway so I turned and looked as well. My twin brother Phil had just walked in, noticeably holding hands with his best friend Dil.
"Hey guys," Dil beamed.
I looked across at Kimi who was looking back at me.
"Deville?" Angelica said in disbelief.
"Hey everyone, sorry we haven't been here, we had some things to talk about," Phil explained.
"I think we can see that Philip," I said getting of the stool and pulling my brother to one side.
"What's going on!" I whispered.
"I'm going out with Dil now," Phil said bluntly. I turned and looked at his 'boyfriend'. He was chatting to the others like nothing was up.
"Are you…are you gay?" I asked. He looked past me, staring at Dil then nodded.
"I think so," he said smiling. I backed away from him. Phil was never gay before. This wasn't my brother.
"Lil? Lil it's okay," Phil tried to comfort me, but it wouldn't work. I went back to the counter and sat on a stool. I watched as my brother and his boyfriend chatted to the rest of the gang. Most were as shocked as I was. Angelica and Kimi both looked in disbelief but Chuckie and Suzie were congratulating them.
Kimi finally came over to see me.
"Did you know?" she asked. I shook my head.
"I never thought he would…" I couldn't finish my sentence.
"I guess I'll have to look at other guys," Kimi said disappointed. I knew she fancied my brother. I'd been dropping him hints for months. She must have been devastated.
"Why wouldn't Phil tell me something like that?" I asked her. She shrugged.
"Maybe he's been really confused about it," Kimi said. Suddenly the door opened and we watched Angelica walking out.
"Bye Angelica!" Kimi cried and Angelica pulled a smile at us, then she ran off.
"Where's she going?" I asked.
"I don't know," Kimi replied. I buried my head under my hands, "It won't change anything Lil," Kimi comforted me.
"It will, I know it will."
Kimi went back to the table and put on a smile for the gang.
We sat at the dinner table, Phil was opposite me and mum was by our side. Dad was bringing us the plates full of food. I hadn't said anything since getting home. Mum kept making convocation but I either nodded or shook my head, or said the odd word.
"Lillian what is up with you today?" Dad asked bringing his plate and sitting down.
I stared across at Phil. He looked down at his food immediately.
"You told them yet?" I asked him. He looked up at me and gave me the 'shut up' signal. But Phil was getting on my nerves too much for that to end it.
"Phil has a little secret don't you," I said eating some potatoes.
"No I don't," he said quietly.
"Aww Phil, you've been happy all day until now, what's going on?" Dad asked.
"You got yourself a girlfriend?" Mum asked. Phil looked up instantly and stared at me.
"You're on the right lines mum," I said stirring it up.
"It's nothing mum," Phil said stuffing his mouth with peas.
"You can tell us Philly," Mum said prodding for an answer. Phil ignored it and carried on eating.
"Well if you don't want to tell us," Dad said and Phil sneaked a smile at me. I couldn't take it.
"Phil's gay," I said bluntly. Dad looked at me gob smacked, dropping his spoon onto the floor.
"Lillian, just because you and Phil are arguing gives you no excuse to say things about him," Mum agued.
"But it's true!" I said.
"Philip?" Dad said turning to him. Phil was looking red in the face and shaky. He was trying to say something, but it didn't quite come out. I took a large bite out of the sausage and ate it satisfyingly.
"Aww Philly, it's okay, it's okay," Mum got up and hugged him.
"So it's true son?" Dad asked him and Phil tried to give a nod.
"I think so Dad," he said. I was shocked, they weren't screaming at him.
"You don't care?" I asked standing up.
"It's a part of life Lillian, get over it," Mum said hugging him tightly.
"Favourite child," I said staring at Phil then running upstairs. On my way I grabbed the phone and began to call Chuckie.
"Chuckie, Chuckie." I cried down the phone.
"Lil what's up what's the matter?" Chuckie asked.
"They don't care, my parents don't care, they think it's great," I said crying into my pillow. There was a knock at the door.
"Get lost," I yelled, I didn't care which one of them it was.
"Lil, please talk to me," Phil said.
"I'm talking to Chuckie right now, so go away," I screamed.
"Lil why is this a big deal to you?" he asked.
"I'll call you later Chuckie," I said down the phone then clicking the button. I lay on the bed face up, my pillow covering my face.
"Lil?" Phil asked. I heard the door open so I took the pillow of my head and sat up.
"Come in then," I said as he stood in the doorway. He shut the door behind him and sat on my bed next to me.
"Lil, I'm really sorry," Phil said.
"Why didn't you tell me before?" I asked.
"I would have, Lil, but believe me I was the last person to see this coming," Phil said.
"You really love him?" I asked. Phil thought before he spoke.
"Yeah, I think I do," he said. I started crying, but he did too, he hugged me.
"Why does this matter to you so much?" he asked me.
"I don't know, maybe it's because you're turning into this person I don't know anymore," I replied.
"I'm still Phil," he said.
"Yeah, yeah you are still Phil, still blind to everything around you," I muttered.
"What? What do you mean?" Phil asked hearing what I'd said.
"Nothing," I lied, "I pleased for you."
He pulled away from my side, "Good, I'll bring you're dinner up here if you like," Phil said on his way out.
"Okay, that would be great thanks." I replied. Once he'd left the room I looked at the photo I had lying on my bedside table. It was me and Chuckie and Phil and Kimi. I sighed. ' I guess we'll never be that one big happy family'.