Alone with my Thoughts

Driving home, Ethan sighs as he gets closer to the Mansion. This is what my life is…yet how I wish it could change.. As Ethan and Gwen enter the mansion, Gwen starts to come onto Ethan.

"I'm sorry I yelled at you, Ethan. How about I make it up to you?" She asks as she starts to kiss his neck.

"Gwen, please, not now." Ethan says, pushing her away from him.

"Fine. I'll be in our room, waiting." She says with a wink, as Ethan goes off to the living room.

"Finally, alone." He says to no one in particular as he grabs another brandy, and goes to the window to look out at the night sky.

"I'm turning into a Crane all over again. When trouble comes, I turn to liquor. What the hell is wrong with me? All my life, all I wanted was to be happy. I was with Gwen for so long, and then Theresa…my beautiful Theresa…came into the picture. She showed me love, laughter, fun, and romance. With Gwen, I always have to censor myself around her, yet in some weird way, I love Gwen. I mean, she's my wife…"

But are you holding onto Gwen because of your guilt? "In a way, I guess I am. I've hurt Gwen by turning so many times to Theresa. I married Gwen because she was pregnant. I didn't want my daughter to grow up without knowing her father, like I didn't know Sam."

Are you in love with Gwen? Taking a breath, Ethan sighs. "I don't know. My love for Gwen is very different than my love for Theresa."

What if you picked Theresa instead of Gwen? Stopping for a moment, Ethan closes his eyes as a dream comes to his mind…

Dream

Walking into his home, Ethan smiled as he could hear his children laughing. Most of all, he smiled as he watched his wife play with their children. How he loved his wife. She was beautiful, vivacious, caring, honest, trusting, loving…all the things he could want in a woman, and more. She was his soul mate, his other half. Life ceased to exist without her in it.

Feeling his presence, his wife turned and smiled brightly at him. How he loved her smile! It made him feel 10 feet tall, as though he was the most important person in the room.

"Hello, my love." She said as she went to kiss Ethan.

"Hi, sweetheart." Ethan said, giving her a passionate kiss, and holding her close into his arms. Ending the kiss, Ethan reached down and took his daughter and son into his arms. "And how are my beautiful children?"

"Daddy, Little Ethan and I had so much fun today!" His daughter, Jane, said, radiating with joy.

"Did you, now?"

"Uh, huh!"

"Hey, Dad, can we go throw the baseball later?"

"Absolutely, son!" Ethan said, hugging his son.

Watching his children leave, Ethan took the time to give his wife a hug, kissing her lips softly. "And just what was my beautiful wife up to?"

"Preparing a surprise for my wonderful husband."

"Oh? What kind of surprise?"

Smiling brightly, Theresa reached behind her and placed a small box in ethan's hand. "Open it and find out."

Opening the box, a stick falls into Ethan's hand. Realizing what it is, Ethan looks up and smiles at Theresa "Is this?"

"Yes. We're expecting…again!" Theresa says, laughing as Ethan grabs her into another hug.

"A baby? We're having another baby?"

"Yes, we are."

"Oh, Theresa, I love you!"

"And I love you, Ethan. Always and forever."

End Dream

Waking up, Ethan shakes his head. "That should have been my life. Where did I go wrong?"