"What I Wouldn't Give"

Chapter 4:

Recap:

"What I Wouldn't Give…"

Chapter 4: The doctor...the Dress…

Recap:

"Kagome, listen to me. I think we need to talk. Tell me what's going on…it was so unlike you to just walk out and spout threats at your son...and me." Inuyasha spoke with a tad of harshness as he pulled her inside the highly expensive home of Inuyasha Takahashi.

"I agree but first…I think I'm gonna be sick!"

Kagome silently wiped her mouth as she stood from her crouching position, in front of the toilet. She looked up and almost gasped at the sight of Inuyasha leaning mysteriously against the bathroom door's frame. A confused almost grim line graced his supple lips as he continued to stare at her pale form. She had heaved up everything she had eaten and as sick as it sounds what came up was something she didn't remember eating?

Once standing she walked stiffly to the granite sink. Turning on the faucet she dipped her shaking hands into the warm water, bringing her face towards her hands she wet her cheeks and neck with a sigh. It wasn't long till Inuyasha moved behind her…his hands on her hips…

"What are you doing?" Kagome whispered in surprise at the warm touch of his hands on her skin. He brought his face to rest in the crook of her shoulder. She tried to study his expression but there was nothing except the same confused eyes that she was beginning to acknowledge well.

"Are you sure you don't remember anything?" Inuyasha asked in a low whisper. His tone held a hidden meaning as if he knew something she didn't.

"If I did do you think we'd be in this situation?" She replied sharply.

"I think we need to see a doctor..." Inuyasha thought out loud as he shifted his amber gaze towards the marble floor and stepped away from her warm figure with reluctance.

"What!" Kagome gasped as she turned to face him.

"I'll get the best of the best…"

"Do you think I'm crazy? Do you think I'm lying to you?" She questioned with force as she tried desperately to calm down and not to burst into tears.

"Kagome, listen to me. I don't think you are crazy-"

"Oh, but you think I'm lying!" Kagome interrupted as she finally felt the tears fall down her cheeks.

"Come here…"

"NO. Get off of me! I need to be alone and I certainly don't want to be with you right now." Inuyasha turned with a nod and walked out of the bathroom to leave Kagome to stare back at her reflection. She wanted so bad to break that mirror but of course she contained the urge.

"Maybe I am crazy…" She whispered to her reflection as if waiting for an answer from the unusually pale figure. Looking at her face she could see she had dark bags starting to form under her eyes due to the stress that seemed to be building with every pressing minute.

Taking a deep breath she walked as calmly as she could to 'their' bed and let herself fall on it. It wasn't long till she was weeping out all her emotions…

Inuyasha stood silently watching the love of his life cry in a way he'd never seen her do so before. It made his heart ache to look at her. He found it took all his will power not to walk over to their bed and scoop her up in his arms just to hold her. Inuyasha was always use to being the one to calm her down and making sure she was fine. But…this 'new' Kagome was different, she didn't want anything to do with him and it hurt him to think that she didn't need him like he needed her.

There she laid…her breathing slow and deep…her eyes slightly puffy and red…her form curled into a ball almost like a small child…this wasn't what he was use to. What was wrong with her? Was it finally happening again after all these years of tests and false results? Had the doctors been right…surely not! They were all quacks…it couldn't be.

"Are you ready to go?" Inuyasha asked the emotionless Kagome who was wearing one of his large t-shirts and a pair of worn out jeans.

"As ready as I'll ever be." Kagome replied back as she stepped into their vehicle. The kids were going with them much to Kagome's dismay. She thought it was just wrong to have her children along to have to listen to some stupid doctor say how crazy their mother was but Inuyasha demanded they go…for some reason.

The ride up to the hospital was eerily silent except for the children in the back who were giggling.

"Hello again Kagome…long time no see." One of the doctors smiled warmly at Kagome which Inuyasha just rolled his eyes with annoyance.

"What do you mean? I haven't met you before?" Kagome made a confused glare, causing the Doctor to shoot Inuyasha a shocked expression.

"She really is bad. Well then Mrs. Takahashi…let me show you your M.R.I that we did last year. Oh and by the way we'll need to get a more recent one later."

Kagome shrugged with a nod and he proceeded.

"If you look right here at this part of your brain you see some fuzziness in the top left corner. That is your tumor…it's a small one but we knew one day this would happen to you. Of course we were unsure when this memory loss would take place but…as you can see we were correct."

"What…I have a brain tumor?" Kagome whispered out with shock. Inuyasha immediately place his hand on her shoulder letting her know he was there and that she wasn't alone to face this fact.

"I'm sorry…it'll take at least 10 to 15 yrs. to actually get dangerous…"

Kagome had to breathe for a moment.

"Do you mind if I have a minute by myself?"

"Sure, take your time…Oh, Mr. Takahashi can I speak with you outside?" Dr. Taka questioned. And after getting a small nod from him, Dr. Taka guided him into the large hallway.

"Have you tried anything that may help her remember such as certain events, places, or pictures?"

"No…but tomorrow night we have to attend to the Grammy Award's Ceremony. We attend every year so hopefully that will bring back memories?" Inuyasha replied with hope.

"That's a good start. You need to also sit down with her and talk to about her past." Dr. Taka reasoned. Inuyasha held the urge to roll his eyes at the talking part. Kagome didn't seem to want to talk it was mainly yelling.

"Right…I'll try that tonight."

"OK, now let's go back in there and see what she remembers."

The two walked back into the cold room where a sheet white Kagome sat with tears streaking her face. Her eyes held terror and loneliness that Inuyasha thought he'd never see in her usual warm, chocolate orbs.

"Kagome…" Inuyasha whispered as he wrapped her in a hug that held love and kindness. Kagome couldn't help but be grateful for the act of tenderness so all she could do was allow herself to be consumed by it.

Once Inuyasha pulled away, Kagome had calmed down considerably but still was very nervous and wouldn't allow Inuyasha to let go of her trembling hand that he seemed to be trying to soothe.

"Am I going to die?" She whispered and Inuyasha couldn't help but let a shock wave over take him as he shot a panic glance towards the doctor.

"Not if we can help it…but there is a chance in about 15 yrs." He answered truthfully with a saddened expression.

Kagome took a deep breath trying to control her tears once again. She was so confused this day seemed to be getting worse! Most people just say they were having one of the worse days of their life but Kagome now called her worse day a nightmare that was consuming her…

The Doctor's words were coming out in a blur…and Kagome made no act to try to translate because this all had to be a dream like before. A DREAM…that's what it was…a…dream…

She knew of course it wasn't but she wouldn't let herself believe it. This couldn't be happening to her. It couldn't…but it was what could she do?

"Are you comfy?" Inuyasha asked as he tucked Kagome into their bed. It was currently 11:30 p.m. and they'd just gotten home from a day filled with tests. Kagome had been poked and prodded with every type of medical tool every made and she was very worn out.

"Yeah…" Kagome smiled as she sighed and closed her eyes.

"I'll sleep on the couch…" He whispered to her as he grabbed his pillow off the huge king size bed and then walked over to their closet where an extra blanket was hidden.

"What?" Kagome spoke with confusion as she sat up letting the blanket and sheet fall from her body. "There is plenty of room in here…with me."

"I just thought you'd be more comfortable with me out in the living room." Inuyasha said as he began walking towards the door.

"No. I want you to stay with me…" He halted in his steps at her words. He had wanted those words to come from her lips.

"Alright."

With a smile Kagome snuggled back down into the warm covers…she could feel sleep over coming her body as her eye lids and breathing grew heavy. Just when it was within her grasp she felt Inuyasha jump roughly on the bed while dropping a good amount of hard and sharp objects on her. That was all it took for that much wanted sleep to disappear and soon enough she was awake.

Sitting up she turned to face him only to blush at his shirtless body…of course he didn't notice, he was probably used to it.

"Oh, sorry I didn't think you were asleep…" Inuyasha apologized as he scooted himself to sit next to her along with his many picture albums.

"It's…ok." Kagome sighed as she hesitantly curled closer to him so she could look at all the beautiful pictures along with him.

"I thought maybe this could help you remember some things…this is our wedding pictures." He smiled to himself as he opened the black and silver album to show her a large picture of them together.

Kagome couldn't even recognize herself! She was smiling like crazy and had a gleam in her eye that she'd never seen before as she looked at apparently the one man she loved. Her gown was amazing…it looked like it had diamonds hand sewn onto the dress and Kagome immediately knew the dress material was white silk because she promised one day when she finally did get married she'd want a silk dress. The thin straps went off of her shoulders and flowed nicely with the large bell shaped bottom which had the diamonds sprinkled in a elegant design. It was perfect…

"I'll never forget how beautiful you were when you walked into that rose garden…" He said with a spaced out look and a sexy smile. "Just when we made eye contact for the first time it seemed that all my fear and nervousness washed away."

"We had our wedding in a rose garden?" Kagome questioned with a confused expression.

"Yes, it was held at my Grandfather's rose garden that over looked the ocean. The ceremony was held just as the sunset was going down with candles everywhere…here is the picture. And I remember you were panicking because you thought that the sun was gonna go down before we even started…but everything worked out perfectly. And the just as the sun was going down the sea looked like gold as it sparkled in the background…I'll never forget it." Kagome smiled at the picture it was beautiful. She was amazed at every type and color of roses. Everything must've been perfect with all that greenery and the sunset…candles. She sighed loudly…

"I wish I could remember…" She whispered to herself as she closed her eyes. Inuyasha watched her and couldn't help but inch closer to her…just when his lips were about to meet hers…

"MOMMY!" Aiko screamed through her tears. Kagome shot her eyes open and was surprised to find Inuyasha so close. Trying to ignore what could've happened she moved away from him and jumped off the bed where she kneeled in front of Aiko.

"What is it baby?" She asked her crying little girl.

"I…I…had a bad dream…" Aiko sniffed as she tried to calm down and breathe.

"Aw…sweetheart, come here." Kagome scooped her up in her arms and walked her into the living room.

Shit, where is her room?

Seeing that flight of stairs from earlier, she chanced it and walked up them. Hoping…praying it was the way to her room. Apparently so far she was right because Aiko hadn't questioned her. Once up the stairs she saw a huge hallway that Kagome never would've guessed could fit up here but luckily a door was open and she caught sight of the pink walls. Immediately she knew it had to be Aiko's…

Walking in Kagome couldn't help but gasp at how the room was decorated…it was just like 'her' Aiko's room in their apartment. Everything was the same…everything. She didn't know if she should be happy or disturbed? But she ignored it like she'd done a lot of things lately; grabbing a book from her bookshelf which she knew was her favorite. She crawled into the small bed with her and curled up.

"Mommy, is this Rapunzel?" Aiko questioned with interest. Seeing Kagome nod the little girl's eyes lit up and snuggled deeper into the covers, showing Kagome she was ready for her to begin the story.

"There were once a man and a woman who had long in vain wished for a child. At length the woman hoped that God was about to grant her desire. These people had a little window at the back of their house from which a splendid garden could be seen, which was full of the most beautiful flowers and herbs. It was, however, surrounded by a high wall, and no one dared to go into it because it belonged to an enchantress, who had great power and was dreaded by all the world." Kagome began reading. "One day the woman was standing by this window and looking down into the garden, when she saw a bed which was planted with the most beautiful rampion (Rapunzel), and it looked so fresh and green that she longed for it, and had the greatest desire to eat some. This desire increased every day, and as she knew that she could not get any of it, she quite pined away, and began to look pale and miserable. Then her husband was alarmed, and asked: What ails you, dear wife?' Ah,' she replied, if I can't eat some of the rampion, which is in the garden behind our house, I shall die.' The man, who loved her, thought: Sooner than let your wife die, bring her some of the rampion yourself, let it cost what it will.' At twilight, he clambered down over the wall into the garden of the enchantress, hastily clutched a handful of rampion, and took it to his wife. She at once made herself a salad of it, and ate it greedily. It tasted so good to her…so very good, that the next day she longed for it three times as much as before."

"If he was to have any rest, her husband must once more descend into the garden. In the gloom of evening, therefore, he let himself down again; but when he had clambered down the wall he was terribly afraid, for he saw the enchantress standing before him. How can you dare,' said she with angry look, descend into my garden and steal my rampion like a thief? You shall suffer for it!' Ah,' answered he, let mercy take the place of justice, I only made up my mind to do it out of necessity. My wife saw your rampion from the window, and felt such a longing for it that she would have died if she had not got some to eat.' Then the enchantress allowed her anger to be softened, and said to him: If the case be as you say, I will allow you to take away with you as much rampion as you will, only I make one condition, you must give me the child which your wife will bring into the world; it shall be well treated, and I will care for it like a mother.' The man in his terror consented to everything, and when the woman was brought to bed, the enchantress appeared at once, gave the child the name of Rapunzel, and took it away…with her." Kagome yawned as she felt herself going to sleep as well so she looked down at Aiko and saw that she'd already fell asleep.

As carefully as she could she, Kagome slipped out from under Aiko and tucked her in like the many times she'd done before. After placing a soft kiss on her forehead and placing her teddy bear next to her. Kagome shut off the light and cracked her door knowing how Aiko felt about darkness.

Just when she was descending down the stairs and ready to crawl in bed she heard a loud squeal. Sighing she walked but towards Aiko's room only to see she was still sleeping…

"What the-"Kagome whispered then that's when she remembered. "Kane…"

Kagome hurriedly raced into what she thought was his room and luckily she was right. She could see his amber eyes gleaming in the darkness as he continued to cry. Walking over to his crib she watched as he shot his molten eyes in her direction…his tears coming to a halt.

"Ma…Ma…" He gurgled.

"Hi baby…what's the matter?" She questioned. Now that she'd thought about it…she hadn't been the best Mother to him. Threatening to leave this beautiful baby? What was she thinking? Scooping up the infant she held him close as she let the moonlight guide her to a rocking chair. Cuddling up to him and speaking sweetly she realized how much she was already bonded to him…

He needed her and she wasn't there for him…she felt horrible! It wasn't long till his breathing heaved and so did hers.

Inuyasha was starting to worry about Kagome she'd been up there for an hour or so. She probably just fell asleep.

"Better go and get her…" He whispered to himself as he caught a glance at their alarm clock it read 10 minutes past 1 am.

Once upstairs he checked in Aiko's…nope…once he heard the soft snoring he knew. Walking into Kane's room he saw the two curled up in his rocker. He grabbed Kane first and gently placed him back in his crib. Next he'd have to pick up Kagome and that was pretty simple but it was the stairs he'd have to worry about.

Leaning her forward he placed one of his arms around her neck and the other around her legs and in a scoop he had her out of the chair. Kagome shifted to place her head against his hard chest which at that moment was pretty soft.

"Mmmm…" She sighed as she tried to curl into a tighter ball.

"Could you stop moving…?" Inuyasha whispered mainly to himself but he prayed she'd heard because at the rate she was moving he could drop her.

"O…k…" Kagome mumbled back and let her head fall back like a dead person.

With a small snort, Inuyasha made his way down the dark hallway where he soon came face to face with the stairs. Latching one of his hands to the railing of the stairs he slowly made his way step by step down steep stairway.

"4 more…made it! Go me…" He rolled his eyes sarcastically but you know on the inside he was doing a victory dance. 

After walking to their bedroom he tucked Kagome back in bed for the 2nd time that night and crawled in himself as well.

Sighing he rolled onto his side facing opposite of Kagome know she might not feel comfortable if he cuddled with her like he usually did. Sleep was about to consume him when he felt Kagome shift on the other side and then felt her body press into his back causing him to jump slightly.

"Night, Inuyasha…" She whispered apparently thinking he was already asleep. Once he felt her breathing slow and he knew FOR SURE she was out like a light. He turned around to face her where he pulled her body to his. Inuyasha never noticed he really couldn't sleep without her…he almost felt independent. Like a small child that need their teddy or a nightlight…

"Night, Kagome…I hope everything will be different tomorrow…" After kissing her forehead, he fell into a deep sleep finally!

"Good Morning, Inuyasha!" Kagome smiled cheerfully clad in her 'favorite' red silk robe. Well at least it was her favorite now! "I hope you're hungry!"

"Yeah…" He whispered as he walked into their stone kitchen with grogginess. Kagome was making a huge batch of pancakes, eggs, bacon…and what looked to be toast? Inuyasha never knew Kagome to be a cook?

"Morning Daddy!" Aiko spoke out as she shoved a few more pieces of syrup covered pancake in her mouth with a large smile.

"Here you go and orange juice is on the table." She said as she shoved a plate at him. After taking it gratefully he plopped down in a seat next to Kane who by now was about to start whining because everyone else was eating and he wasn't. "Hang on, Baby. Mommy's coming!"

"Kagome, are you feeling alright?" Inuyasha questioned her unusual cheerful mood. Yesterday, she was depressed and confused. Today, she's cheerful and…cooking.

"Never been better…why do you ask?"

"Well for starters you never cook…" He replied as he shoved in another bite of his food which was delicious.

"Really? I never cook? Wow…what do we eat then?" Kagome asked with a shocked expression.

"Take-out." Inuyasha answered simply.

"Ok, then starting today. That rule of only take out has been banished. Take out is great once in a while but all the time, no." Kagome shook her head as she fixed up her own plate and sat down next to Kane so she could feed him. "So what's on the agenda today?"

"First off…you need to go and get a dress for tonight." Inuyasha explained as he watched Kagome plop a small piece of pancake in Kane's mouth.

"Good boy! Yum-yum! No…don't…spit it out…What's tonight?" She asked as she started making funny faces and noises.

"The Grammy's, we have to be there at 8:30."

"Red carpet!" Kagome squealed with excitement. Inuyasha shot a confused glance at Aiko who just shrugged.

"Kagome, we do this every year?"

"Well…I don't EVER remember being on the red carpet but oh how I've wanted to!" She squealed again and Kane decided he wanted to giggle and squeal with her.

"Ok…so I'm sending Miouga-" He watched her once again confused face and sighed. "That's our limo driver of let's see…about 10 yrs. for me anyways"

"Oh I see! Go ahead with what you were saying."

"I'm sending Miouga to take you to Kaede's, she's your gown designer and plus one of your good friends" Inuyasha continued to explain as he stood and took his and Aiko's plate to the sink where he washed them along with the other dishes.

"Sounds great! I'm gonna go get ready. Aiko, do you want to help me pick out what I'm gonna wear today?" Kagome asked cheerfully. Seeing Aiko nod, Kagome raced over to her and threw her over her shoulder then ran into her bedroom while the two of them squealed leaving Inuyasha alone with Kane.

"Women…they'll be the death of us." Inuyasha whispered to Kane who stared blankly at him then gurgled as if answering him. "I know, man…I know."

"What do you think of this outfit? Comfy?" Kagome asked Aiko who was sitting on their bed as she walked out of the huge closet in jeans and a baby tee.

"Yeah!" Aiko giggled while giving her a thumb up.

"You think?"

"Yeah!"

"Ok, I trust you." After putting on her make up pulling her back length hair in a curly ponytail, Kagome grabbed her purse and walked out of their room with Aiko.

"Well we're gonna be off." Kagome spoke out to Inuyasha who was putting up the dishes. "Oh and thanks for doing the dishes."

"No…prob." He whispered as he looked her over. She looked beautiful…

Kagome shyly smiled as she walked over to him and kissed him on the cheek. "Thanks" Inuyasha couldn't help but feel like he was in high school again...those same butterflies were rising in his stomach.

"That was gross!" Aiko screamed after she had watched her Mom kiss her Dad.

"I'll call ya later…maybe we can go out to eat?" Kagome continued to smile as she made her way to the door. "Bye" With the roll of her eyes and a cute wink they were off to find Miouga. Thank goodness Aiko knows what he looks like.

"There he is!" Aiko screamed as she pulled on Kagome's hand and literally dragged her to the elderly man who was smiling at the two of them.

"Miouga?" Kagome asked once they were face to face.

"Hello, Kagome. Your husband has called in advanced to let me know where we are going. Kaede will be excited to know you are coming." The rather short man said. Kagome had to get use to the whole 'your husband' and 'Mrs. Takahashi'…it was weird but if this was her life now then she better get use to it.

"Whelp! Let's get going Miouga…" Kagome smiled as she and Aiko climbed into the limo not allowing Miouga to open the door for them.

Inside Limo:

"Oh wow! I wonder what this button does?" Kagome exclaimed as she hit a large red button and a short hose shot out at the two of them causing them to scream.

"Is everything alright back there?" Miouga asked over the intercom.

"Uh…yeah fine!" Aiko yelled back to him as she giggled at Kagome's playfully panicked face as she tried to shove the hose back into its 'hole'. "Look at this one Mom…"

"Are you gonna push it?" Kagome questioned with a mischievous expression.

"Should I?"

"Do it!" She smiled with guarded hands over her face and watched as Aiko pressed the button.

M–n-M's shot out everywhere leaving a huge pile.

"HOW DO I TURN IT OFF!" Aiko screamed as she tried to use her small hand to block the faucet thingy they were all shooting out.

"This button!" Kagome pressed another one and instead hidden compartments popped open automatically. "Nope, not that one…"

"Hurry Mom…we're filling up the back!"

"Oh shit-takies!" Kagome hurriedly corrected herself as she started to press all the buttons. After pressing almost all of them she caught sight of a button with a big m-n-m on it. She couldn't help but roll her eyes as she pressed it and everything stopped. "You just knew it'd be the on with the m-n-m on it."

A fit of laughter filled the air as the limo came to a halt.

"Uh oh…I think we're gonna be in trouble."

"Surely not, your Dad owns this thing right?" Kagome watched as Aiko shrugged. "Ok maybe so."

"We're here!" Miouga said to the couple as he opened the door and you almost thought the old man would have a heart attack when at least 3 pounds of M-n-M fell out onto the concrete. He looked up at the two with an accused smile. They returning the smile with a nervous laugh and both tried to scramble out of the car. "It's okay Ladies! I'll just call Inuyasha…and make him clean it." With an evil laugh he slammed the door once they'd gotten out and took off running towards the huge glass, skyscraper that read the logo: Kaede's Designer Gowns

"This place is huge!" Kagome whispered to herself as she followed Aiko up a flight of marble stairs.

"I know…" Aiko agreed as she led Kagome to an elevator. "But you already knew that Mom?"

"…of course…" She gulped back as soon as they'd reach the elevator. Aiko pressed the button because she told Kagome it was always her job to do that. "Oh my lucky stars, Kouga?"

"Excuse me?" The very handsome man spoke out confusedly as he stepped out of the elevator. "Oh Kagome, didn't your husband tell you to stay away from me?"

"What?"

"Ever since that party he warned me to stay away from you." Kouga explained with a sexy smirk. "Who would've thought we'd run into each other"

"Who would've thought…are you doing ok?" Kagome asked fully aware of the way his eyes would wonder their way down and she highly doubt he was reading her shirt.

"I'm doing great, what about you?"

"Mom, we have to go the elevator!" Aiko tried to hurry her up.

"Oh ok, well I guess we'll see you later. Bye!" Kagome yelped out just as Aiko roughly pulled her into the elevator which was about to close. "What was all that about?"

"Don't you remember? You and Daddy got in a big fight over him…He's a bad man and were trying to take Daddy's money and you." She explained with an attitude as she pressed the button to level 5.

"And me?"

"Yeah, Daddy thought you and him were 'together'…" Aiko continued as she used her fingers to highlight some of the words.

"Oh I see…" Kagome wondered what happened between all of them. Did she have an affair? Surely not…how could she do such a thing?

DING

Kagome felt the elevator come to a halt and open. Her mind cleared once she caught sight of how beautiful the surroundings were. Everything was either glass or stainless steel...

"KAGOME!" An elderly woman screamed as she drew Kagome up in a tight, breathless hug.

"Hi Kaede…" She wheezed out and Kaede immediately dropped her.

"Oh excuse me, Darling. But you haven't come over in such a long time to see me. Now Inuyasha called me up to inform me of the kind of dress you'd want and need for tonight" Kaede winked "We'll add a little extra in their for 'later'"

Kagome nodded with a lost look but dismissed it because she knew sooner of later she'd find out.

"Come, come! We have much to discuss and do!" Kaede squealed with excitement as she pulled both Aiko and Kagome into her designing room.