Bloodstains
God, I hate this. I hate this life, hate worrying about Itsuki, hate worrying about Mana, hate fighting, hate being different, hate the Tetris game, hate it all.
In short, I really have a tendency to hate a lot of things.
Anyway, where was I? Well, I was sitting in the living room, ready to kill myself. Well, actually, it's Itsuki's living room (if one can call it that; I'm sure tripping over the carefully assorted junk could cause it to be called a dying room, but I digress.). At least there, I don't have my sister bursting into the room right when I was about to kill myself, squealing, "Kaname, Kaname, you'll hurt yourself with that! Give it to me before something happens!" You'd think that if I have it pressed to my neck, it's not that hard to figure out it's intentional. Maybe I should have done it in the bathroom, with a locked door. But really, I don't need my death summarizing my life: crap.
But I'm just sick of everything.
I'm sick of trying to protect Mana. She loves me, I know that much, but…it's just too hard to do everything I have to do, whether it be for her or someone else.
And Itsuki…my closest (and sometimes I feel my only) friend. He's probably the person I'll miss the most. I was always trying to help him, always trying to be there for him (even if I didn't show it). I feel bad I'll be letting him down this time.
Ah, I hope he's not mad when I get here.
It's very hard to get bloodstains out of carpets.
6.02.05
This is really messed up. I think one might be able to call it a companion piece to I'm Smiling (another JO fic by me, though it's still lurking in the Misc. category…), except this one is just…different.
Although…if the side story made by the original creator takes place about ten years after the regular story, then where does this leave Kaname? And if Itsuki is wearing his eyepatch that he had in it, would he be able to see Kaname?
Personally, I don't see why I'm thinking about this, as I've defied canon laws in fanfics many times, and no one really came after me before…oh well, please review.