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A few more says passed. I felt like I was on a roller coaster. My mood was changing at lightning speed and a day seemed like only a second.

The letters were coming daily. I almost disgusted myself; I would wait for them. It was like I was obsessed. I put them in order from he first day that they arrived to the last. I would become impatient if I didn't get a warning within an hour of being awake and I felt dazed and confused when one came. It was like the letters kept me on the threshold of sanity; they controlled my mood, my mind, and my appearance.

I'd stopped taking care of myself. I was suffering from extreme anxiety; the letters made me feel as if I was being watched all of the time.

"Are you okay?" Draco asked me fourth period in Advanced Potions. "Ginny?"

I jumped. "Huh?"

"That's it," she said forcefully. "You're going to bed."

"No," I said as the bell rang.

He began to pull me up the steps. "Yes. What's your password?"

"I can't tell you."

He stopped my, both of his hands on my shoulders. "I said, what is your password? Now."

I looked at the floor and mumbled softly, "diskoinamation."

The wall slid open. He dragged me to my room. "Sleep. Now."

He sat at the foot of my bed. I sighed then shut the door, supposing that he was right.

After pulling back the covers, I laid down. "Are you going to watch me sleep?"

"I'll read," he replied, nodding his head. "Sound good?"

"Yeah." I shut my eyes.

Voices whisper with the wind

Of places ye have niver been

Singing songs of ebb and flow

Of secrets ye will someday know

Blood. Blood was everywhere, seeping under the creak between the door and the floor. I was in a dimly lit room and I could smell the stench of urine and blood, combining to make a nauseating smell.

"Hello?" I choked. Against my will I pushed the door open.

I would've screamed but I couldn't breathe, much less speak.

A young girl lay on the floor. Her flowing hair surrounded her head. I rushed over to her and pushed a lock of hair out of her face. Her eyes stared back at me, cold, dead… lifeless. I cradled her in my arms, her blood soaking my shirt.

Her torso was slashed open; her hands were lying onto of it. It looked as if she had tired to stop the blood flow. Her fair lips were dry and cracked. They were slightly parted as if she'd just taken her last breath, but I knew it wasn't true because her beautiful skin was swelling and she's wet herself; she'd been dead over an hour.

I began to cry. I cried for her lost soul, her future that would never exist. Jessica was dead; dead in my arms, and there was nothing I could do about it.

Listen to the sea

There is a land far below

Awaken from your sleep

To the mysteries down below

I sat straight up. Malfoy looked up from his book. "Sleep good?"

I was breathing heavily. "She's dead; I dreamed that she's dead."

"Who?" he asked worriedly, snapping his book shut.

"Jessica," I said, throwing back my covers. "She's dead! She's dead, dead, and I just couldn't help her…"

"Come on, Ginny, she's not dead," he laughed a little. "Trust me, she's here. She came in with Frederic about fifteen minutes ago. They're on the sofa. Go check if you don't believe me."

I threw open my door and rushed out.

Draco was right. They were on the loveseat, kissing.

Draco pulled me back quietly; we went back to my room unnoticed.

"I told you," he said softly. "That must've been some dream."

"It was so real," my voice broke. "Maybe you should leave for a while. I'll see you at dinner."

He nodded his head understandingly and left. The images of Jessica dead over swept me time after time until I just couldn't take it anymore.

I found my knife and sat on my bed. I touched the cold metal to the flesh of my skin. Pressing down as hard as I could, I slipped it as fast as I could along my vein. Blood, my blood, came pouring out. I gasped and caressed my wrist. A burning sensation fled through my whole arm; I felt so alive. Slowly my focus was blurry and my eyes began to close.

I heard the door open.

"Oh my god! Get help now!"

Screaming, so loud… I just wanted peace…

Everything went black.