Title: Wishes from the side
Pairing: Taka-->Fuji (minor TezuFuji as well)
Notes: Second person, for a livejournal challenge for unrequited love.
You watch from the side lines. You see Fuji win, again; see his dark-tan hair swaying in the wind and cerulean colored eyes scrunched up into that ever present smile once more. But it's not you he instantly turns to for congratulations, it's never you. You watch the two of them walk away from the court together, to get water you suppose. You wish that he would go to you instead, instead of Tezuka.
And you have such mixed feelings. You know that he is happy with him, and his happiness is the thing that matters to you most right now. And yet you are full of hate. Hate that it is not you whom he is happier being together with. You know that you are friends, but nothing more than that in his eyes, and you are not even certain how much of a friend he sees in you, really.
You wonder why it had to be this way. Why you had to fall in love with him.
They are coming back now, the two of them, together. Fuji is laughing about something and his companion is quiet, as usual. You wonder if the smile he wears on his face is true, or if it is merely a mask used to cover up some inner pain. You know hardly anything about him, and wish that he would allow you close enough to change that.
And yet you know it won't happen. Sometimes you are able to fool yourself for a short while, when he talks to you and laughs happily at something you said, or compliments you on the sushi you made. You learned to make wasabi sushi, your specialty, for him, because you know that he likes spicy food and tastes that most other people would be loath to eat. You wonder why that is. Is that rumor that Fuji just has no taste buds true? Maybe you'll get up the courage to ask him one day. Maybe.
And maybe that day will really come, someday. The day when it is you he looks to for congratulations, when you are the one that he freely jokes and laughs with. The day when you are the one he goes to for comfort when it becomes too much of an effort to keep wearing the mask. But for now, you will remain on the side. Because if that is what brings him happiness, you are willing to sacrifice your own.