A/N: ok, Well I'm already on chapter 5 everyone! Apparently this is going to be more than 5 chapters! Is that a good or bad thing? I'll hopefully finish this one soon, because I'm finally getting ideas for another YYH Fic. I have an idea of what it's gonna be called, but I'm not gonna tell you until I'm about 3/4 of the way through this fic (if i ever know where that point is) i want to start writing it, but this is one of my top priorities and as soon as I manage to get the next couple chapters up, I'll be continuing on another few of my fics. I thank everyone who reviewed and I'll put you faithful people at the bottom... you know who you are my faithful readers. I got one new person to review. As soon as 2 more different people review I'll put up chapter 6 which is about 1/3 of the way done and already 3 pages... sweatdrop and sigh it's a good thing for you readers because you get to read a long chapter for once! I'll stop talking now because I could go on forever but if I do, you'll never stop me. I hope that you like this chapter as well as the others... Jane!

Disclaimer: hmmmm let me think about it. When Hiei and Kurama get married in the anime. That's when I'll own it Since that never happens, I guess that I don't get to own it.

Chapter 5: You'll see me soon Kurama

(shorter A/N: this chapter is more from Hiei's POV for you. It's only fair that hiei gets one too since Kurama got one.)

I sat in my hospital bed awaiting news of when i could leave. It's been 3 days since i last saw Kurama and he hasn't been back since. Tears sprung to my eyes thinking about it. I'd been so cold to the person I love and I saw the hurt in his eyes after i asked him to leave. Being alone like this, it's more lonely than i thought it would be. Oh, Kurama! If only you'd come back and see me. The humans in this place say that i have to stay here for another week before I'm even allowed to ask about leaving again. I tried to escape, but when I realized that I was too weak to even move really, I gave up and let them do their treatments on me without writhing in pain or complaining afterward about how much pain they caused me. The doctor says I'm just putting on a brave face and that it really does hurt. It stings on occasion, but in the reality of it, it really doesn't feel painful.

As much as I want Kurama to come back and see me, I just want to go back and let him know the truth about the whole incident. I tried to kill myself. I released the dragon from my arm and let it try and kill me. I was in so much emotional pain it was hard to keep myself alive for much longer. Being forced to stay int this awful place has made me look back on the incidents of my life and I realized that i could never be happy with Kurama. Not really. I tried to convince myself that my life would be better without Kurama in it, but it was nearly impossible. I love that fox with all my heart and that's not something that i can really change. Somehow, that kitsune crept his way into my heart and that fulfilled my very needs. Without Kurama by my side, it makes me feel incomplete. I'm not whole without my other half, Kurama. 'Thank you for making me realize my mistakes. Now that I've been good and finally gotten over the fact that we started fighting again, will you come back to me?' I thought.

After a couple more days, Kurama decided it was time to come and see me. He knocked gently on my door. I opened my eyes. I'd just woken up from a short sleep. "May I come in?" Kurama asked me kind of shyishly. "Or do you want me to keep leaving you alone?" It's been a week since Kurama had last seen me. I smiled gently. I was still slightly tired. The pain comes and goes, and when Kurama entered all pain, emotional and physical, evaporated and i was joyous.

"You can come in Kurama." I looked down not wanting to meet him in the eyes. "Kurama. I have to tell you the truth. I really missed you." I looked up at him and saw tears in his eyes. "It's been so hard to stay away from you Hiei! I wanted to come everyday for the last week and see if you'd forgive me." Kurama started to cry and i pulled on his hand and led him to the bed. He sat his head against my shoulder and cried. Gently I stroked his hair and whispered gentle words into his ear. "I'm ok now. If you want, I'll tell you why I was in that alley way. After I tell you, I'm not too sure how you'll react. Shocked first most likely and then angry with me. Please Kurama, please. I'm sorry for all the crap that I've put you through."

"Hiei? What is it? What do you need to tell me?"

"Kurama, I tried to kill myself."

Kurama was shocked at my words. "You tried to kill yourself? I don't understand. Why would you do that?"

I looked at my hands avoiding the view of Kurama's gaze. "I don't know exactly. I was just so depressed over our fight and i thought that you didn't want to be with me so i decided to try and rid myself from you for good. I never thought i was going to go that far, but it seemed like the only way that i could give you peace. I never meant for it to go that far, but I didn't want us to fight anymore so I decided to end it."

"By ending your life!How can you even think about it so easily like that? What were you thinking? That I'd be happy with you deciding to kill yourself? Hiei, I love you no matter what you try and do. I want you to be a happy person with me. The doctor said that I can take you home tomorrow. Do you want to get out of this place then?"

I smiled. He didn't need answers to those questions right now. If he pushed I'd tell him then. "Yeah, Kurama, i do. Get me out of here. I'm sick of wearing this dress thing. The sooner i get out of this place, the happier that I'll be. I'll be happier as long as I'm with you Kurama. That's what will make me happy. Can you keep me happy until i decide to leave and pursue something else."

Kurama looked at me like i was using him as a toy or something. I laughed gingerly. "I'm joking Kurama. I'd spend the rest of my life with you. I love you and i know that being with you is the right thing. Thank you." I smiled and kissed him on the cheek. "I'll see you tomorrow."

Kurama had taken my hand and he let it drop. "Ok. Be sure to get rest. If you don't... It'll be up to me to sort out the punishment." Kurama grinned like a cat. "I'll see you tomorrow."

That grin sent shivers of pleasure down my spine. It wasn't uncomfortable, but it was kind of unusual. Kurama didn't really have that kind of effect on me.

The next day...

"Yeah! I'm out of this place finally!" I stretched my arms into the air and i saw Kurama's mom standing near the car in the parking lot.

"Hiei, it's nice to see you again." She greeted me.

"It's good to see you again. I need to talk to you when we get to the house. Is that alright with you two? Kurama? Kurama's mom."

"Yes." The both answered at the same time. The car ride home was long and fulfilling. I felt more whole than i had in weeks. I looked up at the house that Kurama and his mother lived in. This is my home. Finally, i found a place to call 'home.' Kurama, Thank you for letting me be with you. I smiled and looked around. From now on I'd be living here with my love and finally i was complete. You, my love made me complete. I sighed and walked into my new home.

A/N: Ok this is good again! I thought that the sad stuff would last for a longer time than this but oh well. The 6th chapter as i said is well underway and I'm so happy that this is becoming even better than what i thought! Finally i made a chapter that i like. I appreciate the fact that you keep up with the story and I'll see you all later because I'm getting kicked off the computer for now!

6th chapter preview: Kurama finally let me stay here. I'm going to talk to his mom soon.

"Mom?"

"Oh Hiei come and sit down."

"Can i start dating Kurama?"

He he I'm evil! Well ponder over this and then well, ponder more. Reviews at the bottom like usual. Jane 'till 6!

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