A/N: ok this is chapter 7. As you probably noticed this chapter is quite a bit shorter than the last one. You're lucky that i finally got around to getting that chapter done. I hope that parts of it weren't too dull because my hand at lemon... as you probably noticed, really isn't very good. They finally slept together and both of them (to some extent) are afraid that Youko will drive them apart. Time for the good news, bad news game. I'll post the good news first.

The good news is: that Youko will try, almost succeed, but doesn't manage to get the two of them apart, and that this will be at least a 10 chapter fic.

The bad news is: writer's block has struck again and i could barely finish writing this chapter, the despair is really yet to come, and the chapters will be shorter for the next few of them.

Begging: Don't kill me pleasedodges sharp flying objects

Blah is either voice in head or a flashback

Chapter 7: Don't hurt him Youko!

Hiei and Kurama progressed within themselves and both of them were worried about Youko possibly driving them apart. When they finally decided to talk about it, it was good because Kurama's mom had to go out of town again. After a few weeks of her son and his lover dating, she had finally accepted the fact that her son was dating a man.

"Hiei, we really need to have a talk. And don't ask about what because we both know what it's about."

I just sighed. "I know. It's about Youko right?" I said worriedly and being very tired.

Kurama looked at me with widened eyes. "You fear he'll try and drive us apart too?"

"I don't fear it..."

"Yes you do. You fear it very greatly."

"But I need to have reassurance that he won't be able to succeed in getting us apart."

"No you don't. You want Youko to drive you two apart so you can have him. You want YOUKO! Not the 'Kurama' part of him, the Youko part of him. Don't you?"

"No. I just need to make sure that Youko won't try and stop me from loving you."

I'm talking to the voice in my head. I'm going crazy and it's really not that funny any more. I need help. Kurama!

"Hiei? Are you alright?" The real Kurama looked at me slightly nervous.

"Yeah, fine. Really I'm fine. Don't worry about me." I told him with a I'm- too-happy look on my face.

"Hontoni?"

"Hai!"

Listen to yourself. Your answering to a person who doesn't give a rat's ass whether you exist or not. Just embrace yourself. Accept that all you want is Youko. That's the only thing that will keep him from loving you. He'll never accept you for yourself. He sees you as you are: the Forbidden child of the Ice people. You mean nothing to the 'Kurama' that you care so much for. The only thing that he wants is to use you as a sex slave, a toy, and then discard you like nothing ever went on between you two. You don't have a real place, because all you are is a stupid, short child who can't accept what really lies within his heart!

No! Your wrong. You just have to be. I love Kurama, and only Kurama truly. If i have to give myself up to be with him, so be it. Kurama, Youko. Both of you listen to me now. "Kurama don't talk for a few minutes ok?" Kurama only nodded as to heed to my request.

"Listen to me Youko. I love Kurama for him. If you want to be with me, then find a different me to be with. Don't come between us or I may have to kill you. Youko, Kurama has an entirely different soul apart from yours so if I have to kill him, I'll kill myself to be with him." I finished basically just shouting at Youko through Kurama's body. He just looked at me stunned. "... Ummmm... Hiei?"

"Yeah?"

"What was that all about?"

After I'd finished explaining about the voice, Kurama had told me that he had had a similar experience during our conversation as well.

flashback

"You fear he'll try and drive us apart too?"

I know that you do, Kurama.

"Of course I do. Why would you drive the two of us apart? You know how Hiei and I feel about each other."

Yes I do. Yet, you really need to learn to survive without him. You depend on him. You know the facts. You can't live without him by your side. Don't worry about it so much. I just want the personality that is being locked up inside him.

"You know as well as I do that you can't have him. You can't hurt him. You know that I wouldn't let you."

You wouldn't be able to stop me. Period, and that's the end of the story.

"I can stop you. I've done it before. You don't really want to make me angry again do you? You remember what happened last time you made me angry don't you?"

Of course. You trapped me and didn't talk to me for oh so long. It was such a tragedy. If you couldn't tell, I was being sarcastic.

"Oh, I could tell. It wasn't really all that hard you know."

Shut up. I'm going to win and well, I'll win.

"No because I won't let you."

You won't really have a choice in the matter. You can't hurt me now. The fact that you count on me is the fact that you keep up with me. There's also the fact that you release the real you, meaning me, on more than occasionally. If you really want a choice in the matter, just give up your body and let me have it. Besides, I bet Hiei is a great lover.

"We've only slept together once."

But you liked it didn't you? When you felt him beneath you, having the power, you must have liked it.

"..."

By your silence, you must know that you won't stand a chance against that argument. You'll have your fun for a while, but when I get your body, don't be expecting me to give it up so easily. I'll have my way, and eventually the dark side of your lover boy will belong to me.

"DON'T YOU DARE HURT HIM YOUKO! DON'T YOU DARE!"

Kid, I'll be seeing you around.

A/N: Ok this was an interesting chapter... youko is driving them apart or will be soon? ... I'm making this slightly more confusing than I hoped that it would become. I can't thank the people that review this fic constantly enough. There's a total of reviews for this fic and it makes me very happy! The list of people who reviewed and seem to like it so far...

Her awsomeness Bridget Depp (hope I spelled that right)- Thanks for the review again.

Very bad evil kitten- Thanks for the advice, and I read some really scary graphic lemon ones to try and get me started, but I just have this little problem with the people that live in my head to where unless they want to be written about in sex scenes, they won't let me write the scene. I know I'm strange, but it's just the way I am. Thanks for the review.

Hiei's gothic angel- Thanks for the review and once again, it made me laugh. I thank you and sorry that it took so long to update. I hope you'll read the other series of YYH I have running as well and review that too. I'm crazy and you act kind of like me in real life. Thanks for laughs and hope to see another review for this chapter

Tsukikitsune- Thanks for the review, but really there isn't a lot of detail in it. sweat drop thanks though. Everything is going according to story line for this fic. I was hoping to do that sooner, but I... I'll be quiet now.

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Yeah a whole 6 people reviewed. It makes me feel all warm and fuzzy on the inside. All you people rock. I give you hugs, puppies and Ice cream. The reason for that is because it's already getting hotter down here almost everyday and it's kind of hard to get that to work. I'm happy that I finally got this chapter done because it's been bugging me for a while and people were bugging me on my email to hurry the hell up. I'm not going to mention any names of course. I hope that in the meantime of waiting for me to post the next chapter you'll read the other series that I have currently. It's based off of the one shot fic that I did called Just need a place to spend the night. This is going to be a trilogy called May you be mine and the first part is called roses and thorns.

The first part is mainly from Kurama's POV. And of course the characters are OOCness. I hope that you don't mind. I'll stop now because if I go on any longer I"ll be dead and falling asleep. Time here is 12:14. Tired need sleep for preparing for cross country running for next year... night and review and read the other fic I currently have up.