A/N: Yeah! The chapters are finally going to get longer!hears cheers in the background Well, I just thought that I'd let you know that considering that I've decided how long it is really going to be. I have a lot to get through in just 3 more chapters after this one. So from here on out, the chapter will be getting longer. I'm cutting the limit of this fic to 12 chapters, and if I end it on a weird note or a bad place, I'll make a sequel series. Aren't you guys lucky? So I'm figuring that if I make each one around 5-11 pages, I'll get through everything that I want to. If not, then I'll have to make the sequel series start off kind of where I left stuff important to the story line out. I hope to see you for any future fics that I decide to write so please keep up with the stories and please read the author's notes. They can be extremely informational for my readers. I'm strange and hope you don't mind. So please don't kill me for forcing you to read chapter too terribly long, but I need to hopefully get this fic done before I collapse from exhaustion. For those of you who were wondering, the person who might or might not being raped is Kurama. In my head, it seemed like the only way to keep from hurting Hiei anymore than I already have. I figured that it was time for a little change of pace and making him suffer just a little because it seemed unfair to make hiei the one to go through all that pain all the time. I'm strange and want the characters to face around the same amount of sadness and grief as possible because I'm strange and want all of you to start wondering what is going through my head and I'm going to stop ranting now and let you read the fan fic before I go on and on for a whole page! I'll see you at the end for Reviews and Important Information that may be useful for you!

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Chapter 9: My life is in chaos

(Little A/N: This is mostly from Kurama's POV once again. Does anyone else know how hard it is to write from Hiei's perspective?)

I looked in the bed next to me. It was wrinkled, but there was no Hiei sleeping in it. I blinked the sleep out of my eyes and tried to remember. 'That's right,' I thought. 'Hiei left you for Makai yesterday. He'll probably be back tomorrow. It will be the 3rd day you know.' I sat up and wanted to find something to do considering it was a Sunday and Hiei wasn't there to cure me of my boredom. For some reason, the way that Hiei left made me think a lot more about us. How often would Mukuro be calling back Hiei to do errands for her? Would he get so wrapped up in his work that he forgot about me? Would he find another person to love besides me? If he really needed to leave and that he had an errand to do was just an excuse, he could have said so in the first place.

As Kurama walked down the street, he didn't notice the stealthily shielded Hiei following him. He was concealing his youki and hoped that Kurama wouldn't notice him for a while. 'He's walking down the street towards the park we told each other how we really felt was... Why in the world would he go there?'

I sat down on the bench and noticed something wrong with the place, like I'd been here before. Then I realized that this was where Hiei and I told each other how we really felt about each other. It's only been a couple of days and I already feel so lost without him by my side. I've come to depend on him so much... Tears start to well up in my eyes as I think that Hiei might never return. 'I've scared him off. What the hell is wrong with me?'

"Hiei, why aren't you here?" I whisper into the air. "Why aren't you here by my side like you should be? Why did you leave me?" I say still whispering. Then I feel him near me. And then I hear that wonderful voice of his, the one that can drive me wild.

"Who said that I wasn't here with you, or beside you like I am right now?" Hiei asked looking at me with concerned eyes.

" I thought you left me forever." I told him hugging him and putting my head in the crook of his neck and pulling him into an embrace.

"Why would I leave you forever?" He asked me with a serious tone. "I thought we went through this already. I love you and you forever. If I didn't why would I have even bothered coming back to see you?"

"I'm sorry," I sniffed and burrowed my head into his neck. " I don't know why I thought that, but I was thinking that if you left me, I'd have so much to lose that I might end up hurting myself in some way." I started crying again and was grateful that I had Hiei there to comfort me. Hiei embraced me and we started walking home together...

That's when I woke up. It had been such a wonderful dream too.

I looked at my bed to find it empty. It was similar to the dream. Only there was no wrinkles in the sheet. It was the 3rd day actually. I wandered around and hoped that Hiei was going to be back soon. There was something wrong. Hiei would have usually come to get me and tell me that it was alright that he'd been gone for only a few days, yet there's something that doesn't sit well with me. I'm sure that Hiei is in danger of something. I need to know for sure. It's time to go to Makai!

With Hiei and in his POV.

I sat down on a rock trying to regain my breath. I'd been running since morning from a couple of higher A-class demons that could easily win against me since I had had my guard down. It was getting harder and harder to keep out running them. Even with my speed, I can grow tired easily from too much excerise which I'm getting right now. I hope Kurama isn't worried about me and comes back to look for me... if he does, they'll kidnap him and possibly use him as a slave! There's no way that I would allow that to happen to my fox, so I have to get back to him as soon as possible!

With Kurama and his POV

I looked at the portal. 'Time to go and find my lover. I can't be happy or calm until I know he's safe.' I jumped through the portal and pulled out a rose in case I got into any real danger. The demons here might give me some trouble, but I can handle them if need be the case. I was trying to sense Hiei's youki when I sensed another strong aura coming towards me at full speed. It was someone that I knew, I just couldn't put my finger on it. Before I had the chance to find out who it was, my world went black and I fell into the oblivious darkness.

When I woke up, I realized that I was chained to a wall. My head hurt and I was still able to move around enough to feel the patch of dried blood on my scalp. Someone had hit me extremely hard with something and I wasn't exactly sure that I wanted to know who it was. There was something incredibly wrong with this picture. Where was I and why capture me of all... demons...

"So, you're finally awake are you?" a voice asked me in the darkness.

"Yes. Who are you and what do you want with me?" I asked scanning the area to see if I could see my attacker.

"Kurama, you make me feel so unloved by your tone and your expression." The voice said. "You should know me Kurama, after all, I was a previous lover for the infamous Youko. I am Karasu."

My eyes widened when I should have known it was him. It couldn't be possible! I killed him...!

"What's with the shocked look my dear Kurama? Aren't you happy to see me?" he asked with an excited look in his eyes.

"I killed you... I watched you die. You were dead after I used that plant... how?"

Karasu chuckled in amusement. "Yes Kurama you did kill me. I've come back to get revenge on you for that. You'll just have to be punished for it!" He yelled as he grabbed me around the throat. Suddenly, out of nowhere, he kissed me. I pulled my head away in disgust and anger. "Why did you bother to capture me? You have no use for me." I said with a menacing glare.

"Oh, but Kurama I do. You see, there's a little rumor going around that you and the Forbidden Child of the Ice People are, how should I put this, getting it on?"

"What's it to you?"

"Well, you see, my dearest Kurama, since I can see how much you love him, and how he crossed me so much, you'll just have to watch him die for your sake. With him out of the way, I can reclaim what was once mine." He looked at me with lustful eyes this time. "Do you know what that something is, Kurama?"

I whispered and realized that I wouldn't be getting out of here anytime soon. "Me."

He grabbed my head and kissed me hard on the mouth again. "That's right. You're mine. Now and forever more. Once again we'll be the famous pair of lovers in Makai. This will be fun." Karasu said against my neck. I couldn't help but moan under the pressure and the true statement that we'd once been lovers. Karasu had always been the one in control. The way he had me against the wall and ready to tackle him and be a lover to him once again only showed how much of a softie I had become in my time in Ningenkai. He was a god when he used his hands in such a way. I finally came to my senses that Hiei was nearby and I pushed Karasu away from me. I was panting and part of me wanted to have Karasu beneath me, just like in the old days. 'He can't have me now! I belong to Hiei, only him. No one else can have me as long as Hiei is alive! Please, Hiei! Help me!' I thought desperately. 'Please come and save me!'

Hiei's POV

Please, Hiei! Help me! Please come and save me!'

I heard Kurama's voice in my head. Where was he? What was he doing here in Makai? I had just arrived at the portal and realized that Kurama was calling out for me. 'Where are you?' I thought desperately waiting for an answer. No answer came. Then when it did, it was a mind-splitting scream that gave me one hell of a headache. "I'll find you soon, my fox. I'll find you soon..."

I ran to the tower where I heard cries of pain. Cries that were calling for me. Those calls were coming from Kurama. Who had him and what were they doing to him?" I ran up to the castle and when I got closer, I realized that Kurama was with... Karasu? How was he alive again? I looked through the dungeon window to see Karasu making love to my Kurama.

No, he wasn't making love, he was enforcing it. He was raping Kurama! I blasted through the window to save him. "Kurama!" I called. He looked up when I called him. The image of pain on his face turned to one of joy and happiness. "Hiei!" Then Karasu hit him on the head with a club.

I looked at him and saw Karasu standing over both of us with a look of satisfaction on his face. It was disgusting. He'd raped Kurama and might have killed him if I hadn't gotten here as soon as I had.

"Bastard," I said to him through gritted teeth.

"Now now, Hiei. You should know that it's not nice to call people names. Besides, you should know just how much fun Kurama and I had when we were making beautiful love just now. You shouldn't have interrupted us."

"If I hadn't, you'd probably have killed him."

"No Hiei. You're dead wrong. Don't you know that Youko and I used to be a match made in heaven? We were perfect for each other, when he suddenly got tired of me and left. We were famous in Makai and he left behind the fame to pursue more treasure. He valued gold over me. It made me angry so I got my revenge. When he killed me, it was another kind of leaving me. So when I found him wandering once again in his birth home, I took him in and made love to him. Unlike you, I know exactly what I wanted so I took it. In a way, it was the same with Youko. He took exactly what he wanted and he almost always got it. He wanted to use me and he succeeded with success. He made me feel hated and unwanted." He paused to look at me. "It's the same with you. You felt unloved and unwanted when you learned about your sister and how you'd never be able to tell her that her brother is a bastard child like you. You can't know real love because you're the Forbidden One. You might as well leave now to save yourself greif." Karasu grabbed me around the throat and pushed me up against the wall. "What I want now is to kill you. After I do that, Kurama will have no choice but to come to me for comfort."

"He'd never come to you." I said closing my eyes awaiting the death he was about to deliver.

"What do you mean?" he asked with sharp tone.

I opened my eyes. "You know that if you kill me, Kurama will find a way to kill himself to be with me don't you. I know him a bit better than you do, considering your death and all. He loves me a hell of a lot more than he ever would you, so he'd kill himself to be with me. Even death can't tear the bond we've created apart. I love him– " That's when my throat started getting crushed.

"He'll love me. You can't keep him away by dying. I'd be awake and by his side all the time, not like you who came back to do some thinking about what you should do about Kurama. You left him and he was saddened so much he came back here to find you." Karasu had turned very serious. He wasn't playing around with me anymore and he meant to kill me soon. It would take a lot of thinking and fast thinking to get out of this one.

Kurama's POV

I heard voices. Slowly my eyes started opening and I saw Hiei in Karasu's grasp. "You know that if you kill me, Kurama will find a way to kill himself to be with me don't you. I know him a bit better than you do, considering your death and all. He loves me a hell of a lot more than he ever would you, so he'd kill himself to be with me. Even death can't tear the bond we've created apart. I love him–" I heard him say to Karasu. Then I heard Karasu say to him, "He'll love me. You can't keep him away by dying. I'd be awake and by his side all the time, not like you who came back to do some thinking about what you should do about Kurama. You left him and he was saddened so much he came back here to find you."

"Karasu! Please just let Hiei go. I'll stay as long as you don't hurt him." My eyes started flooding with tears. "Please let him go..." I told him again tears running down my cheeks.

"Ha ha ha ha! Like I'm going to do that, Kurama. It seems that he wants you to live." He grasped hei's throat even harder. "Please Karasu! Let him go!" I called again. I blacked out again and hoped for the best and that when I opened my eyes next, that Hiei would still be alive.

A/N: I'm evil. I thought that since I haven't left you off on a cliff hanger for a while I'd do that this time around. I had Kurama get raped and Hiei might be dead when Kurama wakes up. Since I'm a sucker for types of endings, I might just have to make it so that Hiei dead. Now I'm messing with you and trying to make you angry for not telling you anything. This is going to be strange and confusing in the next chapter, and that's all that I can tell you. If you want to know slightly ahead of time, e-mail me and I'll give you a hint to who it is. I'm strange and when you put the subject for the email put something along the lines of: Hint for chapter 10.

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