Disclaimers: Joss owns them all

A/N: I would like to thank my friends Caitlin and Lissa for helping me write the song in this chapter. HOPE YOU LOVE!

It had been a month since Buffy and William came home. Every thing was as it should be… except Spike and Buffy still hadn't gotten back together.

Buffy wanted so badly to be with Spike, but every time she tried to get close to him, he'd turn away. Buffy was beginning to get very frustrated, her mom used to say that whenever she got mad at Dawn, to write something. She would usually write either a poem or a story, but this time she wrote a song.

She spent weeks perfecting it, whenever she thought it was fine she would reread it and think it was terrible. At first it started out a love song, and then it became a hate song, then a brake up song. She was planning on maybe singing to Spike, but only if it was perfect.

One day she asked the two people she trusted most to listen to it. Buffy brought Dawn and Willow into her room and closed the door so no one would hear her. Spike was walking passed her room and could hear the girls talking; he leaned against the door and listened to their conversation.

"I need you to help me with something" Buffy said looking at Dawn "You know how mom used to say that when you get upset you should write something about it, well I wrote something about Spike"

"What did Spike do to upset you" Willow asked.

"He hardly ever looks at me… its just so frustrating, I can't do it anymore" She started breaking into tears "Let me just show you it, before I get all emotional" She took a deep breath and calmed down.

"Its called loving a lie" Buffy said as she sat down on the bed besides Willow and Dawn. Spike was very interested to see what Buffy had put in a song about him.

"You use to be the thing in my head
because of all the things that you said
now it's just me and I can finally see
the path I'm suppose to chose

Some times I feel so ashamed
in my heart it feels like a game
the things I've gone through with you
now I have to concentrate on more then just us two

Through out my life I felt so alone
Until that night you made me feel whole
I finally met you and all my nightmares came true
And then just like that away you flue

Sometimes I feel so ashamed
in my heart it feels like a game
now it's just me and I just want to be free
of all this agony

Sometimes I feel so ashamed
in my heart it feels like a game
now it's just me and I hope you can see
why this must be

All I want to do is forget
all I'm filled with is regret
now its time for me to say goodbye
Because of your one and only lie

Sometimes I feel so ashamed
In my heart it feels like a game
The things I've gone through with you
Now I have to concentrate on more then just us two
Just us two
It use to just be me and you"

Both Dawn and Willow where in shock. They both knew it was such a great song. They could all tell that Buffy didn't really want to give up with spike, its just she had to because of William. She knew she couldn't be a good mother if she was filled with so much pain.

Buffy started bawling, she couldn't help it, Dawn and Willow gave her a huge group hug. Spike felt a tear rolling down his check; he couldn't believe how much he was hurting Buffy. He knew that he would have to do something drastic if he wanted to keep Buffy…. Starting with getting her back.

TO BE CONTINUED:

A/N: Hope you liked the song… Thanks again to Caitlin and Lissa. Hope you all loved it. PLEASE REVIEW!