Simple Revelations
I love him.
The words were so unexpected she was sure they must have come from the voices that spoke in her mind from time to time with their static like whispers. And yet the words had been spoken in her head so clearly. She stilled in her task, pausing to listen. Like a hunter sensing an unknown environment, deciding whether they were still the predator or if they had become the prey.
She looked down, her hands frozen over her coffee mug. Her mind went back, like an investigator reconstructing a crime scene, to what she had been thinking before those words had appeared so unannounced in her head. That was simple; she had been thinking nothing at all. Only soaking in the peace that lay like a mist over the house in this early morning light. She had been absentmindedly stirring her coffee as she watched the trees with their autumn leaves stir in the early morning breeze.
Dare she entertain the notion the words had come from deep within her heart? And not from some psychic link to people already dead or possibly, people that had never lived?
No, that was too sappy. It was something a romance writer would come up with as they churned out books filled with 'searing gazes' and 'tightening loins' like an artist on ecstasy.
The words couldn't have come from her. There was no reason for them to.
She sighed, or that is what she preferred she believed. But denial had never worked well for her. Ignorance, yes; that, she worked hard to maintain about many issues in her life. But on this she could only hold back revelation so long. It had taken her a while; years, decades. All that time her mind and heart worked on the issue.
And one moment of peace was its opportunity to deliver the conclusion it had worked on for so many years.
She loved him.
Such a simple statement, such a simple conclusion her heart had come to… and yet… it was the hardest thing in her life she had ever had to face.