TITLE: Changes AUTHOR: dustytiger
DISCLAIMER: kim, jimmy, bobby, carlos et al don't belong to me, they belong to NBC, their creator and the actors and actresses who portray them
RATING: R for sexual situations
CONTENT: kim/jimmy r, kim/bobby ust
SUMMARY: after kim and jimmy have an encounter upsairs bobby decides that he has to show kim that someone else cares for her a lot more
AUTHORS NOTES: the thing i like about fanfic, you can always plunk yourself in any timeline and make people who are gone come back. dedicated to anyone who wants a break from bosco/faith fun!
TIMELINE: Bobby's not dead ('ya think!? laugh), thus sometime before "requium for a bantum weight" no real spoilers thus far
You never quite know when you begin your work day how different it will be by the end of the day; and in Kim's line of work there was even more to worry about. She took everything one day at a time, wanting only to get thru the day and see her son again. She always felt good when she started the day on the right foot, and of late she had been. She had not woken up in her ex husband's arms in months. She really started to think that she had finally learned her lessons. She wanted him so much to be only in her life as her son's father, but somehow she found that next to impossible.
Especially since he did work at the same place as she did. The last little while she would show up earlier then she normally would just to avoid him before work. On a very good day they wouldn't even end up at the same calls. It was working very well for her, as long as she didn't see him there was no temptation. The dimples and those amazing eyes could not suck her in once again.
She would not feel that something had changed only for the same end result. She went up the stairs to get changed after making a fresh pot of coffee which would, with any luck, be ready by the time she descended the stairs again. She was running a little later then usual as Joey had misplaced his homework, but she was still the only person that worked her shift there, so she hoped it was one of those mornings where the fates conspired to make them all late.
She got to her locker, hoping that her partner may be there. She wanted so much to talk to him, to tell him the progress she had made in the Jimmy department, but that would come soon enough. She removed her shirt revealing a white tank top. She liked to wear tank tops under her uniform just because if it got too warm she could remove some of the layers without worries of consequence, even if it was only at break times. She took off her pants to reveal a pair of black panties, she loved to wear nice things that no one would see. Just to make her feel more like a woman.
"Sexy!" she heard his familiar voice say from behind her, followed by a whistle.
She reached for her uniform shirt, not thinking that Jimmy had any business with her, and had just gone up to get changed himself. She had thought wrong, and was very surprised to feel his strong arms wrap around her waist. She couldn't help but purr with delight at the sensation of the man she once loved touching her like that. He took her arm, and guided it to the locker's hook, where she replaced her shirt.
"What are you doing?" she asked, her breath more lusty then she would have liked.
"It's been much too long Kimmy," he whispered, his lips against her ear. She couldn't help but shudder with delight. It had been so long since he, or any man, had touched her like that. His lips soon made their way down to her neck, where he lightly bit her. She couldn't help but moan his touch felt so good. She knew that it was wrong but it felt so right.
"You should try and be a little more quiet when we're up here. Just cause we're pretty much alone now doesn't mean that can't change in a split second," he reminded her.
"Jimmy, we need to stop. Now," she pleaded, trying to be rationalize. Trying very hard to be assertive.
"It's not like we've never done it up here before. I still say that just over there is where Joey was conceived," he reminded her. In the process he had moved her within his arms so that they were now facing one another. He brushed her hair away from her face, very gently, making her close her eyes.
"Oh, Jimmy," she whispered, unable to say anything more. He had gotten her under his spell once again.
He placed an open mouthed kiss on her lips. Slipping his tongue inside her mouth almost immediately. Their tongues were soon in battle. Although her body was wild with excitement her head screamed for her to stop him before it went to far. Before she really could not turn back. It was too late, and she knew it, as soon as his hand found her breast. She could hardly stifle the sounds her sex starved body wanted to let out.
"Kimmy, I can tell you've missed me. It's been much too long. Please don't push me away. I need you so much. I love you." He slipped his hand beneath her shirt, and kissed her.
She moaned into his mouth. She wanted so much to be able to pull away, but it felt so good. What if his words were the truth this time? She again decided to listen to her heart which only wanted him to love her; instead of her head which was screaming that he didn't love her and was using her for his own pleasure once again. Her mouth was able to pant out the words.
"Need to stop." But the words fell upon deaf ears because he instead slipped his hand southward, to her panties.
His fingers brushed her where he knew she loved to be touched. Where she knew her body had wanted to be touched so badly. Her eyes had flown up and were wide with desire as he began to caress her wetness.
"So wet Kimmy, can't you see your body loves what I do to it?" he asked her, slipping his finger inside.
"Oh! Jimmy!" she exclaimed just below a scream.
"See, Kimmy, don't fight it. I know you like. I know what you need."
She started at him with her half lidded eyes. She could not say no to this man once he looked at her with that look. That look that made her believe that somewhere he did really care, and that this time would be different. She thrust her middle forward toward his hand. Silently begging for sweet release. He teased her with his fingers a little longer, making her crazy. She was half whimpering, half moaning at the gentle torturous thrusts of his fingers.
"Jimmy, please," she begged, despite her brain wanting to scream no, knowing that if she would just say no he would stop.
"Patience, Love," he told her, his other hand now began to caress her breast just where she liked it most.
She bit her lip in an attempt to not scream but she knew that she was making far too much noise. Her body was filled with to much ecstasy to really care about who might be downstairs, listening, knowing exactly what was going on. His hand stopped their gentle torture and she felt them on her hip, at the band of the pretty black panties she was wearing. She moaned with delight knowing it would not be long until she would have her legs wrapped around him, and he would be where she liked him, inside her.
Then they heard something crash from downstairs, making the train of thoughts and wants slow just enough to remind them that they should be listening to the noises below.
"I wouldn't go up there if I were you man!"they heard Bobby warn.
They pulled away from each other quickly, and she replaced her panties to the way they should be. Jimmy was still holding her close enough that they could continue if they could. They breathlessly awaited the response.
"I need to get changed," they heard Carlos snap, not what they had wanted to hear. "I don't care that they think this is a good place to fuck, we all need to go up there too. So I'm going up and no one is going to stop me!"
He had made the statement purposely long winded to give them enough time cause he certainly did not need to see his co-workers naked. In fact he knew Kim probably had a great body, but he really liked to see as few naked men as possible. By the time he got upstairs Kim was pulling her pants to her waist, and Jimmy was nowhere to be seen. Carlos could hear the water running in the showers distantly and assumed that Jimmy was in there taking one very cold shower. He silently went to his own locker on the other side of the room. Bobby had come up the stairs moments after, and he too made his way to his own locker, right next to Kim's. As soon as she saw her partner, and the look he had given her. She leaned against the locker, and punched it lightly; knowing that she had been defeated. She had fallen into the trap once again. She sighed but it sounded more painful, almost like the beginning of a cry. No tears escaped her eyes however, she was strong and would not cry in front of anyone else who may come up.
Bobby who never approved of her charades with Jimmy, still flashed her a sympathetic smile. He knew she had been trying this time, it was just something that she could not seem to stop herself from doing. He wanted so much to take her in his arms and assure her that she didn't need him. That there was another man in the world that loved her as she should be loved; if only she would look past the end of her nose. If only she could see him as something more then a partner, and the best friend she had ever had.
Jimmy returned as she buttoned the last button of her shirt. He flashed her the killer smile that had gotten her into all the trouble in the first place. She knew she had to resist him. But he gave that puppy dog look, which begged her to follow. Her brain and her feet did not agree and she could feel herself walking toward him.
"Hey, Kim," Bobby said, snapping her out of what seemed to be a trance. "Isn't it your turn to clean up the bus?"
She was relieved for his interruption, and lie since he knew damn well that it was not her turn to clean up before the day's runs. She shrugged, and Jimmy went on his way. She also went downstairs, and in an opposite direction to start to the clean up. She got to her usual rig, and instead of picking up or organizing anything the way they liked it, she sat down on the back bumper and began to cry lightly. Moments later Bobby was there, his arm around her supportively. She hid her face with his chest. Glad to have such a good friend to support her.
"Why do you do that to yourself?" he asked.
"Because I still love him," she replied.
He sighed. "Kim, I know that you are better then that kind of love."
"I know that it's self destructive, and it always leads to the same thing. But I can't stop loving him. He's the only man that ever has loved me."
If only he could tell her how wrong she was about no one else loving her.
"I know that you don't really believe that, it's just easier for you to not find someone else. Why is he so special to you?"
"There's Joey." He shrugged.
"There will always be Joey, and many people have kids together and don't still love each other."
She sighed. "God, Bobby, look at him! How can I not resist him? I know I should be over the dimples, but I just keep seeing things in his eyes that no else can. I know that I just can't be wrong. I just know that there is something better hidden deep down inside, and one day it will all work out. Those feelings, and his look are damn near impossible to ignore."
"Women just can't seem to resist the ruggedly handsome firefighter can they? Even if he does have less personality then a rock."
She shrugged. "I don't know why I keep doing it. He's my ex husband, and while I know that I should stop there's just something that's keeping me there."
She started to cry harder. He wanted so much to kiss her, and tell her that he loved her. But he knew that he could never have her heart as long as it belonged to another. But even still he would be the best friend he could be to her to prove that not all men were like Jimmy. That some actually did care about other people's feelings. He drew her as close as he could.
She was glad to have him close, and wished Jimmy could be more like Bobby sometimes. He was such an amazing person. He could even be better to Joey sometimes. She tried not to let those thoughts enter her head often, she didn't deserve a guy like Bobby. It only depressed her more that he was so out of reach, even if he was currently single, and holding her. They were just friends, and she knew that he would never want a train wreck like her. She liked it when he held her like that, it was the only time she ever really felt safe. It was the only time she ever really relaxed.
He twirled her hair on his finger for a little while. Taking in every sensation of her. The way she felt so close to him. The way she smelled, she smelled faintly of apples, and something that was hers exclusively. He couldn't get enough of the smells and feeling of her, and savored every moment like that they shared, knowing the moment would pass all too soon.
"Get a room!" Jimmy yelled, followed by a roar of laughter from the fire squad.
Bobby and Kim both wondered why it was the Jimmy acted so stupid in front of those guys. Only moments ago he had said he loved her, now he was chastising her for needing a friend for comfort. Bobby simply held her until he knew for sure that the new barrage of tears were really over.
"Thank you," she whispered, trying to compose herself. "We really should get ready for the day." She was trying to ignore what had just happened, and he wasn't about to get her upset again.
"If you'll excuse me a moment." She started toward the washroom.
Before she got inside Jimmy stopped her. He gently brushed her cheek with his hand, despite it all he had her under his spell again. They both knew it. He smiled at her, and she melted a bit. Somehow he could always get her to forget how pissed off she was whenever he was in front of him, despite all the stupid things he did, and all the reason in the world.
"I called your mom and asked her to take Joey for the night," he explained.
"What? Why?" she asked perplexed, wanting so much to be mad.
"Because we have some stuff to deal with after what happened upstairs Kimmy."
"That's not what you told her I'm sure."
"No, I told her that we had some stuff to talk about concerning Joey, and we didn't want him hearing what we were saying."
"Oh, all right."
"Come on Kimmy," he took her arm. "I'm sorry about before all right, it's just, you know, the guys."
"Yeah the guys." He shrugged. "It was stupid and uncalled for, I'm really sorry. Please let me make it up to you." He made it so hard to say no. "I'll even bring you to that little Italian place for dinner you like so much. Please, Kimmy, is it a date?"
"Yeah, whatever."
"Kimmy, don't be like that, please. I need you so much, it's been so long. I'm going crazy without you."
She really was sucked in, and couldn't think of any good reason to tell him that she could not be with him that night. Joey was not going to be home, and she knew what was going to happen, but she knew that he would somehow make her agree. She decided that she would just agree and hope that somehow she could get out of it.
"So I'll meet you after work, stick around, I won't disappoint I promise," he said.
"All right, Jimmy, it's a date," she said, not being able to stop herself from smiling.
She knew what would happen next, but at that moment she couldn't care less she was going to at least get release, and be happy for one night even if it would cause so many more of pain.
"Hey Kim!" Bobby hollered. "We have a call let's go!"
She forgot all about the washroom, and for a moment all about Jimmy. She got into the bus, and buckled up. They tore off to their first call of the day. It was only moments later when the adrenaline wore off before they got to scene that she realized that she had agreed to go on a date with him, and she really didn't want to. She also knew that she would have to think of something good to get out of it. Despite it all she knew that she would have the best intentions, then see him, and do it all over again.
She punched the dashboard angrily, nearly hurting herself. "Fuck!" she cried.
"What's wrong?" Bobby asked.
"I'm stupid." She stated simply.
"No, Kim, you're not. I think sometimes that you may be under a spell though."
"I think I just agreed to go on a date with Jimmy tonight. Jesus! Why can't I just say no to him? I know how it's all going to end, and I know that you do as well."
"Is there any way you can get of it?" "Not really, I agreed to meet him after work. Even if we've had a rough day he'll still insist upon driving me home, and then I'll invite him up for coffee. Then I'm going to do something I shouldn't."
"Why don't you just blow him off?"
"I'd need a damn good excuse, since he arranged for Joey to be at my mothers tonight."
Suddenly he thought of it. "But, Kim, I thought we had plans tonight." He told her, looking right into her eyes, making her believe that they really had.
"What? We did?"
"Shit, Kim, I can't believe you forgot. I asked you months ago, You remember, don't you? After Alex and me you know stopped, whatever."
"I remember you being upset about Alex. But, Bobby what the hell are you talking about?"
"Don't you remember I had made reservations a while ago. Then you said that it's a shame to let such a nice evening go, and asked me not to cancel. So I didn't and now if you go with Jimmy I'll have to pay a fortune for nothing." He was completely lying.
"Oh my God Bobby, I'm so sorry, how could I forget! I'm the worst friend ever! I can't believe I didn't call my mother right away. I'll tell Jimmy as soon as I see him."
He couldn't believe that it had worked, but he was glad it had. He didn't like lying her to like that but he figured that it was a good reason. He knew that she'd hate herself for going along with the plans with Jimmy. Now all he had to do was plan a fancy expensive date for tonight. He would also have to make sure that she didn't find out that he had really just pulled it out of his ass that night.
They pulled up to where the call had been. They looked at each other wondering what they had in store for them. When they got inside it was a pretty simple case of someone having a bad asthma attack, and Kim ended up handling it pretty much alone. While she was busy talking to the guy to calm him, he excused himself saying he needed to use the washroom. He went into the person's bathroom, and picked up his cell phone.
"Hello?" he heard a voice say on the other end.
"Mama, I need you to help me with something," he told her.
"What's wrong Bobby?"
"Nothing, Mama. I'm trying to stop Kim from going on a date with Jimmy, and I lied and said I have reservations somewhere."
"You shouldn't lie, Bobby, but your heart is in the right place."
"So will you help me?"
"For Kim? Yes, I'll call you when I find a place, and leave you the number."
"Thank you, I owe you one."
"No, I love you."
"Love you, Mama." He hung up the phone and flushed the toilet for good measure. He went back to the room with Kim and the asthmatic. She looked a little flustered.
"Anything wrong Kim?" he asked.
"No, but you help me, he'd like to go to the hospital just in case," she replied.
"Sorry to leave you alone."
She shrugged. "When nature calls." He helped her wheel the man out of the building, and load him onto the bus.
tbc...
end notes: all right, this is written as one big story on my comp so the parts are gonna be a little odd cause they are pretty much time breaks... also there is no smuttiness for another little while in what i've got so far... i wanted this to be pure smut but it's not workign the way i wanted...