Chapter 3

Betrayal on the Highest Level

The next day while Leigh was at work, Jess knew that this would be his only chance to find out exactly why she had left Stars Hollow. He only hoped that he could find what he needed to be able to convince her that what she was doing was hurting not only her but would eventually hurt Emma. As he walked into her room, he just felt the same feeling that he had felt when he first walked into her room back in Stars Hollow. How he wished that he could transport back to that place in time, when he didn't have think that betrayal would be the only means of getting one his best friends back. That when he looked into the eyes of this wonderful little girl he was holding in his arms, that he would know that she was with her entire family. He had grown up without much of a family and knew the pain that it causes not knowing anything about his past. But then he was given a gift that he could have not asked for. His uncle brought him into his family, creating a family that Jess finally felt safe in. He couldn't bear to see Emma grow up feeling the same way that he felt.

"Ok Emma, where does your mommy keep her past journals? I know that she saves them, but where does she put them?"

At that moment Jess started looking around to find the object of his desire, knowing that his discovery would probably cause the hardest rift in their relationship. When he placed his eyes on a little box in the deepest corner of her closet he knew that was what he was looking for. The same keepsake box that Leigh received from her father for her graduation from Chilton. The box that she was never away from. It kept every secret that Leigh herself couldn't keep.

As Jess open the box, he caught a scent of the perfume that she used to wear when they had dated. The memories came flooding back as he looked through the pictures. There was one of her with her grandparents, many with Lane and Lorelei, and there even some of her with him. But who was this man with the blonde hair? Jess didn't recognize him from Stars Hollow.

"Maybe this is the mysterious boyfriend that TJ was talking about." Turning the picture over, Jess saw that Leigh had written an inscription on the back. While most of the writing had been rubbed off, he could still make out the name Logan. He starts to wonder what ever happened between them that would cause her to move here with him.

At that moment a note, which had been written on a napkin from Al's Pancake World fell to the ground catching Jess' eye. As Jess leaned over to pick it up he knew in an instant what the note was. It was a letter he himself had written to Leigh when he came back to Stars Hollow the last time. It was the note where he finally told her that he had changed and that he was hoping that they would be able to rekindle the relationship they both had yearned for.

I wonder why she kept this letter all this time I mean this letter wasn't that major.

Skimming over the rest of the content of the box, he noticed a journal dating back to a little over a year ago. Knowing that it would probably be wrong to open it and read, Jess knew that if he was to ever find the true reason she agreed to come with him, he had to open the book. As Jess opened the journal, sometime in side of him knew that this would be the point in their relationship he would never be able to get back if he was in fact wrong.

The first entry was dating the day after he gave her the napkin note. As he read it he understood why she kept it for so long. It was his note that caused her to fall in love with him all over again. The next few notations were the thoughts of a girl in love. It wasn't until he got about half way in that he noticed that she was fighting within herself. Fighting between her love for one man and her love of another. Knowing that she would hurt one of them, she was contemplating which one her heart could live with out and which one she could not be with out.

Not knowing that this battle was raging on in side of her, Jess was a little upset at the following entry.

I know that I have been unfaithful to my heart and to Logan. My heart yearns for me to be with Jess but I have found my self with child. I know I must decide who I am to be with. The only problem with being with one would be that I can't be with the other and I don't know which on is the father of my daughter. I am afraid that if I even mention the possibility that Logan could be a father, he might just have a heart attack. I know that Jess is willing to help me out in what ever I decide to do. I guess that I know what I have to do. I think that I am going to leave Logan and everything this life had brought and go with Jess. I don't know; maybe California is the place for to finally start a new life with out the watching eye of everyone I know. Maybe people in California won't treat me like I am some huge walking porcelain doll. What ever happens I will never tell either guy about the possibility that they could be fathers. I want everything to be easy to deal with. I will just raise my daughter myself. My mother raised me by herself and I turned out great. I mean I will have Jess there and he would be a great father figure to her. Then it is settled I am going to go with Jess to California and on my way there I will write to Logan to let him know what is going on.

As Jess sat there, reading and rereading the entry, he was in complete shock over the situation. Why did she just come to him and tell him that he could have been the father? He looked down to see a sleeping Emma and realized that what she thought maybe true.

What if I am Emma's father? What will I do next? He knew one thing. He had been hurt by Leigh over to many things that he didn't know if he could trust her. He was deeply hurt by the words written on these pages. He needed to leave. He had to go somewhere that the air was fresh. It was then that it dawned on him. Stars Hollow. He was going back to his uncle's. He needed time with out Leigh being around. Maybe he could find this Logan character and have a nice manly talk with him. He knew that he stilled loved Leigh, but he couldn't be around her at the moment. So with that he left. He drop Emma off at this friendly neighbor, wrote a note to Leigh explaining that he was going back to Stars Hollow to help Luke out with the dinner knowing that she would not be alarmed by that. She herself knew TJ and Liz. They can't even from water in their own house let alone run a dinner. Jess would be the best one to help out since he was raised by Luke in that dinner. He would use that time to find out the answers to the numerous questions he had burning in his head. And with that he left.