a/n: Ahha! Another chapter out! You know you guys are proud of me! (even though I lied and said I'd have it out by Saturday)
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Chapter 19: Biased Clarifications
Picking herself up with whatever strength she had left in her shattered confused soul she walked to the end of the airport towards the exit. The people who were around the hallway where her two best friends found out about her deep messed up secret looked at her in pity. Her tear stained cheeks were proof enough that she was the girl who's secret was just found out. Though some people just looked away, she knew that they knew. Everyone knew now, even complete strangers. Jounouchi was long gone. It seemed like he ran out of here, away from New York. Away from her.
Was Yugi mad at her? He was a kind hearted friend who would never judge another. The look in his eyes were that of someone who was trying with all their might to not judge. How could he not? Kaiba made his life hell when they were in high school. Kaiba even made her life hellish. Then why was she with him? If she was even with him.
Millions and millions of thoughts ran through her mind as she hailed a taxi with a half hearted wave. She didn't even have the strength to call for a taxi. Frustrated she looked down miserably and almost gave up on getting a taxi in the busy airport when someone grasped her wrist. Out of shock of the harsh grasp she looked up with fresh tears in her eyes.
"We still need to talk." Kaiba growled out in a low whisper. It was broad daylight and Kaiba could not afford to have yet another reporter come out of no where and make up another story so he pulled her with the wrist he grasped and led her to his car. Well, at least tried to.
"No!" Anzu barely screamed while wrenching her wrist away from him in vain. She dug her heels against the pavement to make it difficult for Kaiba to drag her any farther. From the looks of it, they looked like a father pulling his child away from a candy store. Not wanting to make them look any worse, Kaiba stopped but still held on to her wrist.
"Stop acting like a child. Your friends were bound to found out sooner or later." He said with his back still facing her. Sniffling, she tried to shake his hold on her but he just held on to her wrist tighter. "I'm not leaving here without you or at least without talking to you like a normal, civilized human. Not a child who didn't get her way." He slightly turned to her, only the corner of his eye visible to her. "Your secret wasn't kept for long and now you're pouting like some pathetic baby." The coldness of his voice hurt her worse than the actual words and made her sob pitifully making him turn around again.
"You expect me to talk to you, Kaiba? You expect me to talk to you like a civil.." His hand covered her mouth before she could say anymore because with each word she said she raised her voice even more.
"Stop it. Unless you want another front page cover picture with you I suggest you come with me and we say whatever it is we have to say in the private." Once again he dragged her towards his taking her quietness as an opportunity to get her away from the busy street in front of the airport.
After practically shoving her into his car he quickly went to his side and without hesitation started his car. Every once and a while he would glance over at Anzu who just sat numbly in his seat and stared out the window. He knew she was still silently crying because her shoulders would jump up when she suppressed a sob.
"Is this going to be about you, Kaiba? About how I made you look bad? About how people now associate you with a lowly dancer?" She half mumbled half whimpered.
"No, that I'm associated with a inadequately dressed whore looking girl who likes to be grinding against her teachers." He snipped out.
"If you look close enough you'll see that it's innocent!" Anzu yelled out now sounding more mad than upset.
"Oh? Like the kissing?" He yelled out equally loud.
"No, more like that kissing and the dinner dates!" Anzu turned her face towards his to face him with angry eyes. Both Anzu and Kaiba didn't say anything after that because they both knew what she meant. Yes, he was caught. No, he still did not explain. After a heavy sigh, Anzu leaned against the chair and looked out the window. The five second fight already wore her out.
"Kaiba." Anzu whispered out when she saw that they passed her house. Turning towards him again, she depressingly looked at him. "Where are we going?" She asked wearingly but he did not answer. "Kaiba." Anzu said with a stronger voice. "Let me out." When Kaiba didn't even glance at her, Anzu yelled a little louder, and to make her point across, she took off her seatbelt and held on to the door to open the car door. "Let me the fuck out!" Quickly Kaiba grabbed her hand that was holding on to the door knob and pulled it away then let go.
"Have you lost your damn mind?" He growled at her. Luckily they were at a red light so he could stop her in time. "Have you lost all your home training when your friends were here? Oh, I forgot, you did hang out with the mutt." He sarcastically added making Anzu scream out in frustration and she started swatting his arm which still cautiously hovered over her to make sure she did not try to get out of the car.
"Don't you fucking talk about my friend like that! Because of you Jounouchi hates me! My best friend! Yugi hates me! Otogi hates me! All because of you!" Taking his shock as a chance to escape the car, she used one hand to open the door and found that it would not open. After struggling with the door handle she stopped any more attempts and choked back another sob. "Let me out. Don't you understand, Kaiba? I want out!" The car drove on, leaving the two in silence once again. It was dreadful for her to be in this car with him. Completely dreadful. As much as she wanted to pour her heart to him and tell him how much he hurt her, she couldn't. He would have the power. HE hurt HER. He would know. Not just with her friends, but with the blonde. A few more minutes passed by before she felt the car stop.
"Follow me." Was all he said before he got out of the car. More than happy to get out of the tiny space with the man she despised most right now she saw that she was in front of his house. Though she's only been in front of his house once, she remembered well enough what they were doing in front of it.
"Why are we here?" She grimly asked while trailing behind him closely.
"We're going to talk and I can't afford to have paparazzi around. This is the only safest place where our conversation will leak out." He said as he put in a code into the door. When they walked in a woman greeted them at the door.
"Hello Mr. Kaiba. Do you need anything?" Cassandra then noticed Anzu and eyed her suspiciously. "Mr. Kaiba?" She asked him. Cassandra knew she recognized Anzu. Not only was she in the newspaper with Kaiba but she was Anzu. Kaiba's Anzu. "Your office is read. If you need anything I'll be more than happy to send anything." She said as Kaiba took off his coat and handed it to her while Anzu stood by the door with her hands behind her back. She was in awe of his home. It was so big, so fancy. "Miss?" Anzu looked at Cassandra and bowed politely.
"Sorry. My name is Anzu Mazaki." Even though Anzu looked like she had been either crying or sick and was mad as hell, she never forgot her manners. Cassandra raised an eyebrow and looked over at Kaiba who gave her a look of warning to not say anything smart.
"Would you like anything, dear?" Cassandra asked and Anzu nodded no.
"No, thank you." She shyly responded. Annoyed with the meeting and with that fact that he knew Cassandra would say something Kaiba would not like to him, he took Anzu's write and dragged her up the stairs.
"We'll be in the office. If anyone calls I'm not here. Make sure no one interrupts." Looking around the big house, Anzu had no time to react about being dragged until Kaiba shoved her in his office and slammed the door behind them. He then briskly walked to his desk and sat down, taking a bottle from his desk and slamming it on his desk. Scotch. Anzu stood in front of his desk, frozen, holding onto her aching wrist and not knowing what to say or do. Kaiba sat with one hand on the bottle and the other on the desk looking down at the desk as if he was contemplating something.
"You don't have to drink to tell me the truth." Anzu finally said. "Just tell me that you've been seeing the woman for a while and I'll go. Simple as"
"Shut up." He coldly scolded. The scotch was opened and now being poured into a shot glass.
"Kaiba, I don't want to be fucked with!" She yelled out truthfully. "I don't want you to play me like some fool! I don't want to be second best, damn it!" There was no trace of hurt of anger in her voice, just an urge for the truth. "I'm not about to be your side whore when the other woman is not around! Tell me you're interested in her and we're done! But you can't do this! My reputation is in stake here!"
"I think your reputation is fucked right about now." He said with cold eyes looking up at her. Down went a shot. The low blow made her march up to him and grab the bottle from his desk.
"No, you wanted to talk. So talk. Don't hide behind this." She said lifting up the bottle. Kneeling down she placed the bottle on the floor and took hold of his hand. "Just tell me. Say, Anzu I'm with her. Say, Anzu I don't want anything to do with you. Say that the past weeks have been nothing, a toy. Say you want me to go. Say you hate me."
"You want me to hurt you so that you hate me." He plainly said as he shook her hold on him.
"No, I want you to tell me the fucking truth." Getting up once again she knew she wouldn't get what she wanted from him. Right now she wanted the truth . She thought the truth was that Anzu was a toy so she wanted to hate Kaiba right now. Hate him so that she didn't feel anything for him. So that she could be liberated from him.
"Truths." He sarcastically chuckled.
"Yes. The truth. For example, me and Mars did not do anything bad. We danced. He kissed my cheek. The reporters made it seem like he kissed me but Yugi was there. Jounouchi would have kicked his ass if he saw Mars kiss me." Anzu did have a point. Jounouchi would have kicked Mars ass. "Now, what about you? Last week, who was she? Why was she everywhere with you and why were you kissing her?" There was no word coming from Kaiba. He just sat there looking at the door in front of him, the alcohol still stinging his throat. Since Anzu let go of the bottle, in one sweep Kaiba took the bottle and poured himself another shot before drinking it.
"I need her fathers company. Though her I can get to him. We went on two dates, if you even call it that." He then turned to her. "I never kissed her. She was fixing my collar. It looked like she was kissing me." Anzu didn't know if she should be happy or not.
"Are you interested in her?" Anzu cautiously asked.
"No." His third shot went down. "Another spoiled brat. She's attractive but there's nothing." He blankly looked Anzu in the eye. "Nothing."
"Stop drinking. You might do or say something you might regret." Kaiba chuckled once again.
"Like what?" As Anzu went to take the bottle from his hand, he held both her wrists making her bend down a little, moving closer to him. "What could I possible say or do that I haven't already regretted?" Not only were his words harsh but so was his tone. Standing beside him, Anzu did not move or speak. She didn't know what he was going to do if she moved so she stayed. She waited. "Got nothing to say?" He said. "Nothing at all?"
"You're drunk. What would I say to a drunk person?" She reasoned. Kaiba's hold on her wrists tightened making her wince not by the pain, but the closeness. The glint in his eyes showed that he was not completely drunk, he was playing. "Enough." The tone in her voice serious. "No more games, Kaiba."
"So now it's Kaiba?" Hands let go of her reddened wrists. Anzu moved back and went around his desk.
"Yes, it is. I was foolish enough to think I could call you by a name no one except your brother would say. I foolish enough to think I was special enough to say such a name." Her back was turned to him and her head was down looking at her hands. Then she turned around and frowned at him. "The proof is evident on the front page of some tabloid magazine." Turning around once more she planned to leave his house and somehow get back to her own house when her name was called out by Kaiba.
"Anzu." The name in her ears sounded so sad coming from him.
"What? What could you possibly say to me now? What could you say that could make me feel any worse?" While she spoke, or another time, she didn't know when, Kaiba came up behind her and held her from behind. Immediately she tensed up, a mix of missing his touch and loathing it because of what he did to her.
"I'm not trying to make you feel bad. What I told you about that girl is true. Now what I need to know is if the reporters were right about you and that other guy." Kaiba was actually jealous. Well, he showed it the last time. A shiver ran down her spine making Kaiba hold her tighter and making her shut her eyes tightly.
"No. Nothing is going on. Just like last time I told you, nothing is going on." She managed to say even though her mouth seemed very dry. Turning Anzu around, Kaiba held her waist.
"Maybe it's the alcohol talking but I never thought I would miss being near you." Though his eyes were elsewhere than her own eyes, she could hear it in his voice that Kaiba was hesitantly saying it. She knew he would later on regret saying it. Anzu said nothing, not impressed by them. In fact she was almost disgusted. Right now her friends were in a plane hating her and what was she doing? She was in the arms of the reason why her friends hated her right now. But it didn't stop her from letting him bow his head down and capturing her lips with his. It didn't stop her from letting him press her against him and it certainly didn't stop her from responding to his kisses.
Even though she was kissing him in the middle of his office in his home with him holding her, all she could think of was when she saw Kaiba and the blonde eating dinner. He was using the woman. Was Kaiba using her? Was he toying with her? Just to get back at her friends? While she was with her friends he had no hesitation to take that time to go out with a beautiful woman. Who knows if there wasn't more women before her? And didn't the paper say that the blonde and him were linked before?
"No.." She mumbled against his lips and pushed him off of her. He stumbled back a little and looked at her like she was out of her mind. "No." She gasped out. "I can't believe you." She now looked up at him to show him she meant it. "I won't believe you! Who the hell knows if you're lying to me? Using me just like that woman?" Anzu threw her hands up in frustration and let out a shaky laugh. "My friends hate me, Kaiba. They hate me and I'm here, with you."
"Fuck your friends." Was his simple response.
"My friends who always supported me? I would pick my friends over any guy any day. Especially a guy who is supposed to be with someone. We're not even official. We're .. " Anzu didn't even know how to explain what they were.
"Physical?" Opening her mouth to counter his response, she decided against it. He was right. Closing her mouth she nodded in agreement.
"Exactly." She breathed out. "You're right."
"I'm not using you for that. If that's what you think."
"Then why are you with me?" She quickly asked. When he didn't say anything but put on his cold mask and blankly stare at her like she was wasting his time, she nodded once again. "If you can't even answer that… " She trailed off, another thought entered her mind. "Kaiba, I don't even know who you really are. Why are you the way you are? Why do you have those scars on your back?" she was going to continue but he stepped forward and painfully held her upper arm.
"Those are questions you will never receive an answer to, so stop asking them." He growled out, a look of anger in his eyes.
"Then we have nothing." She whispered. "I have nothing." He quickly let go of her arm and reached in his pockets to get his cell phone.
"I need a limo to take someone home." He said into the phone and then hung up. Turning away from her he went back to his desk and put away the bottle and shot glass. "Your ride should be coming in ten minutes. Go wait downstairs for it." He wouldn't look at her.
"Kaiba." The both of them knew that right now they should not say anything more. They already hurt each other enough with just their words. There was no use in going back and trying to make anything better.
"Go." Afraid she would cry again, she turned around and went to the door, quietly shutting it as she left. Running down the stairs she couldn't help but let a couple of tears fall down. She was a fool. All he wanted was to use her. He wanted something physical with someone and she was that person. It was what he wanted all along. Though he said he wasn't using her for that, he couldn't say why he was with her. Why should she believe him? When did he ever give her a reason to make her believe him? He was her friends enemy. A backstabber. A cold heartless bastard.
So then why was she crying so hard as she reached the end of the stairs and walked out of his house?
It looks like their relationship is just falling apart, don't it?
Yea.. I lied. I said by Sat I should have another chappy out. But let me explain my tardiness. I;'ve been sicker than a dog and decided to roll up out of bed on Sat around 2 with my hair a mess, no makeup and dressed like I was ready for bed and go to Walmart to get some medicine. One thing led to another and I ended up going home at 1 in the morning. I was pissed, sick, and with a bunch of friends who did not understand the concept of me sick dressed like a scrub and not wanting to hangout that night. Friends are really your worst enemies.. that is the lesson of the day, alright? But then again, shit happens. I got my medicine and it did not do my cold any good. It just made me really lazy, which is why I didn't update until today. I had the chapter started out yesterday, planned to finish it but once again my friend distracted me. So! There was my chapter, I will be waiting for the death threats and other such flames. I know there wasn't the usual Didihoney action but they're in a fight… no one screws around when there are fighting until AFTER the fight.. (Yup.. Say hello to my medicine who seems to be doing all the talking for me.)
Thanks so much for the reviews! I wish I could say everyone's name who reviewed but I got two tests tomorrow and it's 1:40 in the morning.. So I love you guys so much for reviewing! Please review again! And if not.. It's cool, the next chapter won't be coming out any sooner then it would if I did get some reviews..