Ariadne and bela, thank you so much for reviewing! Yea, I kind of was iffy about Chase being really mature, I thought it wouldn't matter too much; I'm going to change it. My unconditional thanks for reviewing! Sorry, this is a bit late everyone- I've had some problems with the site, I'm so sorry!
Idiot, idiot, idiot, idiot, Cameron was screaming at herself. What have I been, like- what have I become?
She was appalled, shocked, aghast, and more. She wanted to step on the gas and run herself into the next telephone pole. She wasn't going to though- that would be selfish and that was the last thing she was going to be. Not after being so immature, so naïve, so jejune.
She laughed in a strange sardonic way that was not her own. Her behavior over the past year was, at best, acceptable for an adolescent. Ok, maybe she was being a bit harsh on herself, but still she had been a lousy person.
I've acted like I lacked a backbone; I've acted on what I wanted to do. Not what was best. I want to change House, maybe that's not what he needs, except, I never bother to think about it and find out.
A car honked its horn loudly. Her car had drifted with her mind into the wrong lane and she had to swerve sharply to avoid hitting someone. She snapped to attention
Stupid, keep your mind on the road!
She turned her head and looked on the road but not before making a promise to herself.
From now on, I'm going to listen, I'm going to be mature, I'm going to actually help and use my head, MY head.
She turned on her radio. Maybe it would help keep her mind off her own thoughts. Muse came blasting out oh her. Apparently her volume had been turned WAY up without her knowledge. She flinched and turned the volume down hastily.
Cameron wasn't a big Muse fan, but the weird hypnotic bass, soothed her somehow, even if they are burned in her brain for the next million years after listening.
Can you see that I am needing
House was needing- he would never admit it though…well maybe if she gave him the chance, just talk to him, don't try anything…
Begging for so much more
Ha! Begging, that'll be the day, even after this Stacy thing, House is too proud to beg. Sounds more like me than anything else…
Than you could ever give
Yep, that would be me… not anymore
And I don't want you to adore me
I used to long for that, to be adored, but now I realize that's not what's important.
Don't want you to ignore me when it pleases you
Still don't want that... but House probably will do that anyways… can't have everything…
And I'll do it on my own; I'll do it on my own
If I have to, I'm going to help House through this Stacy thing, and I wont have any ulterior motive, like I used to, I'm doing this as a friend, even if that's a bit of a stretch in describing out relationship.
Again, sorry this is so late! I'll do extra good tomorrow, I PROMIS! I plan to have an all Wilson Chapter next because I've already had an all House chapter and an all Cameron chapter. And if anyone cares, I will reveal (I like using that word) who turned up at House's door first soon.