He'd found it, it was only small, just an amp and a few wires, but if he hooked it up to his sonic screwdriver then he could fix all of this. A shriek of pain from Rose distracted him, he couldn't stand this, she was in agony and it was his fault, and he needed to help her, just so he could tell her, if he didn't tell her, if she died before he could say, say how much he...what he felt..NO that wasn't going to happen, not to him and not to her, she was going to be fine and he knew it, just knew it, he couldn't let it be any other way, because if he lost her, then the 900 years he'd been floating around this and every other cosmos was for nothing. He'd had companions before, he'd cared for them all deeply, but none of them so much as he did for Rose, and right now the chances of him getting to tell her that were getting smaller every second that he wasted feeling sorry for himself and panicking.
"Hold on love, Im almost done, it wont be long now"
He finished fiddling with his makeshift cell enhancing tool and rushed to her side. She'd cupped her hands round her middle again and was trying to keep her eyes open, and focused on him, she knew if she let herself sleep then she wouldn't wake, and she'd lose him, forever, and that wasn't something she was going to let happen. He may never feel for her the way she felt for him but she could travel with him, she knew he didn't do domestic, but he was her travelling companion at least, and that's what she was going to cling to for dear life, because if she let go, if she closed her eyes, she'd never get to hold his hand, never get to see that "fantastic" grin slide into place, never get to see a star exploding with him by her side.
"Doctor, I don't want to go, please, don't let me go, Im sorry, this is my fault and here you are..(she was racked by a terrifyingly painful cough)..trying to save me again, as always Doctor, Im in trouble"
She was so cold, so pallid, and he could feel her struggling to stay with him. He held the screwdriver over her stomach, moved her hands away from her wound and then played the beam over the burnt and bruised flesh, he could see it working, but not fast enough, she wasn't going to make it if he didn't get this thing working quicker.
"Its all right Rose, hold on just, hold on, please, I need you, cant travel without you, who's going to tell me Im full of it, who's going to complain when I land us in the wrong time, wrong place, please just a few more minutes Rose, I promise, I'll treat you to chips just don't let go"
Those last three words were said with such feeling, his throat was hoarse from crying and his eyes were puffy, and in the midst of all his panic and remorse, he marvelled in wonder at this 19 year old human girl from the wrong end of London, who had such control over him, and his senses, over his emotions, all he needed to do was get her to hold on a few more seconds and he could tell her all of it, everything.