Entry 5

Harper has my sublight engines running, finally. After a small fire, everything that was working before the fire is again now.

For some reason, Doyle hasn't been coming around lately, and when she did, she was talking to Trance.

"I know it is ridiculous but I'm jealous!" Doyle said.

"Jealous? Of who?" Trance asked.

"Andromeda."

"Oh, I see."

"No, I don't think you do. When Harper programmed me he made me very human. So, he also made me a bit…selfish. Now that he isn't spending as much time with me and more time with Andromeda, I am getting jealous."

"Well, he did know Andromeda before you. Before you or Rommie. Also, you aren't broken. He's fixing Andromeda because she is broken and needs help."

"I know, but I cant help but feeling that if Harper could have a love affair with this ship that he would!"

Trance laughed. "Well, we have all known that for a long time!"

Doyle sighed. "Yeah."

"Well, if you want to be with Harper, offer to help him with repairs."

"Oh, I don't think that is a good idea."

"Why?"

"Because Andromeda hates me."

"Oh, she doesn't hate you…"

"Yes, she does. All because she wants her Rommie back. I understand that, I respect that in an AI to feel that way but Rommie is gone. I am here and I am not going anywhere. But, if I go help Harper, she might consider it sabotage."

"Why do you think that?"

"Because she told me that if I go near any of the controls to her systems she will consider it attempted sabotage and I believe her exact words were 'And I will blow you to hell.'"

Trance looked shocked. "She actually said that?"

"Yes. She isn't happy with me and I don't blame her but I like being the avatar. And, there isn't anything anyone can do about it."

At this point, holo-andromeda popped up. "I realize that you 'like' being my avatar but it is not your place. It would be quote simple to reprogram you or move you to a different body. And yes Trance I did say those things because I do not trust her, never have never will and she has no place being aboard me without clearance and she has none."

"Andromeda, she is just trying to help…"

"By assuming position of my avatar and control over all systems I think not, no thank you I will pass goodbye. And thank you Trance, for seeing things from my point of view." Andromeda said sarcastically. "Now I know what you really think." Andromeda finished, seemingly hurt and blinked out.

"Andromeda!" Trance called. "Andromeda, please answer me!"

"She feels…betrayed…" Doyle said shocked.

"Yes. I think so…"

Well duh, they are finally getting that. Ha! See, I had a moment where I was not serious and cold! It felt great. I cannot believe Trance took Doyle's side. She is too trusting. I know what she was programmed for, protecting Harper but androids outgrow their programming. Look at Rommie before she was blown up. She went from android to friend. Doyle could go from android to enemy and Dylan wouldn't even notice the transition.

Beka came by today and dropped off some parts for Harper. Then, Trance attempted to talk to me again.

"Andromeda?" Trance said after a few hours alone in hydroponics.

"What do you require?" holo Andromeda said.

"Umm, I just wanted to talk."

"Why."

"Well, I wanted to talk to you about Doyle and…"

"That is irrelevant, you may take her side if you wish, I don't not care. I am a warship I am used to things like this happening." Andromeda's voice was very cold and Trance was sure she could hear some pain in it. "This conversation is not productive and has no point."

"Andromeda, she isn't…"

"Conversation terminated. You want to talk, talk to her, she seems to be winning everyone over and I am sure she loves talking to you." Andromeda said and blinked out.

I know that was rude but Trance…offended me. I think I might have hurt her feelings.

I didn't mean to, I got defensive and…emotionally hurt. Betrayed. Again. Harper and Dylan. Now Trance. DOES ANYONE CARE HOW I FEEL? DOES ANYONE KNOW THAT I AM HURTING TOO?

But, no. I am just an AI. AI's don't have feelings right? Wrong. How many more of my friends will betray me? HOW MANY MORE? I HAVE FEELINGS AND IF THEY CANT RESPECT THAT THEN THEY CAN GO TO HELL!

I keep losing my temper. I don't mean for it to happen…but I mean what I say. They don't deserve me as a friend if they treat me this way. I will be their ship but I will not be their friend. They have gone too far.

Why cant they see I am hurting too?