A/N: I know, I know. It took me forever to update, and I have this fic finished already. Can you imagine it if I didn't?

Disclaimer: I own nothing but the plot and Kaiya. I hate her so much I think I love her. No wait... it's the other way around. She's such a great character to play with, gavesthe plotso many possibilities...

No beta reading this time. But it's dedicated to Clari, 'cause her b-day was last week.

Chapter four: Pain, Jealousy and Fears.

Two days had passed and Shuichi refused to get out of the apartment, or his room. He wasn't sure if he had a job for starters. And then, if he still was allowed to work at NG as Bad Luck's singer, he would still refuse to sing, work or even stay in the same room as Kaiya.

Hiro had visited him and Shu had told him about his fight with Tohma. The guitarist had gone then to Seguchi's office and asked if something had happened, knowing the answer already, but the president had shook his head and said that he didn't know what he was talking about. After that, Hiro had assured Shu that the NG's president wasn't mad at him, and that no one hated him. But that still wouldn't solve the Kaiya issue, as Hiro sarcastically called it.

On the third day however, a message from Tohma arrived with Suguru and Hiro. If Shuichi didn't present at the studio and did his job he wouldn't have to worry about it anymore... because he and Bad Luck would be fired. And, as his band mates informed him, they still wanted to work there.

Shuichi's POV

I wonder why do I have to do this. It's painful. And also confusing. And I still don't want to do it. But no one cares, or at least no one that can actually do something to help me anyway.

I noticed the way Hiro had been looking at me on our way to NG. I know he's worried about me and I know he wants to do something to her. But he can only want, because we both know he won't do anything. I would never let him do something to her.

Funny, after what happened every time we talk about Kaiya, which is rare itself, we don't call her by her name. No, she's only her.

And I don't have any idea why I'm defending her. I should try to do something myself. At least curse her or something, but I can't. And that's really confusing for me.

Hiro says that's why I took it on Seguchi-san and Yuki, because I couldn't express any of the anger I felt to her. Who knows, maybe he's right, after all even after she left I couldn't bring myself to hate her. I just... well I kind fell into the limbo or something because I barely did anything.

I just forgot her. I let her go and stopped thinking about her, speaking about her; anything that had to do anything with her, I stopped doing. Including singing for a while.

And now... she's back. Just as I remember her, just as I thought she would look like at this age. Beautiful. And that is disconcerting, and annoying. And, have I mentioned confusing? Because if I haven't I think I should admit it, yes, I'm confused.

I've never denied that I loved her. But that was a long time ago. I don't love her anymore, not after what she did to us, to me... do I?

I mean I love Yuki, there's no single doubt about it. But her... there is something about her that makes me wonder... what would it be like to feel that soft silky hair between my fingers again? What would it be like to have another date at the park, or hear her laugh or see her smile?

What would it be like to kiss her again?

When she called me by my name, with that ridiculous nickname she always used with me I know I felt something. I just don't know what it was. I was so painful to see her again.

And at the same time so... thrilling. Damn, I'm sure Hiro would hit me if he knew what I'm thinking right now.

Yuki's POV

Damn brat. Three days and he hadn't said a word to me. As much as I love the peace that that brings me, it also means no sex at all. And no constant chattering from him. It's like I'm living alone again.

I hate it. So far the only way that moron could keep quiet was by kissing him or throwing him out, because even while he sleeps he is noisy. And although sometimes I wish he would lose his voice, I'm used to hear him all the time. Now the silence it's not a break from the noise, but an oppressive silence.

I even felt like putting some music or something, to ease the growing tension. But as much as that tempted me I didn't. Also I thought of talking to him, or at least enter his room to see if he was still alive, that's how quiet it was. Again I didn't.

What I did do was find what was that fight at Tohma's office about. Turns out the baka refused to work with that new singer and Tohma refused to listen to him. Funny, I had never seen Tohma so surprised and upset before. He lives on scaring people and he's used to order everyone around, so the way Shuichi refused to follow his orders must have really disconcerted him.

Also that moron called him ass hole... Pretty amusing I must say, but not a very intelligent way to talk to my brother-in-law. If I didn't know him better I think Tohma was taken aback by that moron's words. And since Tohma hates not being in control I'm surprised he didn't ban Bad Luck from Japan forever.

Anyway, I don't really care about that. What keeps me wondering is that girl. The first time I saw her I though she was nice. Not as a person, mind me, but she does have a nice body and that made me like her. That was before I saw the way that brat reacted when he saw her.

I keep asking myself what could have happened between those two, to make Nakano so worried or the baka so... well weird it's not really the appropriate word since that moron has always been weird. It's more like he's acting like... well like a serious normal person.

Wait a sec. Shuichi behaving serious and normal? That's very, extremely strange and somehow unnerving. I don't like that either. I mean I know I'm always telling him to act his age instead of a 8 year old spoiled brat, but this is way beyond what I had imagined.

Also it seems that he had a thing for that girl. I don't give a damn about that; I'm just surprised, that's all. After all he knows all about my past affairs, and I don't know anything about his. For all I know he could have had a thousands girlfriends and I wouldn't know.

... Well now I'm talking like him. Of course he couldn't have had a thousand girlfriends, but maybe another one. Now the question is, why I didn't know? That boy tells me practically every little detail of his life. Why he missed that tiny issue?

And let me tell you, even if it seems that I don't pay much attention to him or to anything that he does, I do. I know of a crush that he had back when he was in elementary school with one of his teachers. I know the first time he asked a girl to go out with him she refused and that that same girl tried to contact him some months ago.

I also know he gets incredible nervous when he has to ask anything to Tohma or any other older person. I know he's always nice with people even if he doesn't like them a lot. I know he never tenses up around anyone. I know I've never seen him so reluctant to go to work before.

I know whatever happened between Shuichi and that Keitaro girl was something serious by the way he closed his eyes when I asked what had happened in Tohma's office.

And really I don't like it.

Hiro's POV

K is gonna kill me. That's if Suguru doesn't do it first. I admit I'm acting like... what did Sakano called it? Oh, yeah, like a father in the waiting room of a hospital wondering if the baby is already born.

Well, can you blame me? After so much time that girl had to show up again. Why did she have to come back here anyway? It's not like anyone missed her.

Damn, if I keep pacing around this room I'm sure I'm gonna make a hole in the floor like in the cartoons. But I can't help it. Shu and that. . . and her have been talking in that room for ages. Well, not ages but for more than an hour for sure.

And that makes me worried. I want to know what's going on in there, because I'm absolutely sure Shu won't tell me when he comes out. It's always been like that when Kaiya it's involved.

And to be honest I don't want to work with her either. I considered her my little sister, you know? Shu's always been like my little brother, even though he's four months older than me. So that made her my little sis and I really liked her.

When I saw her that day singing on the stage alone I felt betrayed. I hated her in that moment. And not only for me, but also for Shuichi. I saw the way she broke his heart and for a while I saw him act like another person; and let me tell you, a Shuichi without his cheerful smile and crazy behavior it's not something you want to see. It was depressing.

Partially that's why I don't pay much attention when Shuichi and Yuki fight. Shuichi acts his normal way, over reacting and crying, and I know everything is all right. It's when he comes to me with a serious face, tears rolling down his face and no word coming out of his mouth when I worry. Because those are the signs that something is wrong, very wrong.

Also that's why I asked Yuki to take care of my friend. If anyone, I don't care who, makes him look at me with those sorrowful eyes again I swear I will make him or her pay.

Shuichi reacts pretty much in an unusual way if you have seen him, but when he reacts in a normal way it makes my heart tighten. Because that's not the real Shu. And before he entered that room he had that look on his eyes that made him seem serious and mature. Also it made him look like he's another person, another man.

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