LOOK HERE !Ok this is a VERY long part but yes this chapter is NOT mine the only things i did to it are: i changed the breifing Room bit, and instead of Janet dead i put her back This is one humongus part. pitty i went from page 5 to page 12... 7 pages sive 14 font at Abadi MT Condensed Light. I am a shamefull writer... Maybe I should just get rid of this all together?

SGC, you are currently in Paris

" Unscheduled off world activation"

A siren blared as red lights flashed throughout the corridors of the SGC. Sergeant Davis' head shot up. Moments before he had dozed off in front of the computers in the Control Room. Davis checked his watch as rubbed the sleep from his eyes. 2:07. Night Shifts sucked.

Brisk footsteps ascended from the stairs. Sergeant Davis knew from the authority in the steps that it was General Hammond approaching. General Hammond appeared, fully uniformed, with a slight annoyed look on his face from being woken up in the middle of the night. Davis often wondered if the General slept in his uniform.

" Receiving IDC, Sir. It's SG1."

Daniel was flung onto the ramp after being hurtled through the gate.

" Dr. Jackson-"

" Get a medical team down here now!" Daniel rolled out of the way clutching his stomach. That last trip through the stargate had left him physical sick.

As four doctors pushing a gurney appeared, Jack O' Neill skidded through the gate. He fell to his knees then quickly jumped to his feet as Teal'c materialized with a ghostly pale woman in his arms. It took only half of a second for Sergeant Davis to realize who it was. Suddenly sleep was the farthest thing from his mind.

Jack hardly remembered what happened next. He wasn't the kind of person who in an emergency was cool and levelheaded. Time and people became irrelevant.

More doctors came pouring into the 'gate room. Doctors and nurses were running around like maniacs until they took Carter and dashed to the infirmary. Blood, and tubes were flying everywhere. He remembered the General yelling something towards him but he was too numb to answer. Jack and Daniel watched dumbfounded even after she was taken away.

" Debriefing," General Hammond ordered. He had no idea what to do but knew that the surviving members of SG1 needed to be distracted before they-

Teal'c acknowledged his presence but all three stood paralyzed.

" Now," General Hammond added impatiently. He only hoped his voice wasn't shaking because he sure was.

" When do we get to see Sam?" Daniel fidgeted in his chair unconsciously tapping his pencil. General Hammond had managed to get them to the briefing room before Daniel had found his voice again.

" Before you visit Major Carter we need to figure out what happened on P2X37."

Daniel quickly stopped twitching and put down his pencil. General Hammond waited for more but Daniel's mouth was clamped shut. Daniel's gaze immediately went to his hands. Couldn't General Hammond wait awhile before asking about that ?

O' Neill stared at the empty black seat. There wasn't assigned seats but they just always seemed to sit this way. Teal'c was at Jack's left, and Daniel was sitting across Jack. The shouting matches the two had were more fun when they could yell directly at each other. And Sam sat next to Daniel. The whole room felt incomplete without her in her seat.

" General Hammond, We heard a scream coming from the top of the ruins going al the was to the bottom, It took sometime before we found the body," Teal'c finally responded.

" She isn't dead, Teal'c, so I'd appreciate it if you'd not refer to her as the body! Okay?" Daniel snapped but then quickly apologized.

" So, don't we need to be checked out by a doctor? In the infirmary," Daniel pressed but General Hammond ignored him.

Everyone's eyes turned to Jack who was still staring at Carter's chair not paying attention. He found them all horribly annoying and he just wanted them to leave him alone. " Colonel?"

" What? Um, oh. Are we done here?" Before waiting for an answer Jack stood up and started to leave.

" Colonel-" But Jack O' Neill was already out the door. Daniel gave him a pleading stare that told him in seconds he would just walk out too. General Hammond's face softened slightly. " You are all obviously in a great deal of shock. We'll debrief at 0800. You are dismissed."

" Thank you, General!" Daniel declared jumping to his feet. Teal'c nodded a 'thanks' and followed after Daniel.

The infirmary was busting with action, despite the obscure hour. Nurses, who's uniforms had once been opaque and crisp were now covered in dirt, blood, and hospital fluids that had accidentally been spilled on them during their dash to the infirmary.

The woman who was once Samantha Carter now had tubes jetting out from everywhere, connecting her to numerous machines. Sam used to find comfort in the rhythmic beeping of the machines, they annoyed O' Neill.

Even after racing down from the briefing room they were not permitted to enter. A tall, lanky red head stopped them.

" No unnecessary personnel. Sorry." He didn't sound sorry at all.

" But we are necessary," Daniel urged. The officer simply shook his head.

" Listen, officer, I outrank you," Colonel O' Neill argued as if he was explaining to a child why he could stay up later than them.

" My orders were no one comes in until General Hammond says otherwise. You make take the issue up with him if you like, but until then you may not pass, sir."

Colonel O' Neill clenched his teeth, biting back his next comment. " Jack," Daniel gently tried. Jack gave him a ' I know, I know' kind of look before stalking away.

" SG1 to the infirmary"

Daniel looked up from his book. After a quick shower SG1 had been ordered to their quarters until ' further notice'. General Hammond knew from previous experiences that when a member of SG1 was injured the rest became, well reckless. That was no doubt why he had tried to distract them with the debriefing.

Daniel all but sprinted down to the infirmary knocking over three airmen. General Hammond, Teal'c and Colonel O' Neill were already assembled with Janet.

" Maybe we should talk in private?"

She's dying, Daniel thought, all the injuries and technical stuff. That's what she's saying. Suddenly the realization hit him. Oh God, she's dying! He had known it before. He knew it when he first saw her lying in Jack's arms. He knew that from Jack's expression that he had known it too. But they had both refused to believe it.

Now Daniel, Jack and Teal'c sat next to each other facing Janet. Even General Hammond's, who was sitting at his usual spot at the top of the table, expression was grimmer with every word.

" She's brain dead. She lost too much blood and her brain was cut off from oxygen for too long." Her voice was getting quieter and quieter. " We can keep her on life support until…" Janet's voice died out all together. Breaking this news was never easy but she couldn't bring herself to say it this time.

General Hammond cleared his throat to say something but then stopped, loss of words. " What about the Tok'ra?" Everyone's eyes fell to Teal'c. Nobody had been able to say something until now. Even Jack hadn't cracked a lame joke. It would have been pointless; Carter was the only one who laughed at them anyways.

" We thought about that too. But Major Carter is dead. Only the machine is keeping her with us at all so it is very unlikely that a simbiote could do any good. Also seeing as she can't make the decision the Tok'ra won't take her as a willing host. Of course since her father-"

Janet was cut off by a short intake of breath, as everyone tensed. For the moment they hadn't yet thought about Jacob. It would kill him. " I should go try to contact Jacob." The General said excusing himself.

" When her father gets here we'll get his permission to take the next step." Everyone knew what he meant by next step. " If you would all like to see her…" Her only answer was dead panned stares. She knew that SG-1 were as close as family, her included in there.

" The nurses have cleaned her off. There will still be a tube down her throat and IVs to keep her hydrated-"

" We know," Jack said harshly. He knew what to expect when he saw her; they all did.

Janet looked like she'd been punched in the face. She quickly collected his folders and scrambled to her feet. Janet gave them an apologetic smile before practically fleeing from the room. SG1 sat quietly unable to move. Reality was finally sinking in.

Samantha Carter was dead.

Jacob Carter wasn't available then. Nor was he available the next three times General Hammond tried. According to the doctors Samantha Carter would be moved to a different location if Jacob Carter wasn't contacted within the next 48 hours.

By now it was seven in the morning and Daniel was sitting in the cafeteria staring at a bowl of soggy cereal. Teal'c had joined him for a while before returning to his room to do kelnorem. It wasn't necessary now that he used tretonin, but Daniel guessed it was his way of coping. After the meeting Jack insisted he needed to get some sleep, but Daniel knew for a fact Jack hadn't gotten a wink of sleep nor had he planned to. They had a scheduled debriefing in an hour. He didn't plan on showing up. Nor did anyone else.

Daniel finally stood up and started walking. He didn't know where he was headed until he found himself at the door to the infirmary. Hesitating only slightly he stepped inside. The room was completely empty except two airmen who were left to guard Sam. Daniel ignored them and took a seat next to Sam's bed. He had seen her look better. Actually he wasn't sure if he'd even seen her look worse. The doctors had taken the liberty of cleaning all the blood off of her, but her naturally pale complexion was snow white.

Daniel leaned forward resting his elbows on his knees.

" You have everyone worried, Sam," he quietly told her. " Teal'c is off meditating and you know Jack. He's barricaded himself in his room. And me, well I just feel kind of lost. It's like a part of me is missing, ya know? Of course you do. You guys had to go through this with me, remember? But I came back. I did. Just like you have to, okay? Preferably with all your memories intact." He let out a nervous laugh as his eyes threatened to blur.

" The SGC won't be the same without you. SG1 definitely won't. We'll probably get stuck with some new bubbly scientist. Let's hope it's a woman though. I don't think SG1 could handle anymore testosterone. If Teal'c doesn't scare them off I think Jack's bickering and mine would drive them crazy. Did you know Jack and I used to bet when you would finally crack? You never did though. You were too strong, you are too strong." He shifted in his chair picking up her hand and stroking it.

" God, Sam, what are we going to do without you? You're the stargate's expert after all. What is going to happen to us without you out there? You were the first woman to travel through the gate. I was thinking about that earlier. It should go in history books, don't you think? It's not fair. No one is going to know that you sacrificed your life for everyone out there. It's all because this stupid high security thing!" He shouted to the officers at the door but they didn't even flinch. Tears were beginning to stream down his face now.

" How am I supposed to say good bye to you, Sam? You've been my one true friend. When I was younger I was a nerd, surprise right? I wasn't exactly drowning in friends. Even when I was surrounded by archeologists I still didn't fit in. The whole alien thing was too extreme even for them. And then there was Jack. I don't even know what to consider him. Of course there's Teal'c but it's different with him. Not you. You've always been there. You have always understood me too. With my parents dead I haven't have anyone understand me in a very long time. I don't know what I'm going to do without you." He sighed lightly placing Sam's hand back on her lap.

" When you're gone I'll have no one left. You know that right? That's why I can't lose you. Because now I really am alone."

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Daniel stayed with her for the next few hours. Only when Teal'c came by did Daniel decide to leave. Teal'c stood by the foot of the bed staring intently at his friend.

" I do not know what I am supposed to say," Teal'c admitted sheepishly, " On Chulak we honor a warrior with a ceremony. I will be most happy to perform one for you, Major Carter.

" It was an honor working with you. I've learned much from you. I only wish your time on this planet wasn't cut so short. You are a better warrior then most on Chulak. Ishta would enjoy your presence greatly. I would fight along your side for many years to come. I only wish I could have fought by your side during this battle. I am sure you fought with honor.

" On Chulak it is seldom for a man and woman to be equals, but I could have not wish for a better companion in this battle against the goa'uld. I promise you that one day we will defeat the goa'uld. You will not have died in vain."

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It was well after dark before General Hammond made his way to the infirmary. After the failed attempts with Jacob he had a long conversation with the President. Then he had to send two teams off world and debrief another one. As much as it pained him to say it the SGC would have to go on without Major Carter.

He was reluctant to the infirmary. His mother had been on life support when she finally passed away. He didn't want to think about going through it again. As he walked into the infirmary the two airmen straightened.

" At ease, gentlemen," General Hammond ordered with a small catch to his voice. " If you could just wait outside." The two airmen nodded at the request and stepped outside.

Unable to avoid it any longer his gaze finally fell to Major Carter. He stood just staring at her for a while. Finally he said, " I should have known your death would be the hardest. I mean it's never easier, but normally it is at least a little easier. Death comes with the job, air force 101, right? Good men, good teams just disappear and I'm left to mourn them. I never have to watch them…

" This whole ordeal is making me rethink retirement. In the air force everyone is supposed to be equal but we know better. Certain people just come closer to your heart, risk your judgment. You've been like a daughter to me, Major Carter.

" I don't know what's going to happen when you're gone. I don't think any of us ever thought what would happen if you ever left.

" I was on the phone with the President earlier today. I explained everything to him and gave him some options. He says if you become Tokr'a you could no longer live on Earth or work on this base. He feels you'd be a liability. We're running out of choices here, Major Carter. Even if we kept you alive we'll still lose you. It'd all be for nothing.

" At the end of the year I'll be handing in my resignation. I'm not going to lose another member of my family." He kissed her on the forehead patting her hand. And then he left. He didn't know what else to say. In all his years in the air force he had never met a Major quite like Samantha Carter, nor did he think he ever would. And that thought killed him.

As the General left, the guards resumed their positions. No one else came to visit Major Carter. Sure, a captain here or there poked their heads in the windows. Everyone on base knew of Samantha Carter. The " accident" was supposed to be kept quiet but by noon it was all anyone was thinking about. Sergeant Davis watched her for a couple of minutes. He and the Major hadn't been friends, but unlike the Colonel she was always unconditionally nice to him. Lieutenant Haley stopped in for a few seconds before she brushed away watery eyes and dashed out. Colonels she had momentarily served under stopped by the door but refused to enter. Many officers thought of stopping by the infirmary but couldn't. They all planned to attend her funeral but few could bring themselves to look at the lifeless body.

Even fewer noticed Colonel Jack O' Neill standing in a hidden corner outside the infirmary.

He stood there with his hands jammed in his pockets, as he watched a semi-hysterical Daniel, a composed looking Teal'c, a sunken faced General, and many others enter and exit the infirmary. By two in the morning, the airmen were allowed to leave their post. General Hammond had retired to his quarters for some much needed rest. The lights were dimmed to cause an eerie glow. A handful of guards were positioned in various spots on the base. Activity was, well, dead.

Jack winced at the metaphor he had just used.

He had been positioned in the hallway for about ten hours, now he was done. It was time for him to go home. He tucked his leather jacket protectively under his arm as he stared at the door. He had been staring at this door all day. There was a small dent on the door. His best guess was it was from a gurney crashing into the door, or a person for that matter. He had noticed it awhile back while staring at the door. It helped to pass time, to distract him.

Since hardly anyone was left on base Jack had to use his swipe card. The room was pitch black. Jack robotically flipped on the light switch. He and his teammates had spent so much time in the infirmary that he knew it from memory.

Carter's skin looked a light shade of blue. Bruises, cuts, stitches, it all just seemed so unCarter like. A life support machine beeped annoyingly at O' Neill.

His 2IC, his closest friend, His beep beep beep

Why must it make that aggravating sound? Jack thought angrily.

Her feet were awkwardly poking out from under the covers. Jack lightly tugged the blankets to cover them. She always had cold feet. Hadn't the doctors read her file? Well he highly doubted 'cold feet' was something that went down in someone's file. It was the kind of things her close friends knew. Janet had known. He tossed his leather jacket on the bed next to her and sat down on Daniel's chair. " So, Carter," He half expected her to respond. She didn't.

" There's a lot that needs to be said Carter. Hell, everyone needs to talk to you. It just seems so sudden. We all felt that we had more time. We kept telling ourselves one more day, one more month, what could it hurt? But, man now it hurts.

" I think we took your genius for granted. You could've taught us so much more if we had only listened. I can't wait 'til Siler tries to figure out the stargate without you. I bet his head spins." He grew quiet. What were they going to do without her?

" I probably won't have another chance to say this. It won't mean much now anyways." He took a deep breath before continuing. " I'm sorry, Carter. We should have left sooner. "

Why was he having such a hard time saying this? He had been thinking about it all day. Besides she couldn't hear him anyway. Uncomfortable silence lasted for what felt like hours.

" I finished the crossword. I believe you owe me twenty bucks now. Okay, so maybe they're not all right but that doesn't matter, right? You know something, Carter? I think this is the first conversation we've ever had where you haven't totally confused me." His smile faded. " Sorry. You know this wise ass sense of humor of mine. Always getting me into trouble.

" SG1 never lost a member of its team before. We've been close, oh God we've been so close. Daniel's left, Daniel's died, Teal'c has betrayed us, you've been possessed, it's just death hasn't stuck to us. Not until now at least. I guess it's kind of ironic, with everything being like this.

" I don't think the realizations hit yet. You don't strike me as the dying type, Carter. That probably sounded really stupid, huh? But it's true. You were too smart. And you've got a mean right hook. Not like the rest of us. Well Daniel, he's too nice for his own good. Thinks that everyone is, well you know how he is. And Teal'c. Badass that he is, he's just got too many enemies. And of course me. I'm just too damn handsome. All those snakeheads just don't have a sense of humor. The point is you just always seemed to be the one who would survive." He jumped out of his chair and walked across the room.

" Damnit, Carter!" He slammed his hand against the wall. He was now yelling but he didn't care. " Why did you go to that god damn planet? Why didn't you get out of this when you could? You shouldn't have gone." His voice dropped and he closed his eyes. " You were the one person who wasn't expendable."

He didn't remember ever using that tone with her before and immediately clamped his mouth shut. He had to get out of there fast before he had another outburst. He grabbed his leather jacket and began to walk out. Turning back, he stared at her while turning out the light.

" Who ever thought you'd be the first solider down?"

That intire part was NOT mine I repeat NOT MINE okies? now if i could only fine the author Then I would have some ease knowing that I won't wake up tomorrow only to find that my Account been frozen or something and please dont freeze my account its really hard to find the author when you can't remember who the name was AND the going to your history and clicking all the sites/stories you've visited cause I've tried and it didn't work.