Chapter 5

Sylvia worked diligently that day. Around noon she got a note from James telling her that her father had called him and wanted to meet them for dinner that night. She dreaded seeing her father but thought maybe it would be bearable with James there by her side. That reminded her of the day she had left and the bitter parting.

Her father was not the type to be denied anything. He was demanding that she marry a boy she'd never met so that he could fill a contract. She wasn't about to agree to that and told him so. He then had started blaming her for her mothers' death and telling her that he wouldn't feed her and throw her out on the streets. She started yelling at him that she didn't care what he wanted and that she was going to leave. When they paused the radio could be heard.

Now I will tell you what I've done for you

50 thousand tears I've cried

Screaming deceiving and bleeding for you

And you still won't hear me (going under)

Don't want your hand this time I'll save myself

Maybe I'll wake up for once (for once)

Not tormented daily defeated by you

Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom

I'm dying again

I'm going under (going under)

Drowning in you (drowning in you)

I'm falling forever (falling forever)

I've got to break through

I'm going under

Blurring and stirring the truth and the lies

So I don't know what's real and what's not

Always confusing the thoughts in my head

So I can't trust myself anymore

I'm dying again

I'm going under (going under)

Drowning in you (drowning in you)

I'm falling forever (falling forever)

I've got to break through

So go on and scream

Scream at me I'm so far away

I won't be broken again

I've got to breathe I can't keep going under

I'm dying again

I'm going under (going under)

Drowning in you (drowning in you)

I'm falling forever (falling forever)

I've got to break through

I'm going under (going under)

Going under (drowning in you)

I'm going under (I'm Going Under)

She knew what to do this time. She couldn't live in his shadow doing what he said simply to avoid arguments and to keep living. She ran to her room and picked up the bag she had packed for when she was going to leave. Now she was going to leave. She picked it up and stalked past her father and out the front door. She knew he expected her to come crawling back to him in a day, if not hours. She wasn't going to do that. She had done it before when she was younger, but not now. She was going to change her life no matter what.