Chapter 9. The letter.

Buffy gazed at the letter Spike had left her and walked over closer to it and stared at it. She heard the front door opened and quickly picked it up and put in down her top.

Tom who was panting out of breath came running in the kitchen.

"Buffy." He said catching his breath.

"What?" She said angry.

"I'm sorry. I am so sorry."

"Don't worry, You won, he's gone. Happy now?" She brushed past Tom and tom grabbed her arm.

"What do you mean?"

"He has gone, he's left town."

"When?"

"About 3 minutes ago."

"You've been crying." He mumbled.

"I have."

"He has gone because of you Tom. Because you were jealous!" She looked at him. "I can't be with you."

"What why?"

"Why do you think! I can't trust you, you get jealous, you don't make me feel happy."

"I'm sorry Buffy I can change I will I promise!"

"It's to late. Go back to wherever you came from and get out of my life."

She started walking up the stairs and Tom grabbed her again.

"No." He shook his head. "You can't give up what we got."

"We don't have anything."

"I'm in love with you Buffy."

"Well news flash! I'm not in love with you."

"I know. I've known that for ages, but look I'm still here."

"That's your choice and now its mine. I don't want to be with you anymore."

"All this over a stupid vampire!" He yelled.

"He is not a stupid vampire." She yelled back. "You were not here last year! You do not what I went though with him. And for him to come back a better man to do what he did for me!" She shook her said. "You will never know." She sighed.

"I want to be here for you Buffy."

"Because Spike is out of the picture now."

"God!" He shouted. "I don't care about Spike I just want you."

"It's never enough."

"Please everything was so good before he came and you know it was, we were amazing together and he still could be."

Buffy said nothing and looked at Tom and he backed down the stairs and looked up at her. "I can't make you be with me. I can't." He shook his head. "But I know what we got, had, or have is something worth saving. Whenever your ready to talk." He said and walked out of the front door.

Buffy sat on the stairs and ripped open the letter from Spike.

Dear Buffy,

You know how much I love you and how much I want to be with you. But ever since I have came back things have gone wrong for you and your life. So it's best if I'm not part of it. I am leaving or I should say I have left I'm going to start fresh in LA. Hopefully I won't run into Angel but I know it's for the best, for both of us. I know you have never loved me but I know you care about me and give me respect and that's enough to know.

I will always be thinking of you.

Spike xxx

Tears fell onto the paper and smudged the writing, she didn't know how to react and looked at the banisters and saw Spikes leather jacket hanging over it. She saw it and knew he would come back he was lost without it, she picked it up and could smell the sent of Spike on it. Which pretty much smelt of booze and cigarettes. She carried it upstairs and put it on her chair and sat on her bed and stared at it.

Spike meanwhile was riding down the highway in his car and looked in the back seat to see if his jacket was there.

"Shit." He said and rubbed his chin.

He stopped the car and thought about if he should go back and get it. But he then thought that if he never wanted to go back and see Buffy in the future it would be an excuse.

"Worth a shot." He said and carried on driving.

He had the taste of Buffy in his mouth and it made him harder to not think about her and not to cry.

"Come on Spike pull yourself together." He sniffed.