Sorry its been so long since I posted. I been on holiday

Chapter 17. Choices.

Buffy found Spike gazing at his beer bottle in the Bronze. She walked up to him and got him on his feet.

"What is wrong Spike?"

"Nothing." He sighed and sat back down.

"There is. You was not like this when you left the house tonight."

"What I do…Everything I do is for you. You do know that right?"

"Spike what is going on?"

Spike got up out of his chair and dragged Buffy out of the Bronze. He let go of her hand started pacing around the ally.

"Spike." She gently said.

He shook his head.

"What is it?"

"Me." Drusilla said and walked out from the darkness in his vamp face.

"Drusilla?" Buffy cried.

"Hello Buffy." Dru said and circled Spike.

"Get away from him." Buffy half shouted at her.

"Scared I will get old Spike back."

"No, it didn't work last time, it won't work now."

"See Spike has a soul now he can feel things."

I don't feel for you Dru." Spike said and pushed her away from him.

"Yes you do, otherwise you couldn't kill me."

"You made me."

"I know I did. You tasted all fresh."

Spike walked to Buffy and stood by Buffys side. "I love Buffy."

"I know, that's why you got a soul, gave old Spike up." She sadly said.

"No, I still am the Spike I use to be. Just a more friendly one."

"Not towards pigs though." Dru laughed. "We don't need another Angel in this world."

"I am nothing like that bloody dickhead." Spike said angry.

"So kill me." Dru said holding her hands out waiting.

Buffy looked at Spike who was clenching the stake in his hand.

"Come on Spike." Dru taunted him.

Spike sighed and looked at Buffy and walked away into the shadows.

"Well isn't he nice. Left you all alone with me. Where I will kill you."

"You know how bored I get of vampires saying that to me." Buffy said.

Dru ran towards Buffy and they started to fight for awhile. Buffy ended up on the floor and Drusilla looked over her. "See you around Buffy."

Buffy got to her feet and limped home Spike was in the basement hitting the punch bag with full vamp strength. He screamed and morphed into his vamp face and hit the punch bag. It went flying across the room. Buffy stood at the bottom of the stairs with her arms crossed. Spike turned and looked at her in his vamp face.

"Spike don't let her win."

"She is in my head Buffy." He said tapping his head. "AND I CAN'T GET HER OUT." He shouted and started hitting the wall.

Buffy ran over to him and stopped him.

"SPIKE STOP!" She cried and held his hands.

He looked down at their hands together and morphed out of his vamp face and looked at Buffy.

"I'm still weak Buffy." He whispered. "I'm strong when I'm with you…But Drusilla I can't handle that, she is the meaning of why I am here…She is the bad part of me. And that part of me is finding it hard to let her go."

He sighed and stepped back a step and took his hands away from hers.

"See I loved you when I had no soul, you might not of thought it but I bloody well did. You were in my dreams all I could bloody think about. Drusilla is in one part of me, the one side I'm trying to let go."

"Then let go." Buffy said.

"Not that easy." He shook his head. "This is Drusilla! Even if I have a soul its still gonna be hard for me! And the same for Angel and Darla. He won't admit it but it was hard for him to kill her."

Buffy said nothing and walked up to the stairs and slammed the door. She did understand where Spike was coming from but just didn't want to.