Ok I know the first part of this chapter is pretty sappy…but hey, I love fluff. IS THAT A CRIME?

Author's Note: OK! This chapter took me like…fgou stinkin' days to right! Good grief!

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Monk picked up a picture of Trudy that Stottlemeyer had brought to the hospital and looked at it.

"You said you didn't have a problem with it. You said it was okay," Monk said to the picture. "So…if it's okay…then why don't I feel at peace about it? This is bad…this is really bad. I need to nip this in the bud. It was nice at first…but I can't do this. I can't be in love. Not while Trudy's lying in the ground with a case unsolved. But…I can't help it…I'm in love. I don't mean to be. I don't want to be……but I am. Even though I still love you… I've found myself with that feeling again. You know…the feeling you get when you know something's different. And you feel like your free falling and you know that at some point you'll land…but you don't care because. This feeling is so great and so powerful. But you don't fear the ground because… some how…you know that…everything will be alright. I had that feeling with you…and I could tell you had it too, I could see it in your eyes. I see the same look in Natalie's eyes"

Monk stopped for a moment. He put the picture on the table next to his bed. He sat up and put his elbows on his knees, and rested his chin in his hands as a river of tears came from his eyes. He began to speak again through the tears.

"I can't handle it Trudy… why is it that every woman I truly love gets hurt? What if she doesn't make it?" Monk sighed. "Maybe………maybe I'm just one of those people that are meant to die alone."

"That's not true." Randy suddenly said from the doorway.

Monk jerked his head around to see him standing at the door.

"How long have you been standing there?" Monk questioned as he tried to rid his face of tears.

"Since the beginning" Randy said walking in and taking a seat. "Monk…You were not responsible for Trudy's death. And you were not responsible for the accident. The light was green you weren't running a red light or anything…that's why it's called an accident."

Monk didn't look very convinced though.

"She's gonna be fine Monk." Randy said.

Adrian stared at Randy for a long time, with an all too serious expression in his eyes,"…Trudy wasn't."

Randy drew back a bit when he heard this. Randy came closer to the bad and looked Monk in the eye. "Monk…I promise you…Natalie will make it out of this."

Monk shook his head. "You can't make that promise."

"I just did. Monk…you loved Trudy…and you probably always will. But you can have closure of it without having solved the case."

"I can?"

"Yeah…you just haven't let yourself do it yet."

"Its so hard to let go…how am I supposed to do that?"

"I don't know Monk." Randy said.

There was a brief silence, Then Kate walked in.

"Hey there Mr. Monk." Kate greeted.

When Randy saw the nurse he immediately stood in acknowledgement of her presence. Monk rolled his eyes at Disher's obvious attraction to Kate.

"Hi there." Randy said reaching out his hand. "The name's Disher, Randy Disher."

Monk had to keep himself from laughing at Randy's poor imitation of the James Bond catchphrase. Monk could tell Randy was getting nowhere with his attempt by the look on Kate's face.

She nodded slowly and said, "Right…well thanks for that." Kate walked over to the end of Monk's bed and wrote something on his chart then exited the room.

"She digs me," Randy said, reassuring himself.

"No, she doesn't," Monk said truthfully, trying to keep from laughing.

"You're probably right…but she will. You just watch," Disher said pointing at the door.

"You know who she reminds me of?" questioned Monk.

Randy's face went blank. "ummm," He said shaking his head.

"Sharona," Monk ended.

Randy chuckled, "Well then in that case..."

Monk also let out a small laugh, "And if she's as much like Sharona that I think she is…"

"Then I don't stand a chance," Randy finished and the both of them broke out in laughter.

As they were laughing, Stottlemeyer suddenly burst into the room with a look of panic on his face.

"Monk," he said, "…………Its Natalie."

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HAHAHA CLIFHANGER! I feel so…evil, wicked, bad and nasty. lol. Too bad. So sad. Stay tuned. lol.