This had to be the most difficult chapter I have ever had to write. But I hope you like it. REVIEW!

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"What about her?" Monk said with a worried voice as he sat up.

Randy also sat up strait.

Stottlemeyer looked at Monk with wide eyes.

"Captain?" Adrian said in a low, shaky voice.

"Come quick." Stottlemeyer said opening the door wider.

Monk and Randy got up as fast as humanly possible. Monk limped his way through the door way and into the hall. When he turned in the direction of Natalie's room, Monk saw her on a stretcher being rushed out of her room. Kate and two other doctors were running next to the bed. Dr. Lake, Natalie's physician, was shouting out orders.

Monk ran as fast as he could towards Natalie. He eventually caught up to the doctors. With his hand that was not gripping the cane, he grabbed the side of the bed as he watched Natalie's body go into shock. As he tried to keep pace with the doctors in spite of his limp, Monk began to get tears in his eyes.

'She's shaking uncontrollably. Oh God please don't do this. God please don't take her from me.'

"Natalie…Natalie you're going to be fine! You're going to make it out of this! You HAVE to! She HAS to!" Monk shouted this last part to Dr. Lake.

"We'll do the best we can Mr. Monk." Lake assured.

"I love you Natalie!" Monk said just before he tripped and fell because of his limp. He fell flat on his chest and his cane slid on the ground away from him.

"Monk!" Randy yelled as he and Stottlemeyer ran towards him. They both helped him up and sat him down at the nearest chair.

Monk was panicking. His eyes were looking all over the place.

"Monk you have to calm down." Stottlemyer said to his friend, "She'll be fine, Monk. She'll be fine…Monk look at me! Monk! Look at me!"

Monk brought up his head and he and Stottlemeyer shared the same look.

"Is it just me or does this seem…" Monk began.

"Extremely familiar," ended Stottlmeyer.

Monk's face dropped. "Let's just pray it doesn't have the same outcome."

"Yeah," Stottlemeyer nodded with a sigh.

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Julie ran into the waiting room.

"Where is she!" Julie yelled when she saw Monk, Stottlemeyer and Randy sitting in the waiting room. "Where's my mom?"

"Julie." Monk said when he saw the poor little girl with tears running down her face.

"Julie your mom went into shock about half an hour ago." Stottlemeyer said.

"So what does that mean?"

"It means we have to wait." Monk said as he tilted his head back and closed his eyes with a big sigh.

Monk opened his eyes when he felt arms wrapped around him. When he looked down he saw Julie hugging him.

"I'm so scared Mr. Monk." She said as she cried her eyes out on his chest.

At first Monk was terribly uncomfortable with Julie's action. But then as he thought about it…he really could sympathize with her. So in feeling her pain, he responded by wrapping his arms around her.

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It had been a few hours since Natalie had first gone into shock. Every once in a while Kate would come out and give them updates. So at that point…all Monk, Julie, Stottlemeyer and Randy really knew was that Natalie was in surgery and that there had been quite a few challenges in keeping her alive.

"Monk this is Tucker Simons." Stottlemeyer said standing next to a man Monk had never seen before.

"Hello…I was driving the other car Mr. Monk. And I would like to say I'm sorry." Tucker said reaching out his hand.

Monk stared at Tucker's hand and then said "Captain can I please speak to you for a moment?"

"Sure." Stottlemeyer said.

Monk got up slowly and pulled Leland to the side. "Captain…I'm not really in a chit chat sort of mood."

"I know…look, he got a hold of me and wanted to talk to you. And apologize."

"Captain…I don't want to talk right now" Monk said as he bowed his head a bit, closed his eyes and rubbed the bridge of his nose.

Stottlemeyer nodded his head and walked over to Tucker. "Mr. Simons my friend doesn't feel up for a chat right now"

Tucker nodded his head. "I understand," he said. Then he left the waiting room.

Just then, Dr. Lake came out from where the "touch and go" surgery was going on. Randy and Julie both stood up when they saw him. Adrian and Stottlemeyer saw what Randy and Julie did so they looked at what made them stand up. When Monk saw the Doctor his eyes shot open.

'I know that look.' Monk thought to himself. 'I hate that look. That's the worse look in the world.'

Monk slowly walked up to Dr. Lake. "Well?" Adrian asked after a painful gulp.

Lake sighed. "…I'm sorry Mr. Monk…we did all we could do."

Whatever part of his heart that was not broken after Trudy's death was shattered at that moment. Through the chaotic images that were going through his mind as his world once again began to spin out of control, he could hear the little girl standing next to him break down in tears.

Julie fell to the ground crying hysterically. Monk knew exactly how she felt. He had lost a mother too. Not to mention Trudy. So he knelt to the ground as well and placed an arm around her. And the two of them wept together.

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Stottlemeyer and Randy couldn't hear anything that was happening. All they could see was Monk and Julie suddenly break down in tears.

"Captain this can't be happening." Randy said as he turned to face his friend.

"'Fraid it is, son." Stottlemeyer said as he started walking towards the Doctor.

"No Captain, you don't understand. I promised Monk she would be okay." Randy said in a shaky voice as he followed his Captain, his eyes never leaving Stottlemeyer's.

When Stottlemeyer reached Dr. Lake he forcefully grabbed him by the collar of his shirt. "What happened!" Stottlemeyer asked.

"There's nothing more we could do, Captain," Lake said calmly.

"What do you mean there's nothing you can do? You're Doctors! There has to be something you can do!"

"Captain I'm sorry for your loss…" Lake began to say but was cut off by Stottlemeyer.

"My loss? No, no, no! I didn't lose any one! Natalie's still alive. Your gonna go back in there and your gonna make her be alive!"

"Captain…"

"No, no you don't understand…my friend can't lose any one else. It nearly killed him the first time. And I'm not gonna let him go through that again! Now there has to be SOMETHING you can do."

"…Captain we did every thing we could do."

Stottlemeyer released Dr. Lake. "So that's it?" Leland asked.

"I'm afraid so," Dr. Lake said then exited.

Leland looked down at his weeping friend and let loose a huge sigh.

Monk looked up with a look of hatred in his eyes, "Where is he?" he asked.

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Monk came out of the hospital and limped into the parking lot. "Tucker!" He shouted to get Tucker's attention. It worked. Tucker turned around to see Monk limping towards him.

"You wanted to talk?" Monk said.

Tucker gulped. "Yeah. I-I wanted to say I'm sorry for what ever pain I caused you."

"You have no idea what kind of pain you've caused me."

"Look…you can stay mad at me forever if you want. I won't blame you."

"Good," Monk spat.

"I'm sorry Mr. Monk…is there any thing I can do?"

"No. Right now I just want to look at you. I never had the chance to look into the face of my wife's killer. Now all I can do is look into the face of my girlfriends killer."

Tucker sighed again. "I am so sorry."

"Tucker, I don't want an apology! All I want is Natalie back."

"Look I didn't know it was going to happen."

"Well why did you run that red light?! And don't tell me it was just because you were in a hurry!"

Tucker slapped the hood of his car in frustration with himself. "I got into a fight with my wife!"

Monk looked confused. "What?"

"I…had a fight with my wife and I was upset…I had been drinking..."

Monk's eyes shot open in anger. He lunged at Tucker and pushed him onto the hood of the car. "YOU MEAN THE SWEETEST WOMAN ON EARTH IS IN THERE DEAD BECAUSE YOU DECIDED TO DRINK AND DRIVE?"

Monk brought his hand back as if to hit Tucker but somebody grabbed his hand and spun him around.

"Monk, stop it!" Stottlmeyer said.

"Captain he killed her!" Monk said as he struggled with Stottlemeyer's grip.

"Monk calm down! You're not thinking strait. You're not acting like yourself."

Monk calmed down a bit, looked at Stottlemeyer and nodded.

"Captain! Monk! Come quick!" Randy shouted as he ran towards them. Once he reached them he placed a hand on Stottlemeyer's shoulder to try and catch his breath.

"What is it Randy?" Leland asked.

"It's Natalie…Monk, she's alive."

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I know I know I know. I just couldn't bring myself to killing her off. And I knew I would have to bring her back in this chapter cause I knew that if I left it at that then I would get a lot of nasty reviews. lol. And I am sorry if you guys think I made Monk go ooc for some of it.