My little rant…I finally got my hands on a copy of Reload and the new voices suck ass! Hakkai sounds like a woman and the others just sound like crap. AAAAAGGGGHHHH! I am like seriously disturbed here! This totally ruined my groove so this is a short one.

Part 4: Forever

Sanzo

I climb the hill in the middle of the storm. It's fitting that the rain came only after sunset. Nature mourns him too. I haven't come to this place since I told him goodbye, but I can't stand the thought of not coming. I know what I told Goku, but I need to be here. I fall to my knees and lean my head against the cold, wet marker letting my hands run down over the inscription.

Here lies Cho Hakkai. Lover, Brother, and Friend.

I remember it all. Everything. I close my eyes and see his smiling face. Every time it rains, I think of him. Our passion in the rain. The promises we made. The love we shared. It all comes back. "Sanzo, I love you now, I loved you then, and I will love you forever. There is nothing that matters to me more than you do. Forever." His voice echoes in my mind. Every time it rains, I have to face these memories.

I know you wanted me to live for you, but I just can't. I wrote a letter to Gojyo leaving him everything except the sutra. The sutra is Goku's to protect. There is nothing left to hold me here. I kiss your headstone and sit back pressing the gun to my head. I'll see you again, Hakkai. I pull the trigger.

"WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING, KONZEN?" I know that voice. The gun won't fire.

"AAAAAGGGGHHHHH! Damn you! Bitch from Hell." I scream.

"Sanzo," she says her voice softening. "There's another way."

"Another way?"

"Yes. Because you've made it completely apparent that there is no way you're going to live without him, I've managed to rearrange things a bit."

I put the gun away, and stare at the grave. Does she mean….?
"Don't be ridiculous," she scoffs. "There is something left for you to do in this world, and we can't have you messing it up."

"Hmpf…and I thought you came out of genuine concern," I say sarcastically.

"Glad to see you've got you bark back. I'll make you a deal."

"What's that?"

"I'll let you sleep until he is awakened, but when it's time to wake up you have to suck it up and take care of things. Agreed?" she asks eagerly.

"Awakened? You mean reincarnated?"

"Take it however you want, but I need an answer now. Think of it this way—you can kill yourself and end up without him, or sleep and wake up with him in your reach."
She looks annoyed and even through the storm I can hear the reason for her impatience.

"Sanzo! Sanzo!" They're calling my name. I guess they found the note.
Damn it. "I'll do it!"
The last thing I remember is a loud "BANG!"