A/N: Thank you guys for all the lovely reviews! They're really appreciated, like I've said before. And since you guys were so sweet, here's another chapter. See, not even a week! I'm not really sure about this one so tell me what you think! For those of you who desperately want to see Rory with Finn: be patient my friends! I promise something's going to happen, you just have to patient... and review!

Chapter 5: Dreadful conclusions

"Logan?"

"Is Finn here?" Logan asked, his eyes never leaving Rory's stunned face.

"He's in the kitchen," she answered confused.

"Come here," he said as he took her hand, pulled her out into the porch and closed the door behind her.

"What are you doing? Logan, what are you doing here?" she asked trying to get loose.

"We need to talk," he said seriously as he sat her down.

"What!"

He sat down next to her. She thought he had never looked this grave.

"Before I say anything I need to ask you a question. Do you hate me?"

She stared at him for a moment thinking about her answer.

"No, I don't hate you. I'm angry at you, very angry, but I don't hate you."

He smiled a bit and sighed, what Rory thought was a sigh of relief.

"Ok," he waited a while and then he looked straight into her eyes as he spoke, "Rory, I'm sorry."

Rory was surprised but didn't say anything so he continued, "I'm sorry for what I did last week, I regret it now. Can we please just forget about it? I want you back, I need you," he said.

"Are you serious?"

"I'm dead serious, Ace."

"I don't believe this! I can't believe you! What do you expect me to say, Logan? Do you expect me to fall into your arms, tell you I love you, kiss you and say that everything is forgiven and forgotten?"

"I'm sensing you're not going to do that."

"You're unbelievable! I mean, I spent this whole week storming my brain trying to figure out what I did wrong and you come here now asking me to forget about it?"

"Rory, how could you think that the problem was you?"

"How could I not? You didn't exactly explain anything."

"I'm sorry about that too," he said now looking at the ground, "but it wasn't you Rory, it was me. I was scared, but I'm not anymore."

"Scared of what," she asked trying to look him in the eyes.

"Scared of my feelings for you. But now, all I'm scared of is losing you."

Again Rory was silent, thinking. She still cared about him but he didn't say what she wanted to hear.

"Possession."

"I'm sorry?" Logan asked confused.

"Possession. You said you wanted to get back together because you were afraid of losing me. That's all you want, you want to have me. You spoke of feelings but you never said what these feelings were."

"Rory..."

"No, Logan. Maybe this is what we need, some time apart to figure out what we really want, what we really feel. Our lives were getting too mixed-up, it was hard to tell where I ended and you began."

"But..."

"No, Logan, I'm serious. This week hasn't been easy and I don't want to go through it again every time you get scared and run. Take some time to think about things, make sure you know how you feel and that you're not going to bail again. I've been hurt one too many times and you know it. I don't want to suffer anymore." She stood up and turned her back to him.

"Rory..."

"I tried to hate you," she said turning to him again, ", but I couldn't. But I'm just not ready for another heartbreak."

"Please don't stay away from me. If I can't have you as my girlfriend now, please let me have you at least as a friend."

She smiled. She wanted to kiss him right there, right then, but she didn't, she had to be strong.

"I think we can work that out."

He smiled and stood up. Rory took his hand and started walking towards the door when it was opened by Finn. Rory's first reaction was to let go of Logan's hand . Not one of the three understood why she had done that but it was done.

Finn looked confused, but trying to seem less affected he said, "I was worried. You were taking too long to get back inside, I thought something had happened... Well, obviously something has happened," he said pointing at the previous hand holding that had not escaped his eyes, "congratulations, mate, finally had the guts to tell her how you feel," Finn continued and started going back inside when Rory stopped him holding his arm so he wouldn't leave, but he didn't look at her, he still had his back turned.

"It's not what you think, Finn. Logan and I just decided to take some time apart from the whole boyfriend girlfriend thing and try to be friends again," she said still holding his arm. She didn't see, but Finn closed his eyes and gave a little sigh before turning to face the couple.

"You didn't have to explain, Rory, it's ok" Finn said.

"I wasn't explaining..."

"Yes, you were," Logan replied confused.

"I just didn't want him to think that we were back together," she said and then thought 'wait, that came out wrong.'

"Why?" Logan asked.

"Cause we're not," she answered a little harsh.

"Ok, look, it's fine. I'm glad you guys are starting to work your little thing out. I was getting kind of tired of the whole crying on my shoulder stuff. I don't know if you noticed but I'm not very good at it. I do wish you work out whatever there is to work out and live happily ever after. I just hope I get a special position at the wedding, best man would work, and my own room for whenever I visit your house in the suburbs. After all, I think I've earned it."

Rory shook her head chuckling and pushed him inside, Logan following the two of them with still a somewhat confused face.

Things weren't exactly normal with the three of them but they still managed to talk without letting it get too weird.

"So what did you guys do today?" Logan asked. But before they could answer he picked up the DVD box of Dirty Dancing and continued, "besides watching Dirty Dancing?"

"She picked it!" Finn said in his defense.

"And you loved it!" Rory teased him.

"Like I said, I will never admit to that," he said looking at the ceiling.

"I gave Finn the complete tour of Stars Hollow," Rory answered Logan's first question.

"The complete tour! That must have taken you what, two hours?" He joked.

"Almost," she replied, "then we had lunch at Luke's, picked up some movies and came home to wait for my mom to get back."

"Sounds like it was a fun day."

"It was," the both of them said together and then smiled at each other. Logan looked a little disturbed by this exchange of flattery and decided to say something before they stared at each other too long and realized what was starting to become clear in his mind.

"So is Lorelai back yet?"

"Oh, yes, she's finishing taking a shower."

As if they had rehearsed it Lorelai started coming down the stairs when Rory finished her sentence.

"Well kids, what are you in the mood... Whoa! I've gotta learn how to take quicker showers!" She said as she spotted Logan sitting on the couch. "Rory, kitchen." She said signing with her head.

Rory followed her mother to the kitchen knowing that she had some explanation to do.

"Do I even have to ask?"

"He came to apologize."

"Apologize?"

"And try to get back with me."

"Get back together? Did you say yes?"

"No."

"Rory you better start spilling, the longer you prolong this, the worst. You know I want to hear the whole story."

Rory then proceeded telling her mother the contents of her conversation with Logan and their decision, well more her decision, of just staying friends for the moment. Lorelai listened to her daughter's story attentively nodding her head and cheering Rory when she said that she fought the urge to kiss Logan.

"Ok, but isn't this weird for you?" Lorelai asked when Rory was done.

"A little, I'm not going to lie. But I think that with time we'll get more comfortable around each other."

"How long do you think this time out is going to last?"

"I don't know, mom. All I know is that before we can restart our relationship we both have to be sure of our feelings."

"So you're not sure?"

"What?" Rory didn't even think when she said 'we both'.

"You said both had to be sure. We all know he's not sure, but I didn't know you weren't sure either."

"I never said I wasn't sure."

"I see. Is that why you let go of Logan's hand when you saw Finn walk into the porch?"

"This has nothing to do with Finn."

"Really?" her mother asked incredulous.

"Really. Finn's just a friend," Rory answered trying to sound convincing.

"You keep telling yourself that, maybe it'll become true."

"Mom!"

Lorelai ordered some pizzas and Logan stayed only for dinner.

"Are you coming with me?" he asked Finn.

"No," Finn answered awkwardly, "I'm going with Rory early tomorrow."

"Well, I didn't know 'early' was part of your vocabulary. But I guess things are changing."

Finn and Rory chose not to understand what Logan meant by his last remark, but Lorelai did and she felt a little sorry for him. He hurt her daughter but he wasn't a bad guy, she knew he cared a lot about her. But she wasn't going to meddle in her daughter's life anymore, nothing good ever came out of it, plus Rory was a big girl, she could make her own choices. Lorelai just hoped that she was making the right ones.

Not long after Logan was gone they all went to bed, since Rory and Finn had to be on the road early. They woke up at 7, much for Finn's desperation and were driving back to Yale at 8:30.

The first fifteen minutes of the trip were spent in complete silence, Rory figured Finn would be too tired to talk. When she decided to turn on the radio since the silence was starting to bug her he stopped her not allowing her to touch the radio.

"Why did you do that?" he said without taking his eyes off the road.

"Why did I do what, when?"

"Last night, you were holding Logan's hand..." he was going to continue but Rory interrupted him thinking that she knew where he was going.

"I wanted him know that I meant what I had said about being friends, that's why I was holding his hand. I'm not going to make the same mistakes, Finn."

He looked at her when he said, "let me finish. You were holding Logan's hand but when I came in you let go. Why?"

"Why I let go?" Rory asked trying to buy some time to think about it.

"Yes."

She was silent. She didn't know. She didn't think about it, she just let go, it was like instinct. But now that he asked, her mom had also mentioned it the night before, she started to wonder why herself. She looked at him trying to see if the answer would come to her. He didn't take his eyes off the road but he knew she was looking at him, he knew she was thinking about it, and he knew that she didn't know the answer.

"I don't know," she finally said.

"All this time thinking and only that comes out. Disappointing."

"What did you want to hear?" she asked looking forward.

"Nothing specific."

"Then 'I don't know' should be enough."

"Ok, if it's all I'm going to get, I'm satisfied... You didn't have to, you know?"

"Didn't have to what, Finn? Please complete your sentences, I know it's early but if you want to talk you should start making a little more sense."

"What are we talking about, Rory? You didn't have to let go of Logan's hand! God, I thought I was the slow one in the morning!"

Rory gave a loud exasperated sigh. "I liked it better when we were silent."

Finn looked at her, he didn't mean to upset her he was just trying to understand things. When Rory and Logan were together she was never embarrassed to hold hands in front of him. They were actually so cuddly that sometimes it irritated him. He didn't want to see too much into the new situation but he couldn't deny the fact that their behavior towards each other had changed. She wasn't flirting with him or anything like that, but they had become closer since Friday. She had asked him to go to Friday Night Dinner with her, she had asked him to stay in Stars Hollow with her, she had blushed when he looked at her when she was taking off his jacket. He smiled when he thought about this, actually every time he thought about this moment he smiled. Rory noticed it.

"What are you smiling about?" she asked grumpily.

"I was just remembering something."

"Care to share?"

"Sure you want to know?"

"Yeah, why? Should I not want to know?"

"Your choice."

"You're tiring! What is it, Finn?"

"You blushed."

"Oh, my... remember what I said about making sense? When did I blush?"

"When I opened my eyes when you were undressing me. By the way, you really are naughty Gilmore. You take off my clothes, you reach inside my pants. You don't have to go through all this trouble. Just say the word and I'm yours!"

"Shut up!" She said laughing.

They were in silence for a while but Finn soon broke it.

"I don't want to sound repetitive, but why did you? Sorry, why did you blush?"

"The situation wasn't really a normal one."

"What do you mean?"

"Well you said it yourself. I was undressing you and I thought you were asleep but then you opened your eyes and our faces were..."

She didn't finish. He looked at her, she was looking out the window.

"Are you going to finish that?"

"I don't have to, you were there."

"Yes I was, but I didn't blush!"

"No you didn't, you smiled. Why did you?" she asked in revenge.

"I thought you looked cute blushing so I smiled. See, just a simple explanation will do, my dear. There's no need to get upset."

"I'm not upset."

"Then I sure don't want to be there when you are."

"Can we please go back to the silence?"

"Not until you answer my question."

"Which one?" she asked in a sigh.

"Why did you let go of Logan's hand?" She was silent and looking straight forward. "Were you embarrassed?"

"Why would I be embarrassed?"

"I don't know! I'm asking!"

"I wasn't embarrassed."

"Guilty?"

"Guilty? Of holding a guy's hand? No!"

"Scared?"

"Scared of what?"

"Of what I might think."

Rory looked out the window. Yes, she was scared. She was scared of what Finn could think if he saw them holding hands. That's why she was so quick to explain the situation when in reality she really didn't have to. She was afraid Finn would think that she and Logan had gotten back together. This realization made her tense in her seat. She was going to have some serious thinking to do when she got back to Yale. 'How am I ever going to be able to concentrate on my work now?' she thought.

Finn knew she wasn't going to answer but he was satisfied with her silence. It meant that he was right. She was scared. His pleased countenance soon turned worried when he realized he was happy that Rory felt the need to clarify her situation with Logan lest he would think otherwise. He was happy that she wanted him to know that she wasn't back with Logan. And all this made him come to a dreadful conclusion: he was falling for her. He was falling for his best friend's girl. He also tensed in his seat and they both remained silent the rest of the way, each consumed in their own thoughts and realizations.