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Second of all, I owe you a BIG, GIANT, HUMONGO apology. I have a reason why I'm not updating, though, you may think it's just a dumb excuse. It's third semister, and the teachers loaded me down with too much homework and projects and blag blah blah... I need to work my way to the top. There's A LOT of competition in my classes. I take back what I said before, I WON'T be able to finish before June. Sorry guys, I have to get good grades. I'm also under a lot of pressure and in thought of depression...
Please, if you all have ANY ideas, or anything to contribute to moi, please do so. Or it will take very long to update...
Ah yes, and to BlackGothFaerie, I'd love to read your fic and help out a bit, but there's nothing on your page...
A Look in her Thoughts
The streets of midnight were plain black. How could we see through in this darkness? Simple. Bring a flashlight.
Well, as long as you bring that source of light, you can't get lost.
Or can you?
For one thing, relying on that contraption will turn you dependable. Heck, why do we use a stupid flashlight anyways? We have instinct. We have senses. We don't need that piece of garbage hanging about our pockets.
But humanity fell too low to relieze that.
We're scared. Afraid, terrified.
And that's how I feel.
Beautiful, just beautiful, Beast boy thought. He was alone in the tower, so why not snoop around and look inside Raven's room? She'll never know anyways.
He found a poetry book, where, by the looks of it, Raven writes poems. And all of them were simply beautiful. Just like her!
Beast Boy sighed at the thought. Then he flipped a page and read on.
Angels were destined to die first.
Angels were destined to fall.
Angels are destined to be torn apart.
But what about demons?
It's always the angels that are the heroes. Demons? No way, they're evil. Ha! My ass! Not all demons are evil. In fact, there's a bit of demon in everyone.
Even angels. And yet, it's still that they're perfect, and we're always evil.
Angels should go rot in Hell.
Raven feels like she isn't appreciated, Beast boy noted. He flipped another page.
I'm under so much pressure.
The last thing I need is deiscouragement.
And they leave you outside, in the cold, gruesome dark.
We were supposed to be a team.
But why am I singled out?
I look like a loner, I feel like a loser.
My mind has not made up.
My heart holds so much doubt.
I'm the devil's child,
And it's killing me painfully.
Is this why I'm singled out?
I hate almost everyone.
Everyone loathes me back.
Talking behind my back,
Laughing, pointing, glaring,
All at me.
Tell me, why am I singled out?
There's no one to trust.
Nobody cares anyways.
Won't let me fly.
Won't set me to freedom.
Because I'm bound to my destiny.
I'm always singled out.
This particular poem saddened Beast Boy. He never knew Raven felt this way, singled out. He should have been more open mined. Some lover he was.
Then he flipped another page. It turned out to be a diary entry than a poem.
Dear Diary,
I wouldn't call you diary, but hell, who the fuck cares!
A stupid wannabee Titan joined our team. And everyone liked her more than me. But may I ask, why?
I'll tell you why. Because she's prettier. Nothing more, nothing less.
Say, I was with the Titans for about a year now, and I saved lives and helped others for the goodof humanity, and she comes in for half a day and everyone loves her. Fuck that byatch to the deepest pits of Hell.
And then there's Beast Boy... I've been having feelings for that guy for weeks now. But now, he likes her. Love, is that what it's called? What is this love anyways? Love is only meant to hurt you in the end. People say love is a beautiful emotion, but love is even worse than hatred. Besides, any body I "love" will always hurt me. Bound to do so. Even Beast Boy, whom I thought was different... so why did I think that? He'll neglect me, just like all the others. If he likes her so much, then they both should go reproduce babies which just turned out wrong. Perhaps then I'll rest in peace. Feh, as if!
And me...? Well, no one cares.
Her name is Terra.
I have a funny feeling that she isn't trustworthy. And my instincts are accurately right. Besides, what made her come back? She stats for a night, runs away, comes back and acts like a slutty whore. That's not right.
The rest of the entry was ripped, and soaked in dried blood. He assumed that she did it on purpose. But that didn't stop himself from thinking. He admits Terra was pretty. But as Raven said to him multiple times before: Looks are decieving! He should have listened.
Raven even told Robin what she felt about Terra, and she told every Titan. She told Beast Boy, but he didn't listen. And he was betrayed. And he acted like a bastard to his loved one.
"Terra was never our friend. She was a liar and a spy, trained by Slade and sent to destroy us. She's evil. Always has been, always will be."
"You don't know what you're talking about, okay, Raven? She's made some serious mistakes, but she's not..."
If I'd listened to her, I wouldn't be so obsessed, he kept thinking. After all, it was his choice to betray Raven. Just as Terra chose to betray him.
He flipped another page.
He read only half of it, and slammed the book shut. He couldn't take it. Beast boy knew that if this burden kept growing, Raven would never like him again.
He turned around, and saw someone blocking his way out of Raven's room. Beast Boy's eyes widened with both fear and surprise.
"What the hell are you doing in my room, Beast Boy...?"
Sorry it's such a short chapter! It wasn't worth the wait! I haven't updated in like, what, a month or so? BLAH!
Also, the poems were written by ME! They were copyrighted, so no stealing it and plagerising it! ASK 4 PERMISSION!
I hope accept my apology...