Take me and let me in
Don't break me and shut me out
So take me and let me in
Don't break me and shut me out
I lit my pain on fire
And I watched it all burn down
Now I'm dancing in the ashes
And theres no one else around
Cause I wanna be apart of nothing
This is just a story of a broken soul
As days go by, my heart grows cold
I can't seem to let this all pass me by
So take me and let me in
Don't break me and shut me out
I'm burning in the heavens
And I'm drowning in the hell
My soul is in a coma
And none of my friends can tell
That I'm reaching out and getting nothing
This is just a story of a broken soul
As days go by, my heart grows cold
I can't seem to let this all pass me by
So take me and let me in
Don't break me and shut me out
Don't shut me out…
Does anyone around me feel the same
Put your fist up and vent your pain
Does anyone around me feel the same
Put your fist up and vent your pain
Does anyone around me feel the same
Put your fist up and vent your pain
Does anyone around me feel the same
Put your fist up and vent your pain
As days go by, my heart grows cold
I can't seem to let this all pass me by
So take me and let me in
Don't break me and shut me out
Take Me
Don't Break Me
Papa Roach- "Take Me"
Hysterical laughter erupted from Julian's throat as he read the newspaper article in which he'd been pronounced dead. A few passer bys dared a glance in his direction. His father brought the article to him early this morning. He was home free now. There was no way someone would come after him now; they'd be chasing a dead man. He ran his hands through his hair, making sure it would remain slicked back for his meeting. Only a few days out and he was already into the swing of things. His first evening out he made his first deal and it had only continued uphill from there. This wasn't hard. He guessed this really was in his blood.
Julian stood, throwing the newspaper into a nearby trashcan and continued down the street. He'd never felt better in all of his life. All that suffering was just a waste. He should have never turned himself in. If he hadn't things would be perfect, he'd have Dorian. But he couldn't dwell on his dead and gone son, his life was about as near perfect as it could get. As Julian rounded a corner he spotted who he was meeting. Her hair was as black as his, surrounding her oval face and brown eyes. It fell down her shoulders in waves, only adding to her exotic appearance. He spoke.
"Anna…"
She smiled at him and stepped into his embrace. He'd already seen her once and it had been incredible to say the least. After all he'd been in jail for seven years with nothing but men around him. And he's rather die of sexual frustration than be someone's bitch. After whispering some dirty nothings into Julian's ear she dropped some acid right before pulling him into a deep kiss. It was like double the pleasure as her tongue caressed his and coated it with the dissolving LSD. It tingled down is throat in a familiar wave. This was the life.
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Cammy pulled her keys from her purse and unlocked the door to her flat as they jangled. She could hear Nikita meowing on the other side. She was probably hungry as hell Cammy thought as she felt guilt take over. If she couldn't even take care of a cat, what hope was there for her in other things? Cranky followed her into the flat, laying his duffle bag down by the door. They had got out of the hotel room in record time, mostly attributed to the fact that Cranky didn't have too many possessions. She couldn't believe she was doing this. This man had not taken advantage of her while drunk, taken care of her while she was sick, insulted her, given her the best sex of her life, and then insulted her again. She didn't owe him anything, yet she had the desire to help him. She could have easily been in the same position has him if it hadn't been for Guile and Jane. Not exactly, but damn close. Cranky's voice broke her thoughts.
"Are you going to feed that damn cat?"
"Yeah give me a second."
"Its meowing is driving me insane."
Cammy bent over and picked Nikita up. She instantly stopped meowing.
"Better?"
"Much."
Cammy fed the cat and then returned to her living room to find Cranky on the couch with his head in his hands. She sat next to him and put a hand on his thigh. He spoke, sounding lost.
"I don't know what I am going to do."
"Why didn't you leave town?"
Cranky sat there for a moment then finally answered.
"I saw you earlier yesterday and wanted to find you."
"You stalked me?"
"No, I—well, no. I just was hoping to find you and I did."
Cammy's eyes grew wide with realization. He was the homeless man who she'd given food to.
"You're the man from the street corner, who needed money for food. You conned me?!"
"No, if you recall you gave me food, not money. You didn't fall for my ploy."
"Do I get a cookie?"
Cranky answered her with a wicked smile on his face.
"I'll give you something else."
Cammy couldn't hold her smile. Cranky grabbed her by the shoulders and pulled her into a kiss. He was so gentle, taking his time, not like before. He pulled away from her and spoke again.
"Okay, one, why are you helping me, and two, how in the world do you expect to help me?"
"I told you last night, I'm pretty much a secret agent, I've got connections."
"I thought you were bullshitting me."
"I was too drunk not to be honest."
"So what you're like 007 or something?"
"I work for MI-6, a special branch."
He nodded.
"Damn, that's hardcore. I guess it's also how you kicked my ass. But wait, last night you said you were fired."
"It's a temporary leave, kind of like a forced vacation. But with your help I think I might be able to convince my superiors to let me back on."
"So you're talking about spilling everything I know about these guys?"
"Yeah, unless you want to run forever."
Cranky thought for a moment. He had a real kind of life being served to him on a platter by one of the most beautiful women he'd ever seen. Ten years of his life he'd been a petty criminal, homeless, living day by day. Now all in the time span of twenty four hours he had the chance for a real life.
"This means I'll have to get a job."
Cammy laughed.
"Yeah, what are you qualified for?"
Cranky drew close to Cammy, resting his head against her neck. His breath was warm on her neck sending gooseflesh down her body.
"I think what else I can do is illegal too."
Cammy pushed her head down to meet his lips when the phone rang. She heard Cranky curse under his breath as she rose to answer it.
"Hello?"
"Cammy, where have you been?"
Wagner's voice was strained and he was speaking franticly.
"I was out, Wagner what's wrong?"
"I don't know how to say this really, so I'm going to just say it."
Cammy's heart tightened in her chest. Everything that could go wrong in her life flashed before her eyes. Guile, Jane or Melissa could be hurt. Something could be happening with Shadowlaw, or a combination of the two. Fear gripped her as her voice shook.
"What is it?"
"Ken called me a little bit ago, and it's in the paper."
"Dammit Wagner, what is it."
"Cammy, Julian's dead. He was killed while trying to break out of the prison. I'm sorry."
Cammy couldn't speak. She faintly heard Wagner consoling her, saying soothing words, but it fell on deaf ears as she collapsed. Her heart was more on the floor than she was. Julian had saved her life countless times. Now he was dead; with his son. She finally spoke, very quiet, babbling almost.
"What about a Mass? He needs a Mass said. Julian would want a Mass."
"Ken already had it arranged."
"Good. That's really good. I call you back Wagner."
She hung up the phone before he could protest. Cranky came into the kitchen.
"I heard something bang…Cammy!"
She looked up at him and it was as if a flood gate opened as tears burst from her eyes. The phone started ringing again but she ignored it. Cranky was quickly on the floor with her, hugging her tight against his chest. She broke out into a full shaking sob. Cranky stayed on the floor with her, rubbing her hair while she cried. He didn't know what was wrong but he had to do something. She had cared about him and his problems. It was an even trade, right?
"It's okay Cammy. It's going to be okay."