Chapter 5:Questions and Thoughts

Setsuna awoke in the evening later that day. She sat upright and found herself in a large bed covered with crimson red, silk sheets. Laid out neatly on a chair by the desk she saw her armor. The room was large and spacious, compared to her own room. More fancier too, she noted. Where the hell am I? She wondered.

Her body shivered and realized she was wearing nothing. Her eyes widened in shook. Oh my God! She thought and quickly pulled the blankets over her. Did what I think happen actually happen? Setsuna wondered. She tied the silk bed sheet around her body and walked over to the chair. She dressed herself quickly and left the room to go back to hers. As soon as she shut the door, she walked to the other side of the hallway where her room was.

She looked at herself in the mirror. She noticed how messy her hair was so she took it out of the mess of a braid. She combed it out and braided it again. Thoughts flew through her mind. Did she and Dilandau have sex? Was it real? Or what it a dream. No…It had to be real…Why else would I have been in his room?

She shook her head and rubbed her temples. What would happen now, she wondered. Things are gonna be weird now…. She knew she wouldn't be able to look at him in the same way anymore. He had kissed her and stole her innocence. She fell to her knees. The mixed emotions running through her mind were becoming overwhelming.

Finally she rose to her feet and looked at herself in the mirror. I'll go to dinner and figure out hwta to do later. She tucked a few loose hairs behind her ears and left her room, heading for the mess hall.

Setsuna entered the mess hall. She spotted Miguel quickly and made her way over towards him. She took her usual seat beside him. After she sat down she noticed everyone was giving her strange looks like they knew something. An uneasy feeling grew within her. She tried to shrug it off but after only minutes of trying she asked in a whisper to Gatti, who sat next to her, "Why is everyone looking at me like that?"

"Well, you see um, word has gone around about you and Lord Dilandau . . ." He didn't finish.

"What about us?" she asked in a venomous tone.

"Uh, well, we um heard about you and Lord Dilandau spending time together." He swallowed hard. "In his room." He finished.

Setsuna was left speechless. They know, oh my God, they KNOW! But how? She wondered. "How did you find out?" Setsuna seemed more worried than angry.

"Well we were all wondering where you two went off to so we asked one of the maids and she told us she saw you two go into his room together. Also, Violle over heard Lord Dilandau talking to Lord Folken about it." Setsuna was left without words. She pushed her plate away from her and left the mess hall quickly.

She had never felt so degraded in her life. What would they think of her now? Would they think of her as some slut that they could all lay? Setsuna ran back to her room where she locked the door and laid down on her bed and just let it all out. "It figures," She sobbed into the pillow. Just as I was starting to like it here that happens, she thought to herself.

A knock sounded from the door but she ignored it. Whoever it was on the other side tried to open it but had no success because it was locked. A few moments later the door slid open. Setsuna glanced at the doorway and saw him, Dilandau, the man she gave herself to out of pure lust.

As he looked at her, something inside of him made him feel sorry for her. GAH! Why do I have this feeling! I hate women, especially when they get all emotional! He yelled at himself inwardly, but his heart was controlling his mind now. Dilandau walked over to her and sat on the edge of the bed.

"Go away Dilandau . . ." She managed to say.

"Why?" He scoffed.

"Because, I want to be alone."

"Well too bad. I'm not leaving." What the hell am I saying? I'm not leaving! What the fuck is going on with me! He wondered angrily.

"You told people!" Setsuna yelled as she sat up to face him.

"I told people what?" She let out a sarcastic chuckle.

"Don't play dumb with me. Everyone knows about that happened! Everyone…" She bit her lip and tried to hold back her tears and sobs. "You fucking told everyone!" She went to hit him but her hand caught her arm. "Let go!" She cried as tears streamed down her cheeks.

Dilandau didn't know what it was, guilt perhaps, but he had a horrible feeling in the pit pf his stomach. He never intended for things to get like this. He loosened his grip on her arm. Setsuna proceeded to hit his chest weakly out of anger and frustration. "You bastard!" She sobbed.

He sighed heavily. Her punching wasn't doing much. It didn't even feel like she was trying to hurt him. He pulled her into an embrace, which she tried to escape from. "I'm sorry…" He apologized quietly. She rested her head on his chest, still crying. Dilandau rested his chin on her head. They just sat there holding each other.

Later that night Dilandau went to see his good "friend". "Folken!" Dilandau yelled as he entered the laboratory. A figure sitting at a desk with piles of paper scattered allover it put his quill down and turned to the enraged silver haired soldier.

"What is it Dilandau?" He asked calmly.

"What the fuck is wrong with me?" Dilandau demanded as he approached.

"I don't know Dilandau. You have to explain." Dilandau grew angrier.

"I . . . I . . . I have these strange feelings for her." He tried to explain, feeling a bit embarrassed. Folken smiled at him and almost laughed.

"I don't know how to tell you this Dilandau but, I think you may be in love."

"What? In love!" He shouted angered. Folken nodded and Dilandau seemed somewhat disgusted. He stormed out of the room and Folken went back to his work, acting like nothing had happened. He picked up a book that laid near the edge of his desk and began to read from it. His eyes widened in shock. Hmmm…how interesting... I wonder if she really is the woman of prophecy, Folken pondered as he shut the book and continued with his work.

A/N: Woo……another chapter done. I made a few changes. A lot of the scene between Dill and Setsuna in her room was re-written. The original seemed a little too….I dunno…I just wasn't believing it, and I'm the one who wrote it!

Side note for shamanprincess123: I rated it PG-13 because I thought it fit that category. In Canada we had 14A which is pretty much equivalent to the American PG-13 and it allows sexual themes such as what happened in the last chapter. Most people tend to think, when they see an R rating, that the fic is going to be all about sex but this fic isn't. That scene is going to be quite important for the rest of the story, particularly in Book Two. With out that scene there would be no Book Two or possible Book Three(which I still have to start to write).