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Chapter 6: A Huge Fight"James!?" she asked flabbergasted.
James quickly got up out of bed, grabbed a few things, put on his cloak, and headed to the closet. It was 11:40 once he reached it, so he had time to prepare before She came.
"I hope she remembers…" he muttered, laying out a red blanket.
He lit the candles by magic and waited nervously. Soon enough, he heard the door opening.
He saw Lily, and she gasped.
"James?!"
"It's me!" he said happily, jumping up and kissing her.
Lily frowned in disappointment as he let go of her. James? It was James? Him? Her anonymous admirer? She thought it was someone else. Secretly, she wanted someone else. Not because she didn't like James, she just wanted a little excitement.
"I thought it was a secret admirer or something…" she began.
"I am your admirer! It's just not a secret," he reasoned.
"Okay, well, why did you want us to meet here? Why not outside or something?" she asked.
"Well…it's kind of chilly outside…"
"James, it is October… Sure, it probably is cold out there right now, but I did bring my cloak…"
"Well…it doesn't matter. You're here, and so am I. So relax…" he said softly.
Lily scanned what was set up. A red blanket covered the hard, stone floor of the small closet. A bowl of grapes had been placed to the side, along with other types of food.
She looked at James, "I love it!"
He walked her over to the blanket, and they sat down. They spent the next hour talking about their classes, etc.
When they decided to leave, Lily stood up, helped fold the blanket, and started to walk to the door.
"I was just wondering, James – " Lily started to turn around and say something, but James grabbed her arm, and gave her a kiss.
"I love you!" Lily whispered (a/n: OMG! This is soooo cliché!).
"I love you too!"
Lily put her hands on his shoulders as James placed his hands on her waist. By now, they were kissing very passionately.
He started to work down from her waist.
"James…" Lily whispered.
He didn't answer, just kept on kissing her, now on the neck.
She pushed him back lightly and whispered, voice getting stronger as she spoke, "James, no. I – I don't know what you planned on doing tonight, but whatever it was…I…no…"
She turned around, ran to the door, and left without looking back, leaving a very upset and embarrassed James.
Lily ran down the hall sniveling a bit. How many times had she told him no? Was he planning on pushing her into it? She didn't want that. She didn't want a boyfriend like that. She didn't want a boyfriend who wanted to force her into something she wasn't comfortable with.
She headed toward her dorm, but thought better of it. James would soon be going back there. No way in hell did she want to speak with him for a while. So, instead, she went to the Astronomy tower to compose herself.
When she arrived, she saw a dark shadow of a person.
"Remus?" she asked, walking toward the figure cautiously.
"Lily?" Remus asked surprised, looking behind him and seeing a teary-eyed Lily. "What are you doing here? It's late!"
"I couldn't sleep," she lied, speaking very nasally.
"Oh. Want to sit down?" he asked kindly, patting the stone next to him.
"No thanks," she sniffed. "I think I'll go."
She turned around, but felt a gentle hand on her shoulder.
"Are you crying, Lily?" Remus asked softly.
Lily turned around and looked at him, wondering why he was caring so much.
"No…" she said, quickly wiping away the remaining tears on her face.
"Don't lie. I'm one of your best friends, you can tell me anything."
Lily looked questioningly. As well as she knew Remus, she couldn't possibly tell him what was bothering her.
"I know. Not this time though. But I'm sure James will."
Remus sighed.
"What did he do?"
"I told you, I'm not telling. I better go."
"But…"
"I'll see you later."
Lily left.
James was walking down the hallways with his things from the night. He was extremely angry at Lily. Why did she have to say no? Didn't she realize that they had been going out for six years? How could she not be ready?
James was so lost in thought that he didn't even see the person he was just about to run into…(a/n: If that makes any sense…)
"Oops, sorry…" James muttered. He looked up at the person he had run into.
"Samantha?" James asked, getting up, and helping the girl up too.
Oh…great! Just who I need to run into! he thought sarcastically.
"James!!" Samantha smiled furtively. "Hi! I saw Lily running down the hall a little while ago…Do you know what happened?" she questioned.
"Well –,"
"Did you break up with her?" she asked, stepping forward.
"No!" he exclaimed, backing away.
"Oh," she pouted, stopping in her tracks.
"Yeah…we actually just had a fight…"
"Oh…really? Do you want to talk about it? Come on, let's go for a walk," she said, grabbing a hold of his hands and dragging him down the hall with her. "So…what'd you do?"
"Well…uh…I kind of made a move on her, and she got all mad…" James explained, getting a little angry thinking about it.
"Oh, well, that's too bad!" Samantha said, not sounding sympathetic at all.
Samantha moved closer to him, and James didn't think to step away.
"It's a little chilly here, don't you think?"
James looked at her and put his arm around her (a/n: …being the idiot he is.).
"Is that any better?" he asked.
"Thank you!" she said sweetly.
Samantha suddenly turned her head toward him and kissed him.
As Lily walked down the Astronomy Tower, she heard voices. One of them sounded like James'. Lily didn't recognize the other voice, but it was a girl.
When Lily reached the end of the stairs, she gasped.
James had his arm around Samantha…and was kissing her!
"James!" Lily shrieked.
Oh my God…oh my God! Lily thought quickly, feeling heartbreak rush through her body.
James pulled away from Samantha and saw Lily standing at the bottom of the stairs. Tears were coming to her eyes. The expression on her face broke James' heart and sent a shudder down his spine.
"Shit…Lily…I…" James said, pulling away and searching for words.
Lily walked over to him and slapped him hard across the cheek.
"How could you?!?!?!" she asked in tears. "How could you do this to me?"
"It's not what it looks like!" James tried to rub away the tears streaming down her face with his thumb, but she pushed his hand away roughly.
"Don't – you – touch – me!" Her voice was full of hatred. "You…I can't believe you…!"
"But, Lily…I…" James started, trying to cover-up what happened.
Lily shifted her eyes to Samantha, who was smirking next to James.
"Get away from him!!" Lily yelled. Samantha didn't make a move to leave.
Lily turned her attention back to James. Lily was furious, shaking from head to toe. Tears were streaming down her face like swelling rivers. Her skin was pale, the palest it probably had ever been. James could tell she was upset.
"I thought you loved me! That we would get married! And yet you're kissing another girl? Samantha! I just don't understand… How could you do this? I mean…first you try to get me into sleeping with you and then this!? What? I don't satisfy you? Is that it? Is that why!? She's the one that can satisfy you?" Lily yelled.
"No! Lily! It's not like that! It's never been like that – "
"Oh, really? What is it like then James? Why were you kissing her? I saw you! You looked like you were enjoying it too! You totally forgot about me!" At this point, Lily could hardly talk. "I don't think I can be with someone like that. It's like I can't please you. And in order to please you, I have to sleep with you? I don't think so… I don't think I can do that, James." Lily's eyes flared.
"What…what are you saying?" James asked slowly and quietly.
"What do you think, James? I can't trust you any more! You'll go off kissing girls every time we get into a fight! How many others have you kissed? How many other girls have you cheated on me with? I'm sorry James, but we're through. I can't…I can't be with you anymore," she finished softly.
"No…" James whispered, taking a step toward her again, reaching for her, unsure if she was serious or not.
"No! Don't touch me, James!" Lily yelled, shaking in anger.
She stepped away shaking her head in anger and disbelief.
"We're over…! Have a good life!" She sounded hysterical, almost like she was on the verge of laughing. Lily stormed away furious and sobbing.
"Lily! Wait!" she heard James yell, but she didn't care. She ran to her dorm in the Gryffindor tower and collapsed onto her bed bawling.
"Lily! Wait!" James yelled, but she ignored him.
He started to run after her, but his arm was grabbed by Samantha.
"You stay here with me, honey!"
And with that, she pulled him into another kiss that James didn't refuse.
"Follow me!" she whispered mysteriously.
James followed her obediently into the same closet, numb of emotion. He was confused and shocked and really didn't know what was going on. Did Lily really mean what she'd said? She couldn't have… Their relationship couldn't be over, could it?
Samantha took out her want and put a spell on it, so no one could come into or hear anything that was going on inside.
"Samantha, what are you doing?" James questioned in monotone.
Samantha grinned mischievously and pulled him on top of her.
James opened his eyes suddenly, with a monstrous headache.
"Where am I?" James muttered. He tried to focus on his surroundings. He was in an empty closet, with Samantha next to him, fully dressed.
Oh, my God! No, I didn't spend the night with her! he thought, appalled with himself. Shit! Lily is going to hate me, no matter what I did or didn't do! Oh, wait…we broke up last night… I guess I'm a free man… What time is it? It's a Saturday, isn't it?
James looked down at Samantha and shook her awake.
"What? Where am I? James?" she asked, blinking a few times.
"Yeah, it's me… I'm going to leave. Do you want to get breakfast with me?"
"Sure!" Samantha exclaimed.
She stood up and messed with her hair. James tried to do the same, but had no luck.
He carefully opened the door and checked to see if anyone was there.
When he was sure the way was clear, he took hold of Samantha's hand and walked with her to the Great Hall.
"Lily?" a gentle voice asked. "Lily? Wake up!"
Lily slowly opened her eyes. Tara was sitting next to her on her bed with Raluca standing next to her.
Lily turned onto her stomach and yawned. Her whole pillow was wet from her tears.
"Remus told us what happened last night…Are you and James okay? What actually happened?"
"I don't want to talk about it, guys…and no, we're not okay…" Lily answered on the verge of tears.
"Please, Lils, it'll help if you talk about it!" Raluca said.
"Yeah…I guess you're right…well…" Lily began.
Once she was finished, Lily asked, "Where is Samantha anyway?!"
"Well…Lily…she…umm…never came back last night…nor did James… Lily! I'm so sorry!" Raluca said munificently.
"Oh, guys! I messed up big time!! I lost my chance with James forever!!" Lily cried.
"And now James and Samantha are "together"! I'm never going to get him back! And you know Samantha! She's, like, evil! She has always tried to get James away from me! And now she's successfully done just that!!!"
"Lily! It's ok! There are others out that…better than James! Forget him! I do happen to know Remus has a crush on you!"
Tara nudged her.
"Really?" Lily asked hopefully, her tears stopping.
"Yep! You should give him a chance! You've always blown him off for James…I think it's his turn! Don't you?"
"Yeah…I guess…"
"Well…why don't you? Forget James!" Raluca exclaimed.
"But…I can't just forget him…I love James…only James."
"You've never given Remus a try. Come on, let's go down for breakfast."
"I don't want to," Lily said shortly, curling up in her covers.
"Lily, please. You need to eat!"
"I can't. Just leave me alone!"
After several minutes of coaxing and short disagreements, Tara and Raluca had gotten Lily to come down for breakfast. They'd even managed to make her presentable.
"Hey, Remus," Lily greeted miserably, sitting down next to him, resting her head on the table.
"Hello…how are you doing this morning? After last night…" Remus asked slowly, unsure of what her reaction was going to be.
"Awful!" she confessed, raising her head. She felt her eyes start to brim with tears.
"It will all settle down in a couple of days. Trust me." he assured.
James entered the hall with Samantha holding his hand at that moment. Everyone stared. Usually, he came in with Lily. Murmurs started passing around the hall.
James frowned a little, but Samantha was glowing with happiness and excitement. This was what she had always wanted!
As they made their way to the Gryffindor table, he noticed Lily stare hurt, with tears swelling in her eyes.
She suddenly looked down and a tear rolled down her cheek.
James, you idiot! What have you gotten into? he thought. She's crying! I wish I could go and comfort her! Wait! I did this! She hates me! She'll never want me back after what I've done! I shouldn't have gone on that walk with Samantha. No, I shouldn't have even made a move on her…and now she hates me! All my friends hate me! I am changed now all because of a stupid urge to get laid! And now I'm with Samantha? I spent the night with her! And she's one of the sluts of the school! What have I done? I've ruined my life!
"Hey, guys!" he said to the group, carefully ignoring Lily's eyes.
"Hi," Sirius said crossly. "Guys, you know what? I'm not that hungry. Want to come play chess with me, Lily? Remus? Tara? Raluca?"
James noticed that he didn't invite him. A small stab of envy rushed through him.
Everyone made a move to get up, except Lily, who had rested her head on the table again, and didn't answer Sirius' question.
Sirius, too preoccupied with ignoring James, didn't notice.
Before everyone had left, James grabbed Sirius arm.
"Let me explain!" James begged.
"What is there to explain, James? I know what you did!" He nodded toward Samantha. "I'm not an idiot! And Lily told me what you did before that…how could you? You know she didn't even kiss you until the end of our second year! What made you think she would want to sleep with you!?" Sirius questioned angrily.
"I…I don't know! We have been going out for six years though!" James explained.
"You had gone out with her for six years. You broke up! And, I'd say you moved on quite quickly. Don't wait even an hour to get with someone new? I thought you loved her! Do you even know how much you hurt her? Tara told me she came into the dorms last night bawling! And she didn't go to sleep for, like, hours. She was so upset! She basically cried herself to sleep! Wait…why am I telling you this? It's not like you even care! Sorry I mentioned it!" (a/n: Sirius is getting a little attitude! hehe).
With that, Sirius walked away, leaving James standing there, with Samantha looking curiously at him, and Lily forgotten.
James sat down and tried to resist the urges of looking at Lily. He could hear small sniffles coming from her direction.
"So…James, do you want to do anything today with me?" Lily heard Samantha ask.
"Umm…yeah, I guess. I've got nothing better to do…"
God…oh God…what have I done? I can't do this…I can't deal with this. It's all too much. Doesn't he realize what he's doing to me? How much he's hurting me? I just want to kill him… No, you don't! You love him! Don't say things like that, Lily! I know I still love him. God damn it! I hate my life! I screw it up all the time!
James and Samantha had meanwhile been talking about…things. They'd forgotten about Lily, and she just happened to come up in the conversation. This really angered Lily. How could James just ignore her? Forget her?
When it got to the point she could no longer stand even the sound of them talking, Lily jumped up and burst, letting the anger dwelling inside her for the past twelve hours out.
"Fuck it, James!" she shouted angrily.
The hall stopped at once. It was as if someone had pressed a 'pause' button on the whole school, with the exception of Lily and James.
"Stop torturing me! You're driving me insane! What about me? How can you just manage to forget me in the past twelve hours? How can you throw away everything we had in just one night?!"
Was this the same couple the Hall had witnessed making out in the Great Hall a week ago? It was as if the world had turned everything upside down and inside out. Lily and James? Mad at each other? Something was totally wrong! This couldn't be! They were supposed to love each other forever!
James was at a loss for words. What was he supposed to say to such a comment? She was going insane! Wasn't she the one that had broken up with him?
"Screw you, Lily! You fucking broke up with me! Don't say that I'm torturing you! You brought it on yourself! And yeah, fuck it! We're over!" James yelled furiously, shuddering with anger.
Lily frowned, on the verge of tears, and finally, after a few seconds of complete silence, she ran out of the hall.
Lily ran down the halls breathing heavily. Her chest was tight. She was having a panic attack. She pressed her palm into her chest, still angry, trying to calm herself down.
Lily started coughing, trying to catch her breath. When not being able to take standing anymore, she finally just burst out crying and collapsed to the floor. But to her surprise, someone was there to catch her. They put their arms around her, trying to calm her down.
"Get off of me, James!" Lily hollered, fighting against the person, trying to wiggle free. The body didn't feel like James though. It was a lot thinner and less muscular. Who was this?
Severus quietly followed the panic-stricken Lily out of the Great Hall as soon as she left. He was both alarmed and joyous at the same time. This meant Lily and James had broken up! Maybe he would get a chance with the beautiful red head? Who knew? But he could be there for her when her friends left, couldn't he? When he turned a corner, he saw Lily resting her hands on her knees breathing loudly, trying to catch her breath. When he was just about to tap her on the shoulder and say something, she crumbled to the floor in tears, but ended up of running into his arms. She became limp for a second, but started wriggling free. He cursed silently as an elbow collided into a rib.
"Get off of me, James!" she yelled angrily.
Severus gladly let go of her.
Lily turned around quickly when the person let her go. Severus Snape was standing behind her, with a kind expression on his face. What was he doing here? It wasn't James? Why didn't he come after her?
She whimpered for a second, feeling dizzy inside, and fainted.
Severus was caught off guard when she sunk to the floor for the second time in the past five minutes. As soon as she had dropped, she was in Severus' arms the next second.
Now what? He couldn't exactly go into the Hall with her and say she'd fainted. Who would believe him? Someone would claim he'd put some spell on her. And the nurse was in the Great Hall at this time too. He couldn't exactly just leave her on the floor in a dead faint. Who knew what could happen then? No, maybe he should go to the Gryffindor common room. Since Severus was a Slytherin house Prefect (a/n: yeah, 7th years who aren't Head boy/girl get to be Prefects again in my story), he knew passwords. But what if Lily's friends freaked out? They probably would. Then he remembered the secret room he'd found in his third or fourth year – The Room of Requirements. Yes. That would work! So Severus gently picked his love's limp body in his arms and started off toward his secret room.
James' cheeks burned as soon as Lily left the Hall. What the hell was his problem? Why was he being such an asshole? Such a dickhead? Why was Lily being so bitchy and petulant? Everything was way too much for him.
James grabbed a piece of toast and roughly shoved it into his mouth, ignoring Samantha's odd glimpses and the stares from the rest of the Hogwarts population. When he finally couldn't stand being in such an antagonistic environment, he decided to take a break outside.
"Where are you going?" Samantha asked amiably, as James stood.
"Somewhere. Don't come, I just want to be by myself…" James answered moodily. He walked out of the Hall for a stroll around the grounds to sort everything out.
Like it? Troublesome chapter. Although, truthfully, it's more fun to write chapters with anger and trouble than lovey-dovey. Of course, fans don't exactly like it… So sorry. But don't worry (if you ever were), things will (of course) get better. Thanks so much for reading! Next time I'll post sooner.
P.S. The reason why I didn't post this sooner was because 1)Homework load is doubling, stupid school! and 2) Have any of you realized Sims is really addicting? It got me. So far, I'm married to Andy (no, you shouldn't know him), and I adopted a little baby boy named Jacob! Aww...he's growing up so fast! *Wipes tears away* Right, anyway. I advise to you get the Sims game! It's really fun! ;)
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P.S. What's with the meat thing? Were you high or something?
Thanks to all of you guys!! Hope you like this chapter!
-Elle