Author's Note: I know…I haven't posted in forever! I've just been really busy. I also realized that I totally had to rewrite this chapter. It totally felt like a soap opera script to me when I reread it. It's fixed now…at least, I hope so. Oh, yeah, btw, I would check the last chapter (around the ending) because I changed some of that. Hope you like this!
-Elle
P.S. Cherrycoke28 and Crimson Girl…
Cherrycoke28 – I'm sorry. I didn't mean to sound like a bitch. And no, that is not how Cliff and I are. You can ask all of my friends, we really do hang out. It's not how you said. Totally not.
Crimson Girl – okay, okay. I'm posting…
Disclaimer: Nothing except the plot is mine… I need a new disclaimer. Any ideas?
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Chapter 7:Severus stepped into the comfy room with white carpet and deep forest green walls. There was one couch waiting for Lily's precious body in the middle of the room. With three steps, Severus was at the couch, placing his love's body gently down onto the plump cushions. He tenderly wiped a strand of her fiery red hair away. Quietly stepping back, he admired her face. Tear stained as it was, she was still beautiful. Her chest rose and fell in a steady pattern, but suddenly Lily took a deep breath and came to.
Lily inhaled loudly and then slowly let her breath out. She felt a hand fall onto her forehead. Huh? What was going on?
"Lily!" someone exclaimed softly. Who was that? Where was she? What was going on?
She opened her eyes and looked around. Her eyes grew wide when she saw Severus Snape bending over her, smiling.
"What the hell…" Lily muttered, jumping up. "Where am I? What…where…what's going on?" she inquired.
Severus stood and looked down at her. He stood about four inches higher than she stood. It was kind of intimidating.
"You fainted in the hallway," he replied softly, in a voice Lily couldn't say she'd heard before. Was it kind? Caring? No…Severus was evil. He couldn't be friendly.
Memories came flooding into her head like a tidal wave. She'd had a fight with James. Tears started welling in her eyes at the thought. Why was he being so cruel? Didn't he care at all?
"I…I have to go…" Lily said, backing away unsteadily. She wouldn't be able to hold her tears back much longer. This was all too much. How could her life plummet down to hell and burn? There was no way James would ever come back. No way.
"No. Wait, Lily. Do you want to talk about it? I'm here…" He offered his pale hand to her.
Lily didn't answer, just stepped back, almost tripping over a white rug on the floor.
"Careful!" Severus half-yelled, grabbing her arm to stop her from falling.
"Get off of me!" Lily shrieked, pulling her arm back. "God! Leave me alone! I don't even know you!" Lily stumbled out of the room, a single tear running down her cheek.
"Lily!" Severus shouted after her. "God damn it!" He slammed his fist into the gray stone wall beside him. Why did she always run away? Was she really that afraid of him?
Later that morning, Lily was sitting in the common room with her head in her hands. She was miserable. Her friends were talking and laughing all around her, oblivious to the emotional pain she was in. She hadn't seen James since breakfast, and she was happy about that. He was being such an ass. Lily didn't know if she'd be able to hold back her tears if she laid eyes on him, if she was even in the same room as he. However, Lily was about to find out.
James stepped into the common room after his walk. He was somewhat calmed down, but guilt was pumping through every inch of his body. Why was he being so cruel to Lily? How could he say such things to the love of his life? After all they'd been through; he was going to blow it. That couldn't happen. Lily meant too much to him.
He was planning on talking to Lily, telling her how sorry he was. He couldn't let it end this way. Hopefully, she'd forgive him, but he knew it would require a lot of begging to take him back. He was ready for that; anything to get her back.
He spotted Lily over in a corner, curled up in an overstuffed chair. Her face was resting in her hands. An empty box of Kleenex was balanced on the edge of her chair. James' heart did a dive. She looked so miserable and sad. It was all because of him.
He took a deep breath and walked over to her.
"Lily?" James asked softly and carefully. He didn't want her to get angry with him.
Lily looked up to see who it was and her heart dropped. James. Immediately, her face turned cold and rock-hard. What the fuck was he doing here? Not with Samantha?
"What the hell do you want?" she asked, sniffling and wiping a tear away.
"I…Can we please talk?" he questioned nervously.
Lily examined him carefully. The pain of the previous night spiraled up to her heart and stung it.
"I don't think I can…" she answered, staring up into his clear, blue eyes. Tears were tugging at her eyes, begging to fall down onto her rosy cheeks (a/n: isn't that a cool way of saying that?).
"Please, Lily. I'm…I'm so sorry…"
Lily stood up and left an inch between her face and his.
"Sorry? Sorry!? How the hell can you be sorry? You broke my heart, James! I – " Lily whispered.
"God damn it, Lily! Please!"
Behind him, Remus overheard what was happening. He was getting angry. James needed to leave her alone. Didn't he get that they were over? Maybe now he'd get his chance with her?
"Why don't you just leave her alone?!?!" Remus asked angrily. Did he just say that?
Lily stared at him in shock as James stepped to the side and made a half circle, so he could face both Lily and Remus.
"What the – "
"You broke her heart, and you're never going to fix it with her!! You've completely ruined your chance! You messed up! Face the fact that you have lost and I will now get the chance to have her! I've waited for six damn long years to have my chance! And I'm not going to wait any longer! I get to have her now!" Remus fumed.
Everybody was now staring at Lily, James, and Remus. Lily looked like she was about to burst into tears with one more word.
James, on the other hand, looked like he was about to attack Remus any second. What the fuck was Remus' problem? This had nothing to do with him!
Tara, Raluca, and Sirius were now standing, watching the argument with wide eyes. What was Remus doing?
"Fine!" James yelled back. "That's the way you want it then? Have her!! I have Samantha! I don't give a fuck about Lily! I'm glad I didn't have to stay with some fucking bitch like Lily anyway!" James hollered, angrier than any one.
Lily felt her throat begin to tighten and, when she couldn't hold herself back, she burst out into tears and crumbled into the chair.
Tara, unable to resist the urge, strode over to James and slapped him with all her might.
"You fucking bastard," Tara hissed. "Get out now."
Lily was still crying uncontrollably. How could James be so cruel? How could he say such things? He didn't want her? He thought she was a bitch? Nothing could get worse.
Just then, the common room portrait opened and entered Samantha. Samantha looked around the room, examining the scene, to see if she could do anymore damage. She grinned maliciously.
"Hi, baby!" she said sweetly to James, placing her hand on his shoulder.
James shrugged it off and glanced at Lily.
"Lily, no. I'm sorry…"
She was staring at him in pure hatred. Her face was stained with tears.
"Get…out," Lily whispered, standing up and pointing at the door. The tone of her voice was deathly.
No one made a move to leave.
"Get the fuck out, James!" Lily screamed. "I don't even want to see you! I hate you, James! I hate you! How can you do this to me…to us? Just fuck it all!" Tears streamed down her face.
James was heartbroken at her words. She hated him? Was she serious? Or just upset about the current events?
"Come on, James, let's go – " Samantha stared.
"No, James, come with me!" Sirius interrupted.
Samantha huffed and walked out of the common room as Sirius took James' arm and dragged him out into the hallway.
Raluca and Tara were now comforting Lily with every way possible. Remus was just standing to the side in total confusion. The younger students had gone back to their conversations.
"Lily! Calm down!" Tara exclaimed, trying to comfort Lily, but she wouldn't stop crying.
"Yeah, Lily. Please. It'll be ok!" Raluca agreed.
"No, it won't! God! I hate James! I hate him!" she cried.
"Shush, Lily! You don't hate him! You're just upset!"
"No! I seriously hate him! How could he do this to me? To our relationship? To himself!! He's so stupid! And I hate him for that! I hate him because he broke my heart! I hate everything about him!"
"Lily! Don't say that! You're just upset and hurt by this, but you still love him!" Tara replied.
"Shut up. Just leave me alone." Lily rushed up the stairs. A moment later, they heard a door slam.
"This is so sad! Lily and James were supposed to be together forever! They're in love! This is just so depressing for all couples! I mean, if James would do that to Lily, then what am I supposed to think Sirius would do?!" Tara asked, sitting down in the chair Lily had been in.
"I know…it is sad. But, maybe, they just aren't meant to be…this fight may have been the light Lily needed to see…" Remus spoke up, crossing his arms and leaning against one of the red walls.
"Remus! I can't believe you just said that!" Raluca commented. "They are supposed to be together forever! When two people love as much as Lily and James love each other, it's fate. It's got to be."
"She's dated James ever since she got here! She hasn't seen other guys to know that James is "the One". How can you say that it's fate when she hasn't even gone to any other guys? She's always been with James! You know, I was going to ask Lily out the day James did. I told James, even though I knew he liked her too, that I was going to ask her. He beat me to her! God, I was so pissed! I could've killed James, but I didn't (a/n: obviously…). Lily seemed so happy. And, ever since, I've been secretly waiting for James and Lily to break up."
"Remus – "
"And then, remember when they had that huge fight in fifth year? I thought I was finally going to get my chance. But no! James and Lily made up. I'm just so sick of it! Why won't they break up?"
"Remus, listen. James and Lily love each other – " Raluca started.
"I love her too!"
"If you love her, then you'll want the best for her, which is James. Although, at this time, he's being a…never mind. Just…Remus, if you really truly love her, then you'll want the best for her. You have to understand."
"I do. But…it's just so hard to see her with James…"
"It probably is! But, come on Remus. Think about all the other girls at Hogwarts! You've also been hung up and haven't looked around. You don't know if you truly love Lily because you haven't looked around. Now, I'm going to go try to talk to her. Want to come, Ral?"
Raluca nodded. She and Tara walked up the stairs, leaving Remus to think about all they'd said.
Remus decided he was going to get over Lily and enjoy life. No more jealousy. No more wishing for her. Remus smiled to himself, and went up to his dorms.
Sirius and James walked out of the common room.
"What the fuck was that?" Sirius asked.
"I…don't know…I just…got so pissed off. You know me! When I get pissed off, I say things I don't mean!" James explained. "You should still let me explain about what happened."
Sirius motioned for him to go on.
James explained what he did in the closet with Lily, how he didn't want to kiss Samantha, how he didn't sleep with Samantha, and that he was the one that stopped how far they went, which wasn't very far.
"Damn. Sorry I was so mean to you earlier…I didn't know…" Sirius apologized.
"It's ok…I just wish Lily would understand that I didn't sleep with Samantha. That's what hurt her most…" James said dejectedly.
"I know…Talk to her."
"Yeah… I shouldn't wait any longer. I have to talk to her…Tonight; I'll take her aside," James decided, "and talk to her. I have to give her cloak back anyway…" James decided.
"Okay, sounds good."
James nodded, turned to the Fat Lady, and said the password. Sirius followed behind him.
Little did they know, someone had been eavesdropping on the whole conversation.
Sigh, this chapter took me forever. I don't like it at all. It's too…I dunno. I just don't like it. I think there's too much dialogue and not enough feeling in it. But, I may be wrong. The part after the fight I think is stupid, but before that is alright. I just wrote that part – before they talk to Remus. But, anyway. I'll try and post sooner next time! I promise. Oh, and I need to talk to one of my friends and get her opinion on something. Depending on what they think, I may completely change how I wrote it originally. But maybe not. So, I guess the next posting time depends on when I talk to my friend.
Thanks to all of my reviewers! Hope you like this!
-Elle