Vega- ok ppl...it's two in the morning....no more talking for now....enjoy chapter 5!
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Vega- heh...
'.........' = thought
"........." = speech
(.........) = authoress trying to lighten the mood.........but failing.
To be Alive
Chapter 5:
I Do Not Fear The Dark
Erin limped into her room. Perhaps she had been wrong about no body being home. Turns out her dad was and so she was again punished...because her mom forgot to cook him a lunch for work.
'This is really getting old...' she thought as she closed and locked her door. She had a series of locks on her door. All different kinds...that lock from the inside. Sweet isolation... Sighing Erin leaned up against the door slowly she slid down until she hit the floor. She sat there a few minutes looking over her injuries. He had tried something creative this time. No sooner had she closed the front door then it began. It started out normally yelling slapping then kicking. After a few minutes he took her hand and placed it on the stove top...on a hot skillet. She ended up getting a good second degree burn from it. Then it was back to stage one and it was over. He grabbed his keys and left.
"I wish he'd just leave me alone..." Erin whispered.
'You deserved it ya know...'
'What...no I didn't. I didn't do anything!'
'Yes you did...'
'Oh really...what?'
'You know what...that's why they beat you. To make sure you remember...'
'I was born...that's all I did. That's all I had to do.'
'Ha ha ha...that's right. You are a mistake...a problem. You were never meant to be.'
'I know... I know the story. How mom got drunk that one night while dad was out of town. How she met that man...my father. How dad was so pissed when he found out the truth after I was born. That's why the ignored me as a child. They were pretending I never was born... that the problem wasn't there. And I was fine with it...because she was there...'
"Emily..." She whispered. The voice continued.
'But your bliss was short lived...'
'It was...she died.'
'Heh and how did she die?'
'I-I killed her...because I was weak...' The voice laughed.
'That's right it was your fault! Hahaha! And that was it...for your family... that was the last straw. They made it their mission to make you miserable.' The voice laughed again. Erin's face changed from sadness to anger.
"That's right...they did and still do." She stood up "But no matter what I still remained...alive alone."
'Awww poor baby...do you need to cry on my shoulder.' The voice sneered. Erin walked across the room and to her desk. She pulled out a notebook and a pencil and began to write.
"No I don't need pity or help or love. I'm not worth any of it. But I won't cry. Crying won't help."
A darkness
Blacker than any can describe.
Emptier than a devil's soul.
That is all I see.
'Nothing ever helps...nothing... and no one.'
"Erin! laugh Don't eat with your hands...use your fork! Like this see"
"Emi! Look what I found at the beach today."
"It's a shell.."
"Yeah and if you put it by your ear you can hear the ocean!"
"Well so you can. #laugh# "
From sun rise to sunset
I cannot tell the difference.
All the sounds I hear
Tell me what I should see.
"I don't care what you say...war is not the answer! There are other ways of solving this. Nothing good will come from starting a war!"
"Sissy...? Emi why are you crying..."
"Erin? Oh it's nothing..."
"Are you sure..."
"Yep!"
"............".
"Hey Erin."
"hm?"
"Promise me something."
"Ok"
"No matter what the situation...always follow your beliefs. Don't listen to anyone ya hear. No one. Just follow your heart...trust it. Promise me..."
"O-Ok...okay Emi I promise!"
"Emi! Wake up sissy! Please! Don't leave me! Please wake up. WAKE UP!!!"
You can feel sorry
You can shower me with pity
I don't need either.
I do not fear the dark
"Erin! Don't do it!"
"Just walk away Ray..."
"Why...why are you doing this..."
"Come on Erin! No matter what your parents say you can't really believe it was your fault!""I was there, Ray. I could of helped. I could of saved her!"
"You were a child. Only 6! Emily made her decision on her own Erin! She knew the consequences. She followed her heart!!!"
".........."
The dark which has been my friend all my life
The dark which shields me from the light.
Yes not even light can pierce it
No matter how many times I rub or blink.
"Erin...what are you saying?"
"It's over Ray! I don't want to see you or talk to you ever again."
"Why? Erin what did I do? Tell me please? What's wrong?"
"You wouldn't understand...good bye Ray...you're not my friend anymore..."
"Erin. Erin! Wait! ERIN!"
I do not fear the dark.
This colorless nothing
Is that
Nothing.
'Nothing helps. Everything hurts. I will forever be cursed'
I do not fear the dark.
A/N: End...till next time ppls!!!!