Mesmerized

By Cherry Blossom01

Chapter 5: No matter what…

A/N: Hey peoples! I have lots of ideas for this story. I even have idea about the very ending! I have lots of ideas for Mystified also! My two stories are kind of the same you know with the whole love thing but they're going to be totally different too. In Mystified Sakura just likes Syaoran with a crush. She's young and naïve so she knows nothing about love (look at me writing like I know what I'm talking about). But Tomoyo and Eriol…wait what am I saying? Shouldn't I save this till my two lovebirds in this story start to develop? DUH! Never mind we'll finish this discussion l8er :D

In this chapter things tend to get a little…steamy in Tomoyo's apartment. LOL :p I think this chapter may scare you readers a little. Especially the ones that know me personally. LOL. (just don't bother me at school about what I was thinking when I wrote this because seriously do not know)

Disclaimer: I do not own Cardcaptor Sakura I DO own the character Roxanne or (Roxy) as we all know her of. ---Feisty little feline isn't she? Grooowl LOL--- ;)

Tomoyo sleepily opened her eyes. She stretched her long arms and legs out with a big yawn then drowsily crawled off her bed. She stood up stretching again and walked out her occasionally bumping into the many objects that were scattered on the ground. Tomoyo stooped short when she heard a growling, gurgling noise emitting itself from within her stomach.

"Hahaha I guess I better eat something" she said to herself. After all she did not have anything to eat the whole day plus she had barely touched her lunch she bought at the café. Tomoyo walked down the long hallway past Sakura's room which was adjacent to hers and the bathroom after that. She opened the old yellow swinging kitchen door only to find a very interesting scene bestowed upon her.

Sakura laid on top of the kitchen table with sweet, golden, thick honey drizzled unto her stomach. Her chest heaved up and down with her jagged quickening breath. A man with chestnut hair covered her sending warm baby kisses down her neck and across her stomach, licking the honey as he went along. One hand slowly was making its way up Sakura's bare beige skin and under her pink skirt. Both lovers shirts had been stripped and forgotten on the floor inches away from Tomoyo's feet. Neither seemed aware of their unwanted guest.

Tomoyo stood in amazement looking at her 'sweet and innocent' roommate who did not appear to be so sweet and innocent anymore! Her breathing became deeper and she unconsciously licked her rose colored lips. A light bulb flashed in her head and Tomoyo looked around spotting what she searched for. Stretching up she grabbed her camcorder from on top of the refrigerator and pressed play making sure to position it back in a place where it could get a good view of the couple.

Right when she removed her hand a moan came out of Sakura's mouth. Tomoyo glanced at her friend and quickly looked away when seeing the next thing they were up to. It was time for her to end this little show. Tomoyo tried to clear her throat. It didn't look as if it got their attention so she tried again this time victorious. Sakura and her little 'friend' stared at Tomoyo as if she were a ghost. All the color had been drained from their skin.

"Umm are you guy's done yet?" Tomoyo asked uncomfortably.

The two snapped back into reality, their faces turning from ghost white to beet red. Hurriedly they bounced off the table and grabbed their clothes throwing them on trying to look somewhat decent. Tomoyo was trying with all her might not to burst out laughing at how foolish they looked.

In-between putting her leg in her shirtsleeve Sakura stammered "Oh ToToTomoyo! What are you doing here I I didn't expect you till tonight!"

"Well" Tomoyo walked over to the counter at her left and picked up a banana. "I was let out of work early today" she lied. Well…it wasn't exactly a lie. Technically she was let out early. "I just came in here to get a snack." She picked up a white size 36 A bra and tossed it to Sakura. The chestnut haired man looked from Tomoyo to the banana back to Tomoyo again and turned an even deeper shade of mahogany. "But I suddenly don't feel so hungry." Tomoyo threw away the banana that was left and had to force herself not to throw up the piece she had just eaten.

She looked at the blushing chestnut haired hottie and smiled at him. "Hey Syaoran haven't seen you in ages." Syaoran mumbled his greetings and something about asking what Tomoyo was up to.

Tomoyo looked from Sakura's red face to Syaoran even redder one. A spark glistened in the back of her eye. "You know I was just leaving…" she said backing out of the kitchen. "So you two can just continue doing whatever you guys were doing…."

"Oh no Tomoyo! Umm Syaoran was just leaving…"

Syaoran's head shot up from buttoning his pants "I was?"

"Yes you were remember?"

Tomoyo was already inches away from the door. "No really guys its no problem! I had to go out and do something anyways."

"But…" Sakura tried to protest.

"Bye Sakura!"

"But…"

"Bye Syaoran nice seeing you again. Have fuuuunnn!" Tomoyo ran out the kitchen after checking one last time that her camera was on.

Sakura and Syaoran stood silently in the kitchen until they heard the front door slam. "So…what do you wanna do?" asked Sakura. But Syaoran was already two steps ahead of her and was standing behind her caressing her delicate skin.

"I don't know" he answered then kissed her twice on the neck. "what do" he kissed her on the cheek. "You" he kissed her on her nosed. "Wanna do?" Syaoran touched Sakura lips with his and drew her in closer, deeper…

Tomoyo burst out the apartment building laughing her head off. In all her years as Sakura's friend, Tomoyo never thought that she would be catching her doing…Tomoyo began to laugh harder just thinking about it. She crossed the street and sat at the café across from the building. That was one of the many things she loved about Manhattan, you could always find a great café to just sit and relax in. The smell of coffee beans and fresh baked bread stirred her senses.

She looked up at their apartment window and smiled to herself. Syaoran and Sakura. They made such a great couple. Sakura had met Syaoran back in Japan around a year ago and they had been going out for a while until Syaoran had moved to the States a few months ago for his job. The two had decided that it would probably be best if they had broken up since long distance relationships never worked. But Sakura never had forgotten him and had just stayed in a daze the whole time after he left. Guess she finally found him and told him the news about us moving here Tomoyo thought. They really are lucky to be together.

Tomoyo couldn't blame Sakura for being so caught up on Syaoran though. For one thing he was very good looking. With his neck length chestnut hair and amber eyes, he left a lasting appearance on every female's heart he met. He was tall with a wonderfully muscular body and very intelligent too. He was one of the top student's back at their old high school in Japan.

Yea, Sakura's really lucky. The only thing that really surprised Tomoyo was that, Sakura would be the first between the two of them to actually go all the way with a guy. Ok where did that just come from? It doesn't matter which one of us has sex before the other. There are more important things in life anyway. It probably wasn't such a big deal but deep down inside it was still bothering her. She finally decided that she was putting way too much thought into the matter and turned her attention to what she was going to do about her unemployment. She would have to find a new job fast but during the mean time she had to find out a place she could stay at during the morning since Sakura didn't leave for school till nine. Damn. That was going to be a problem.

Tomoyo groaned and slouched in her chair. She had no idea what she was going to do about that either. But since she had so much time on her hands now, she could continue her search for her twin brother. Not many people knew about Tomoyo's brother. She had just found out herself around 10 years ago…when Tomoyo was just a baby her parents had gone on a trip and traveled by airplane. Unfortunately something went wrong and the plane crashed leaving all but Tomoyo and her brother to their tragic deaths. Sonome then adopted Tomoyo and raised her as her own never knowing that Tomoyo had a twin brother.

It wasn't until around fourteen years later that they were informed by the hospital that held the two babies after the crash, that Tomoyo even had a brother. However, it seemed as though luck was not on Tomoyo's side for a fire occurred and burned any trace in the hospital for Tomoyo ever finding her long lost brother. The only thing one nurse from the hospital could remember though was that the baby was sent to live in an orphanage called "New Beginnings." It turned out that there were hundreds of orphanages by that name in Japan so it was nearly impossible to find him. After a year of searching Tomoyo's adoptive mother gave up hope leaving Tomoyo hear broken. Ever since then Tomoyo swore that she would find her twin brother no matter what it took. Coincidentally her search had taken her to America where she hoped that soon enough she would end her search and her heart will be able to feel whole again.

Yes, Tomoyo would find her brother again "no matter what" she whispered to herself.

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By the time Tomoyo returned to the apartment both Sakura and Syaoran were gone. Tomoyo cautiously opened the kitchen door making sure that the two had actually left. When the coast was clear she entered the kitchen and reached up unto the fridge to grab her camcorder. She stared at it for a few seconds before shutting it off with a click. She walked into the living room, put it down on the cherry wood table and sat down on the worn leather black sofa across from it. Her heel bounced up and down on the hard wooden floor, her hands uncontrollably fidgeted.

Should she watch it? After all it was an invasion of their privacy. Oh come on you know you wanna said a voice in her head. No I don't! I was just acting on impulse back there, it was nothing. You're not even a little curious to see what your friends been up to? No. To see what you've been missing.

"No" she repeated aloud to herself.

Oh come on you know you really wanna know what its like, the voice fought back, to be touched by a man, to feel things in places you've never felt before…. You've taped Sakura a million time before and she never said anything about it. Even when you did it in secret. She always forgave you. This shouldn't be any different…Tomoyoreached out a shaky hand. It shouldn't be any different…

"Shouldn't be any different…" she whispered and grabbed the tape from off the table, flinging it in the VCR before she could change her mind. The screen flickered to a start and the room immediately filled with the sounds of pleasure filled moans. Tomoyo hurried to turn down the volume hoping that none of her neighbors heard it. She moved her attention back to screen. It was up to the part where Sayoran had just removed Sakura's lacy bra and was bringing his head down closer to…

Tomoyo quickly stopped the tape and put her hands to cover her burning red face. Her heart rate had quickened and she could feel herself getting very hot all over. What was she doing!? She was going in her best friends' private life watching her and her boyfriend share an intimate moment together. How could she even think to watch this? But…she had to. If she ever wanted to know what she was truly missing (and was probably going to miss for the rest of her life) then she needed to watch this. She just hoped that her friend would understand.

"Gomen nasai Sakura. I'm so sorry. Please forgive me." Tomoyo closed her eyes, reached out and pressed play. After a few awkward minutes of Tomoyo looking away and fidgeting with her hands she got used to the whole 'sex thing' and began to calm down. She fast forwarded, skipping the part where she interrupted their little "fun" and pressed play. Syaoran walked over to Sakura and began kissing her on her neck, face and lastly her lips. They stayed like that sharing their soft sweet embrace until it deepened and Syaoran's hands began to wander up and down Sakura's petite form. Sakura started to unbutton Syaoran's shirt then discarded it to the side. Syaoran put his hands on Sakura's legs and brought her up to wrap them around his waist. He pushed her back to the wall and gave her a long seductive kiss.

Tomoyo crept closer and closer to the television screen when suddenly there was a knock on the door. She jumped up and stared at the door. Who could it be? Sakura was at school and she never had any visitors, maybe it was Syaoran! The visitor jabbed at the door again.

"Coming, coming!" Tomoyo called out running to the door. Right when she was about to unlock the door she heard Sakura and Syaoran's moans coming from the video tape. She froze the tape! Turning around she ran back in the living and fell over a book on the floor. "Owww" she moaned struggling to stand up. The knocking grew louder and more rapid. Whoever was at the door was growing irritated. Tomoyo quickly pressed stopped and hurried to the door making care not to trip over any forgotten objects on the floor.

"I'm coming!"

Tomoyo reached the door out of breath and flung it open huffing and puffing. Surprisingly it wasn't Sakura or Syaoran but instead a very agitated looking Roxanne. "Took ya long enough."

"Umm Roxanne, uhhh what are you doing here?" Tomoyo asked her. It wasn't that she didn't want her there it was just a surprising visit since Roxanne had never came to her apartment the few months she had known her. And it wasn't that Roxanne had never wanted to either. Tomoyo would just make up an excuse whenever she hinted something about it like "You know, aren't you getting sick of hanging at my house? Next time lets go by yours instead." It was just that compared to Roxy's small condo that she owed, Tomoyo lived in a garbage heap!

"Well after everything that happened this morning with the queen of all bitches, I decided that you needed some cheering up."

Tomoyo's face feel and her sapphire eyes glistened just remembering it. "I do no think that anything can cheer me up right now Roxy. Hey wait a second shouldn't you be at work right now?"

"Don't worry about that, anyways..." Roxanne's coffee eyes glowed deviously. "I think I have the perfect thing in mind. Now are you going to just stand there and stare at my oh so beautiful face or let me in?"

"No way Roxanne no way!"

"Ahh come on Tomoyo! Just this once"

"No Roxanne, no. There is no way! Absolutely not; it's uncalled for!" Tomoyo paced back and fourth in her room. Her haired tied up on top of her head and her arms crossed on her chest. A club. That's what Roxanne had in mind when she said she was going to 'cheer Tomoyo up.' She wanted to take Tomoyo to a club. But that was just crazy! Tomoyo in a club? There was just no way that she was going to go.

Roxanne put her hands on her hips. She was getting sick of this 'I don't want to go' act. "Alright Tomoyo give me three good reasons why you shouldn't go."

Tomoyo stopped her pacing and turned to face. "Well" she started. "I should not and can not go because…well because…"

Roxanne taped one shoe on the wooden floor and raised an eyebrow.

"Well because I, I…." Tomoyo glanced a pile of clothes on her bed. "I have nothing to wear" she protested quickly.

"Well that's not a problem we could always swing by my place and pick something up."

Tomoyo quickly thought of another excuse, "And I have lots of homework that I have to do."

"You don't even have school tonight. It could wait."

Roxanne was right and Tomoyo knew it. She was running out of ideas she had to tell her the real reason why she couldn't go. She began to fidget with he hands, her eyes strayed to the floor. There was a reason why she couldn't or rather didn't want to go.

Roxy reached for Tomoyo's hand, "Well since you cant think of any good explanations I guess that we can…"

"Wait!" Tomoyo pulled away. She took a deep breath, she guessed she had to tell her.

"The reason why, the reason why I cant go is…is because…" she mumbled something under her breath.

"Girl your gonna have to speak louder than that."

"Its because I, I cant... I can't dance" she muttered, her face turning bright pink.

For a few seconds Roxy didn't say anything until a choking sound escaped from her mouth. The sound grew louder and more discrete until she exploded in a sea of laughter.

Tomoyo's face shone even brighter in embarrassment and rage. "What are you laughing about Roxanne! This isn't funny! You know what I'm not going I'm not going to go if you—"

"Ok, ok! I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to, to---" She bent over bubbling in laughter once again. Tomoyo squinted her eyes and started to storm out the room. "No wait Tomoyo! Its just that I thought it was going to be some crazy reason like the last time you went to a club you got raped or something." Tomoyo shot her a crazed look. "Its ok if you don't dance. You don't have to. A lot of people do it."

Tomoyo dropped onto her bed. "So then what's the use of going?"

Roxy went to sit next to her. "Think about it: Would you rather stay here, do your homework and clean your room (which really, really needs some work) like a good little girl or, for once do something for yourself and maybe even have some fun?"

Tomoyo stayed silent for awhile. When she lifted her face her sapphire eyes glimmered with determination and a huge smile was spread on her face. "Alright lets go."

Roxanne jumped up and grinned at Tomoyo "See I knew my girl wouldn't let me down now let's go to my place to fix you all up."

Tomoyo followed Roxanne then stopped short. "Wait a sec, I think I have a better idea." She went into her room and dug in her closet until she pulled out what she was looking for.

Roxanne's eyes widened as she looked at the garment up and down. "Nice, very nice."

Tomoyo held the clothes in front of her and smiled at her reflection in the mirror. Roxy's right I do always think about other people before I think about myself. I'm tired of being Ms. Goody-two-shoes. Its time I do something for me. For once. Tonight Tomoyo wasn't going to play by the rules, she was going to show everyone and herself who the real Tomoyo Daidogi was. No body was going to stop her now.

A/N: Wow I'm done! You know how long it took me to write this chapter! WOW! I finally have sum1 to put it on fanfic for me! ARIGATO HUI!