Broken Wings Chapter 7: A Million Tears For You, a beyblade fanfic

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Chapter Seven

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The door creaked slightly as it was opened. Kai stepped inside, and Wyatt looked up. Sensing something was wrong, he rose from his sprawled position on his bed.

"Kai?" Wyatt asked, his face bordering between question and concern. Kai looked like he had been crying, and Wyatt was wondering why he was just coming in from last night. It was nearly sunrise.

"Wyatt," Kai said, his voice barely audible. "I need to talk to you…"

"Of course," Wyatt said, moving closer to him. He looked as if he might collapse any minute now. The door clicked shut behind him, and his keys slipped out of his fingers, falling to the floor loudly. Wyatt's brows knitted together in worry.

"What wrong, Kai?"

A choked sob escaped his throat, and his knees gave out on him. Wyatt lurched forward, catching Kai before he fell. Wyatt felt panic rising quickly in his chest. He'd never seen Kai like this before, and it was upsetting him badly. He knelt down on the floor in front if him. Kai's clothes were slightly damp, and he was crying like a baby.

"Kai! What's wrong?" Wyatt grasped him by the shoulders and forced him to look him in the eye. Kai shook his head and cried even harder, leaning on Wyatt's shoulder.

"Good God, Kai," Wyatt murmured as he stroked his back in what he hoped was a comforting gesture. "What happened to you?"

"I need… to tell someone…I can't keep it inside anymore," Kai said between sobs.

"You can talk to me," Wyatt assured. "Come on, Kai…"

Wyatt pulled him to his feet, and led him to his bed. Kai sat down and rubbed his face while Wyatt got comfortable beside him. He took a deep, shaky breath.

Kai had stayed in the park after Tyson left, and had lost track of time. The tears came and went, and all the while, he was getting soaked in the rain, but not caring at all. After being sufficiently chilled, he had stumbled blindly to his car, where he stayed for a good part of the night with the heater blasting to dry him off and warm him up. There too, he had cried. When he thought about it, he realized that he hadn't stopped crying since Tyson left.

Kai leaned forward, his elbows on his knees and his face in his hands. He took another deep breath and stopped his incessant sobbing. He was running on empty. He hadn't slept all night, and his body was plagued with fatigue. And when he didn't get enough sleep, he got nauseous. Besides all that, crying took up a lot of energy. He was exhausted.

Wyatt sat uneasily beside him. "Kai?" he asked quietly.

"Oh, Wyatt… I am such a fool. I am a Goddamned, fucking moron," Kai mumbled, his face still in his hands.

Wyatt shook his head. "Kai, what the hell happened?"

Kai groaned, and felt tears welling up in his eyes again. He was disoriented, tired beyond belief, and so confused. There was no sense in denying it; he had strong feelings for Tyson. Whenever he was around him, he felt happy, and content. Whenever he was around Rei, he was bitter and hurt, but not just because of what he did to him. Rei just didn't make him feel the same way Tyson did. He never had, and he was just now realizing it after he had felt what Tyson had to offer.

Tyson…oh, God. Tyson was amazing.

Kai thought back to that night, when they were in the park. When it had rained. When Tyson had kissed him with such a burning passion Kai had never felt before, never experienced. He shook his head and cursed himself for being so damn blind.

Tyson loved him, and Kai doubted anyone in the entire world had and would ever love him the way Tyson did.

He lifted his head and pushed a few limp strands of hair away from his face. He looked absolutely awful after being soaked in the rain, but that was the last thing on his mind. Wyatt was sitting next to him, looking slightly frightened.

"Wyatt," he said quietly.

"Yes, Kai?"

Kai swallowed, and then spilled his guts on everything that had happened, starting with Rei telling him he loved him so many years ago, and ending with Tyson's confession that he had made just hours ago. He ended up crying again, and cursing himself for being such a fool. Wyatt listened carefully the entire time, and found tears welling up in his own eyes as well. He had had no idea how much Kai had been through.

"Oh, Kai… I'm so sorry," Wyatt said genuinely. "I just assumed that since you were captain of the world champions in beyblading… I just assumed your life was so perfect, being the rich and talented person you are."

Kai tried to laugh, but failed miserably. He wiped his eyes gently and sniffed. Wyatt dabbed at his own eyes.

"Tyson really loves me," Kai said, gazing at something far away. Wyatt nodded.

"He does. Do you… uh, you know, like him too?" Wyatt asked timidly, not wanting to interfere in Kai's private issues. To his surprise, Kai actually smiled through his tears.

"I just realized how much I love that goofy idiot," Kai said fondly. His expression faded into sadness. "But I just… messed everything up."

Wyatt shook his head. "Go talk to him. You can make it all right again. Tyson will listen!"

Kai stared at the floor. "I-I can't."

"Why not?"

"I just can't!" Tears spilled down his face again. "Everything that happened…"

"Tyson won't care! He obviously loves you, and you love him. It won't matter how badly you think you messed up."

"Wyatt," Kai said jadedly. "I don't know how to tell him. And… I'm afraid of ever loving again."

"Because of Rei?" Wyatt asked quietly. Kai nodded despondently.

"I know that Tyson isn't Rei, and that he doesn't want to hurt me, but Rei never wanted to hurt me, either. I'm afraid his feelings will change about me and I'll be right back where I always was."

Wyatt sighed. "You'll never know if you don't take that chance."

"I don't want to be hurt again…"

Wyatt rubbed Kai's knee as he began crying softly again. "I know, Kai. I know."

I want to know where you belong

I want to know why I sing this song

I tried to show how much I feel

Is that a dream, or is it real?

I never look where you belong

Until I gotta sing my song

Is it a lie, or is it true?

So many tears I've cried for you

Whoa, a million tears for you

Oh, a million tears for you

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Tyson unlocked the door to his room and stepped inside. A small sigh escaped his lips as he tossed his keys on his desk. The sun was just beginning to rise in all its glory, painting the dawn sky a beautiful pink and orange color. Tyson gazed out the window for a moment, but just couldn't see the beauty beheld in the heavens. Nothing was beautiful anymore, nothing except Kai, whom he had ultimately lost.

After he had left Kai in the park that night, Tyson had gone to work, only because he couldn't afford to miss a day and he needed the money. Tyson took off his baseball cap and shook his hands through his hair. He was drained.

Pulling off his shirt and dropping it on the floor, he walked towards the bathroom. He unbuckled his belt and dropped his pants, kicking them off. He strode into the bathroom and turned the warm water on in the shower stall, waiting for it to get hot. After undressing completely, he turned the shower on and stepped inside.

It is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all, he thought to himself. That is a fucking lie. If I had never fallen so hard for Kai…

Tyson took a shaky breath and closed his eyes as he felt the warm water running through his hair and down his tired body. I wouldn't be feeling this unbearable pain right now if I hadn't fallen for Kai.

He leaned down and turned the hot water knob left, increasing the heat until it was just under scorching. He rubbed his face and felt a stinging sensation in his eyes. He hadn't cried since he had left Kai and he was so close to breaking.

Steam rose above the shower, dampening the small room. Tyson lathered sweet-smelling shampoo in his hair and then stood under the shower, gently washing it out. His dark blue hair looked almost black under the water. He soaped up, and ran his hands down his smooth body, enjoying the feeling of the burning hot stream against his skin. The physical pain was nothing compared to the emotional torment raging in his soul.

He closed his eyes again, and saw Kai in his mind. He remembered the kiss they had shared, and the sheer bliss that had dominated his mind. The rain falling around them had been fresh and breezy, washing away all other feelings except the fervor in his heart that was for Kai.

And suddenly, he began to cry. Right then and there, his shields broke and feelings spewed forth from his heart. He still loved Kai, and that would never change, no matter what.

A million tears that I have cried

I wish you were right by my side

I tried to show how much I care

Believe in me, I will be there

I never knew where you belong

Whenever you just hear my song

Is it a lie, or is it true?

So many tears I've cried for you

Whoa, a million tears for you

The water began to get cooler, and Tyson lifted his head from his hands. Realizing that he'd lost track of time and was using up all the hot water, he sighed and turned the shower off. He pulled a towel down and rubbed his face, opening the door and slipping out. Warm water dripped off of his tanned frame, soaking into the plush rug on the floor.

Tyson shook his wet hair out and draped the towel over his shoulders. The mirror had been fogged up, and little rivulets of water ran down the smooth surface. He opened the bathroom door, and shivered as cool air hit his damp body. He pulled another towel down and wrapped it around himself before walking into his room. His eyes were downcast as he sat on his bed, and he felt a solitary tear trickle down his face.

"I love you, Kai," he said out loud, closing his eyes as more tears followed the first. "I love you, Kai…" He brought his knees up on the bed and hugged them, lowering his head into his arms. "I love you, Kai!"

Oh, a million tears for you

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Kai had fallen asleep after an exhaustive bout of crying with Wyatt, and awoke a few hours later. He sat up slowly and saw Wyatt writing at his desk.

"Wyatt?"

Wyatt turned around in his chair. "Hey, you're awake. How do you feel?"

"Better." Kai paused. "Physically," he added as an afterthought.

Wyatt raised an eyebrow. "And emotionally?"

Kai sighed and stared out the window. Wyatt nodded.

"I thought so," he said.

"What time is it?" Kai asked quietly. Wyatt turned back around.

"A little after four o'clock."

Kai sighed again and played with the sheets. He heard Wyatt's pen scratching at his paper. A few moments later, Wyatt laid his pen down and stood, stretching.

"Don't you have a class now?" Kai asked. Wyatt shrugged.

"I skipped. Besides, a friend in need is more important."

Kai looked down. "Tyson said something like that when he stayed with me while I was sick," he recalled. Wyatt looked at him penetratingly.

"You need to go talk to him, you know," he said softly.

"I know." Kai's voice matched his in pitch. Wyatt paused.

"Are you going to?" he asked. Kai hesitated before nodding ever so slightly. Wyatt was genuinely surprised. He'd thought he'd have to push Kai to the edge with his nonstop bitching until he would agree to talk to Tyson willingly.

"When?" he implored. Kai shrugged.

"Sometime today, maybe. Probably." Kai rubbed his eyes. "It's driving me insane… I have to talk to him."

Wyatt nodded and looked with sympathy toward his hurting friend. "You know, I'll be here for you anytime you need to talk, or need a shoulder to cry on."

Kai looked up. "Thank you…Wyatt. That means a lot. Really." Kai gave him a tiny smile, gratitude in his eyes. "I'm going to go now. I need to get this cleared up."

Wyatt smiled at him encouragingly. Kai sighed deeply and stood.

After making himself presentable again, Kai left his room and walked down to Tyson's, idly tracing his fingers down the wall. He felt uneasiness rising in his chest, and closed his eyes for a moment. I have to tell him how I feel, Kai thought. Even if I am scared out of my mind.

He stopped in front of Tyson's door, and tentatively raised one hand to knock. It hovered inches away, and suddenly Kai was struck with anxiety. Why am I even doing this? Tyson hates me… I'll look like a capricious fool if I tell him that I love him when just last night I said I loved Rei!

The door opened, and Tyson was just about to leave when he came face to face with Kai. His eyes widened, and he froze.

Damn! Kai's mind was racing, but suddenly drew a blank.

"Kai?" Tyson asked slowly. Kai's eyes welled up with tears at the sight of Tyson. He loved him so much, but he had hurt him so badly.

"Tyson," Kai said, lowering his eyes. Tyson saw the glistening of tears in them, and felt a twinge in his chest at the look of pain etched into Kai's features.

"Do you want to come in?" Tyson stepped aside to allow room to pass. Kai shook his head.

"You were going out. I-I can wait…"

"No, it can wait. Come in." Tyson opened the door wider. Kai hesitated before stepping in silently. Tyson closed the door gently.

Kai bit his lip and pushed his bangs away from his face. Nervousness had him in a viselike grip. He went to Tyson's bed and sat down on the edge. Tyson took a few steps from the door and then decided to stay near the wall. He leaned back and folded his arms across his chest, looking at the ground. The room was somewhat dark with the blinds drawn and the lights off, but neither made any move to turn them on.

Tyson peeked up and noticed Kai was gazing at the floor, too. He could plainly see that he was tense. Tyson's heart ached as he watched him. Kai was so perfect, and Tyson wanted so much for him to return his love. Kai brought his hand up to his eyes and his hair fell across his face, masking his angelic features. A tear fell from his eyes, and Tyson saw a small ray of light seeping in from the cracks in the blinds catch onto it, making it sparkle.

"Tyson, I don't know what to say," Kai finally spoke, and his voice broke slightly.

"Say what's in your heart." Tyson surprised himself with his own words. He heard Kai crying softly.

"I'm so confused right now," Kai said through his tears. "I thought I loved Rei… but… now I have all these feelings for you, and, everything is so…" Kai shook his head. "I can't explain it."

"Kai, I have to know where we stand. I can't put everything on hold."

"That's just it!" Kai looked up, his face angry. "All this pressure, I can't take it! Love isn't supposed to be like this, it's not supposed to have so much pain!"

Tyson pushed himself off the wall and crossed the room, standing right in front of Kai. He leaned down and placed both hands on Kai's shoulders.

"That's where you're misunderstood," Tyson said softly, forcing Kai to look into his face. Kai was surprised to see Tyson's eyes were shimmering with unshed tears. "Love is an emotion, and emotions are human. And humans are not perfect."

"I can't deal with it, Tyson…"

"'There may be grief, and there may be pain,'" Tyson said, quoting a song. "'But I'm aware that you blind the darkness with who you are.'"

"Tyson…"

"Kai… there is no doubt about it in my mind. I love you."

Kai growled and pushed Tyson backward. "You just don't get it!"

"Get what, Kai?" Tyson asked angrily. "You've never explained yourself to me! How the hell am I supposed to know how you feel if you don't just come out and say it?!"

"I don't know what to say!"

"Say what's in your damned heart! God!"

Kai glared at Tyson, angry tears coursing down his cheeks. "Fine! This is what's in my heart! Love is stupid, love is fake, love doesn't fucking exist! It's wishful thinking, a completely unattainable goal! Everything people say about love is a lie! Love is perfect, love is a beautiful thing—I've never heard a bigger pile of bullshit in my entire life! Where's the love, Tyson? Rei said he loved me. What happened? It was all a lie! It was all a fucking Goddamned lie!" Kai's voice broke as he burst into a fresh round of sobbing.

Tyson stood still, not saying a word. The only noise was the sound of Kai's crying. It filled Tyson's ears and cracked his heart into two. He took a small step closer.

"Kai… this all comes down to Rei, doesn't it?" Tyson asked softly.

"I don't know anymore…" Kai said between sobs. Tyson closed the space between them and sat down beside him. He tentatively placed a gentle hand on Kai's shoulder.

"I think I understand, now. You're afraid," Tyson continued in a soothing, quiet voice. "Rei hurt you, and now you think love isn't real. He made you afraid to love… afraid to give your heart away for fear of being hurt again."

Kai took a few deep breaths in an attempt to stop his crying. Tyson rubbed his back comfortingly and brought his face close to Kai's.

"Why didn't you just tell me?" Tyson asked. Kai felt his breath in his ear.

"I don't know how to open up to people and tell them how I feel," Kai answered truthfully in a soft voice. Tyson put his arms around him and hugged him gently.

"I'm sorry if I pressured you in any way, Kai," Tyson said, sincerity etched into his features. "I just love you so much. I'd never hurt you. You have to believe me. I'm not Rei. My love runs much deeper than his did."

Kai looked up, longing in his eyes. "I want to believe you, Tyson…"

Tyson's face was inches from Kai's. "Then do," he whispered in a voice that sent shivers down Kai's spine.

All of a sudden, Kai felt something fall away from his heart, something heavy that had been holding him down for what seemed to be an eternity. He gazed up at Tyson, and for the first time, saw the passionate honest-to-God love in his chocolate colored orbs. It was as if the scales had fallen away from his eyes, and he could truly see.

Tyson leaned forward and gently kissed him. Kai opened his eyes and looked up at Tyson, who was gazing at him in love.

"Tyson?" Kai's voice was hesitant.

"Yes?"

"I admitted this to Wyatt earlier today…"

"Admitted what?" Tyson's hand was nestled in Kai's soft hair.

"That I… love you. More than I ever loved Rei… or anyone else, for that matter."

Tyson's heart flared up in joy. This was the moment he had been dreaming about for so long, the moment he had longed for. The moment Kai accepted him into his life.

"Oh, Kai," Tyson said, hugging him against his chest. He heard Kai let out a soft sigh, and felt his slender hands on his shoulders.

For the first time in a long time, Kai felt truly loved. Tyson was real. Tyson's love was real. There was no sense denying it any longer. He slipped his hands over Tyson's shoulders and clasped then behind his neck, feeling his long silky hair against his arms. That stupid baseball cap that Kai had grown to love brushed against him. Kai suddenly realized that what had fallen away from his heart was a false hope that maybe Rei would learn to love him again. It had been holding him back from seeing that Rei wasn't the person for him.

Tyson tightened his grip on Kai's slim frame. He finally understood. Kai had been alone for so long, and he had never experienced love before. Beneath the cold mask that he constantly wore was a vulnerable and very fragile person who longed constantly to be accepted by someone. He had had to go through life completely unaided; it was no wonder that he could never seem to tell others what he was really feeling inside.

He felt Kai sigh contentedly again, and Tyson vowed in his heart to watch over him always. He would rather die than see Kai hurt again. Kai wasn't as independent and self composed as he seemed; he needed someone to cling to and someone to tell him it was all going to be all right in his darkest hour. He had had it rough, but Tyson would be there for him.

"Tyson?" Kai murmured, his head resting on Tyson's shoulder.

"Mm?"

A single tear ran down his face, and he smiled as he closed his eyes. "Nothing."

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TBC

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Whoa… what a sappy ending. No, this is not the end of the fic. ^_^ There's more. Yay, I get to put Kai through MORE mental torture! Such a sadist, I am. Oh yes, the song Tyson quoted from was a song called Lovely, by Michelle Tumes. The other song that I used somewhere in the middle was Million Tears, by Groove Coverage. That song just fit perfectly, ne? Well… sort of. ^^;; You get my point!

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