The guards throw me into the room, and I let them. I deserve this. The lawyer, my lawyer now I guess, follows and sits on the end of the bunk. I actually look at her. She's kind of pretty. Cropped mid-brown hair and hazel eyes. She's wearing some long orangey robe dress thing. I'm too scared to really take it in.

I make sure I'm standing by the farthest wall. I can't be alone with a woman. I press my back hard against the stone.

"John Crichton?"

"You know I am." I sound more defiant than I expected I would.

"This is a very serious charge you face. I'm Mina Hess your attorney. Now there are just a few questions I need to ask you." She whips out a computer pad type thing and consults it. "Your toxicology report state that you were intoxicated by alcohol at the time of the attacks. How many drinks did you have?"

"I don't remember."

She notes this down. "The guards found you passed out in the street not far from the crime scenes. The two victims were a Nebari girl and a Sebaccean woman.."

"Who were they?" I jump in before she can finish.

"The Sebbacean gave her name as Aeryn Sun and the Nebari was Chiana…"

"No…" I moan loudly covering my face with my hands. I feel cold. The stone wall presses hard against my back through my shirt.

"I already know that you know them. I need you to answer some questions ok?" Her voice is gentle. She's trying to distract me. "Tell me about your night."

I stare at the floor as I speak.

"We were at a bar. We were drinking. A lot. And I asked Chiana to dance with me. To make Aeryn jealous, because…well I really like Aeryn but she doesn't like me that way. And Chiana and me were drunk so we started flirting, and then kissing. Then I looked round and D'Argo had left. And I tried to apologise to Aeryn and she didn't want to know. And she stormed out. I think they were mad at me. And I don't remember…" I trail off and finally look up at her. The back of my head hits the wall, but I barely notice.

"Do you deny the rapes?"

"I can't deny what I can't remember."

"Have you been sexually intimate with either of these women previously?"

"No." The thought 'God I wish I had been' crosses my mind and I shake it away. I can't think like that now. "Never." I know she's trying to trip me up. My DNA could be on either of them for so many reasons. But I don't know exactly what they found.

"And you face murder charges?"

"That was an accident. I didn't mean for anyone to die."

Mina sits quietly reading her notes, so I interject.

"How are they?"

"What?"

"Aeryn and Chiana. How are they?" My voice is tiny. Have I hurt them I wonder?

"The Nebari suffered multiple lesions to her body and face, and severe bruising." I'm wincing but I keep listening. "Miss Sun suffers severe bruising and evidence of beating…"

FLASHBACK

A door in front of me being pushed open, into a hotel room.

"Crichton?" Aeryn sits on the bed wearing a little vest and a pair of my Calvin Kline's. She frowns when I don't say a word but keep walking. "Crichton? What's wrong with you? Get out."

Then I'm hitting her. She's not ready for it and her head snaps back. Her nose is bleeding. I hit her over and over again.

"You made me think you wanted me!" I'm screaming at her.

I shove her back on to the bed, as I lean over her. She struggled wildly, but my knees pin her legs down. Her fingernails dig into my hands.

"John…please…" she sounds afraid.

I put my hand over her mouth to shut her up and hold her down on the bed.

END FLASHBACK

"…Both of them are in deep states of shock."

I made her afraid. I scared Aeryn. I scared her. I feel my body slide down the wall, scraping the skin from my hands and wrists. Oh god oh god oh god. I look at my hands. There are half moon shaped cuts that I hadn't noticed before. Fingernails…they're from fingernails. My heart is pounding so hard in my chest, and my breathing speeds up. I can't breathe. Oh god oh god oh god. I'm hyperventilating. The room feels like its spinning. My breath catches in my throat painfully. I try to breathe.

"Are you alright?" Mina is on her feet.

"No…No…" I moan softly feeling tears springing to my eyes. "I think…. I think I might have done it…"