Love is a Lie
Summary: Severus Snape married? Never! But in this story you never say never! Severus is married and he truly loves this woman dearly. She owns his heart, but what happens when she breaks in in two because Severus broke hers? A very heart-touching story with lots of angst and romance! Please R&R! Thanks!
Chapter 1: The Biggest Argument of All
Dumbledore opened the front gates to let in an unexpected, yet very important, visitor through and onto the Hogwarts grounds. "Ah, Miss. Gladstone! It's very nice to see you again"
"Albus. I do suppose this is a warm and welcoming visit…" she replied frowning to the name he called her.
"Dear me, Katalina, dear me," he said with a smile.
"What?"
"You sound so much like our dear Severus and, if I do say so myself, you happen to act like him too. Only a few things are different is between him and you."
"And what might they be?"
"One, you have a sense of humor, two, you are a woman, and three, you are of greater importance than him. That may sound mean, but it is the truth!" Katalina smiled and then was led to Dumbledore's office.
…By now you are probably wondering, why is this Katalina so important? and What does Snape have to do with anything? I'll answer the first question, but the second you will learn the answer to soon enough. Right, so the answer to your first question. Katalina is the head of the Ministry of Magic for during the battle between the light side and the dark side Fudge, the ex-head of the Ministry of Magic, died during the final battle. Poor Fudge. Anyway onto the story!...
Dumbledore called together all the teachers (even though school was back in session) and began to talk, "Good afternoon, ladies and gentlemen, I have brought you here today to meet our visitor who will be staying with us for a few days. Katalina, tell us exactly why you are here?"
"Well, the Ministry believes that one of You-Know-Who's followers are trying to bring him back from the dead only this time he will be even more powerful than even Harry Potter himself. It was agreed that I myself should stay here in Hogwarts until I know everything is safe and we have enough evidence to tell us if what we suspect is true or not."
"Thank you, Katalina, but out of curiosity, why didn't you tell us you were coming?"
"Actually, Severus was supposed to tell you. I met him for coffee last week and told him I would be making a visit today, but I guess he never told you." Katalina looked at Snape and smirked. Snape's eyes went wide and he tried his best to contain his anger and shock. He opened his mouth to speak, but was interrupted.
"Is this true, Severus?" asked McGonagall interrupting whatever Snape was about to say.
"Yes. It must have slipped my mind," he snarled in response. He then glared daggers at Katrina. If looks could kill she would have died then and there.
"That is all," Dumbledore said ignoring the smug expression on Katrina's face. "Oh, and Severus, one more thing. Since Katalina has no where to stay and you know her best so…"
"No! No! No! I am not sharing my chambers with that…that…her!" he roared not letting Albus finish his sentence.
"Then it is settled," he said ignoring Snape's outrage, "Katalina will be staying with Severus and sharing his chambers for the next week." Then Dumbledore shoed them all out of his office. On their way out he offered them lemon drops. Snape said nothing to Katalina until they got to his chambers.
"When we went to coffee why didn't you inform me you were coming?" Snape snarled angrily at her.
"It must have slipped my mind," she imitated his voice in Dumbledore's office.
"Don't give me your crap! It's bad enough you are sharing my chambers. Today just wasn't a good day to come! Why couldn't you tell me? I usually expect more from you. Maybe now I should expect less," he said coldly.
"But, my love, it seems you have forgotten our vows?"
"Our marriage vows have nothing to do with this!"
"But it does. By the way, you never seem to like to take me out in public places and it seems as if you have forgotten to tell Dumbledore that I am your wife as well!"
"You know sometimes I regret ever marrying you…" Snape was cut short by Katalina's hand slapping him across the face. Then she ran into the bathroom and locked the door. Snape sighed. He knew they had been fighting more often recently and he shouldn't be starting another one now. He walked over to the door and knocked.
"Go away!" came Katalina's voice. Snape could tell she was crying by the way her voice trembled.
"Katalina, open the door."
"No! Now go away and just leave me alone!"
"You are acting like a child. Please come out and we can deal with it."
"Well you didn't seem to mind marrying a child when you did! I don't care, I'm not coming out! If you hate me that much maybe we should just get our marriage annulled!"
"But…" Snape's voice trailed off as he realized fully what she had just said. He felt something warm fall down his cheek and he noticed he was crying. He quickly wiped away his tears and left his dorms to leave for his afternoon classes. If he didn't leave now, Snape would be late.
On his way to his class with the seventh year Gryffindors and Slytherins (Harry, Ron, Hermoine, and Draco are in that class) he tried to forget what Katalina had said, but the same though kept popping back into his head. 'I wish I could just take back what I said. I wonder, did she really mean what she said? I don't think I will return to the dorms until as late as I possibly can' That was what he did too. After classes, Snape had a short conversation with his godson, Draco.
"Draco," he said once everyone had left.
"Who was that women who is in your dorms?"
"How would you know if there was a woman in y dorms?"
"I passed by on my way to class and heard her singing. She sounded like she was sad. That was why I was late to class."
"Oh."
"So, are you shagging her?"
"What? Of course not! Ten points from Slytherin!"
"Fine. Fine. Who is she anyways?"
"Her name is Katalina…Gladstone," he said hesitating on her last name. He was deciding if he should tell his godson that he was married to her or not. Snape decided it was best if he didn't.
"Isn't she the head of the Ministry of Magic?"
"Yes. Yes she is and she is here on important business that you will not bother."
"So, does this mean I can't come by later?"
"Yes, you can come, but don't bother her."
"Yes, Severus." Then Draco left and Snape worked in his office for a little while until dinner. When he got to the Great Hall he wasn't surprised to see that Katalina wasn't there. He quickly ate and left to his dorms. Draco was sitting at his door listening to the singing coming within. When Draco saw Snape coming he stood up and smiled at him. Then he said goodnight and left.
Snape watched Draco leave then turned to his door. He was about to open it and go inside when he heard a beautiful voice singing, "Playground school bell rings again, rain clouds come to play again. Has no one told you she's not breathing? Hello, I'm your mind giving you someone to talk to. Hello.
If i smile and don't believe, soon i know I'll wake from this dream. Don't try to fix me I'm not broken. Hello I'm the lie living for you so you can hide. Don't cry.
Suddenly Ii know I'm not sleeping. Hello I'm still here, all that's left of yesterday…"
Then the singing stopped and Severus heard crying in its place. He opened the door to find his living room empty except for the plate of food that was hardly touched and his furniture (of course). He walked to his bedroom to see Katalina curled up on his bed with her back facing him. She was crying, but softly now. He could see his pillows were damp from all of the crying she must have done that afternoon. Snape just stood there and watched her for a while not knowing what to do.
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Katrina stayed in the bathroom until she heard Snap leave. Then she unlocked the door and looked around his dorms when she came to his small radio she had given him one Christmas. It was covered in dust and she knew he had never used it. She looked through his draws of cds until she came to a crumpled picture. Katalina straightened the picture and looked at it. It was a snapshot of her singing a song at the Hogwarts' Talent Show in her sixth year.
Katalina smiled at the picture and then remembered the song she had sung. Silently she sung to herself not knowing that Draco was listening to her outside of the door that led into the dorm. "You were once my one companion, you were all that mattered. You were once a friend and father, then my world was shattered.
Wishing you were somehow here again, wishing you were somehow near. Sometimes it seemed if I just dreamed, somehow you would be here.
Wishing I could hear your voice again, knowing that I never would. Dreaming of you won't help me to do, all that you dreamed I could!
Passing bells and sculpted angels, cold and monumental. Seem, for you, the wrong companions, you were warm and gentle.
Too many years fighting back tears, why can't the past just die!
Wishing you were somehow here again, knowing we must say goodbye! Try to forgive, teach me to live! Give me the strength to try!
No more memories, no more silent tears! No more gazing across the wasted years! Help me to say goodbye. Help me say goodbye..."
It was then that Katalina realized that she was crying. She went to Snape's bed and lied down. She fell asleep and woke up a little later feeling a bit hungry. She sent for a house elf that brought her some dinner. Katalina ate very little as she remembered the heart-breaking conversation she had had with Severus earlier that day. Then Katalina leaved her unfinished dinner and walked upstairs where she lay, once again, on Snape's bed. She curled herself up and sang the song that she sang for the Hogwarts' Talent Show in her seventh year. This song made her win, "Playground school bell rings again, rain clouds come to play again. Has no one told you she's not breathing? Hello, I'm your mind giving you someone to talk to. Hello.
If i smile and don't believe, soon i know I'll wake from this dream. Don't try to fix me I'm not broken. Hello I'm the lie living for you so you can hide. Don't cry.
Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping. Hello I'm still here, all that's left of yesterday…" She then began to cry and softened when she heard the door leading into the door open.
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Snape just watched his wife, Katalina, cry softly to herself. Soon he felt sorry about earlier and sat down on the bed beside her. Katalina's back was still facing him and he said to her gently, "Katalina, it's me. Are you ok?" She didn't answer him. In stead she turned around sat up and laid her head against his chest. (By this point I shall be calling him Severus because it only seems fair…) Severus wrapped his long, strong arms around her and pulled her close. Katalina wept silently while burying her face in his chest.
"Shh. It's ok. I'm here. God, I am so sorry. I wish I had never said what I said. I really didn't mean it. I truly do love you it's just sometimes you get on my nerves. You know what I mean?" As he finished Katalina pulled away. She stared at him blankly then stood up and left. Severus looked for her through the dorm, but she wasn't there. He decided to look around the castle when he bumped into Draco sitting on a chair in the room next to the bedroom.
"Draco! What are you doing in here!"
"You said I could come by later so I flooed here from the Slytherin common room. I ended up in the fire place in this room. By the way, that wasn't the right thing to tell her in the end. Why did you say you loved her?"
"Because…well…"
"Spit it out already man! I promise I won't tell anyone. Just come on already!"
"Fine! You see, we're…we're married."
"What! I can't believe it! Ho come you never told me before?"
"Because I didn't want anyone to know. They would think I'm different and…nice."
"Why would you be considered nice?"
"She was a Ravenclaw back in school and I was a Slytherin and usually Slytherins marry other Slytherins or other purebloods that haven't been to Hogwarts."
"Ahhh. So, are you going to find her and apologize for real or what?"
"I guess. I know I shouldn't ask this of you, but can you help me find her?"
Draco sighed then said, "Fine." Then they went off in search of Katalina.
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Katalina left Severus' dorm and made her way to the library where she saw a girl with curly brown hair falling down her back (which was facing Katalina) reading a very large book. Katalina looked at her watch and noticed it was past time in which they should be in their dorms. She walked up to the girl and said, "Excuse me, but it is past curfew and you should be heading back to your dorm."
The girl looked up. Her eyes widened and she gasped. Katalina noticed that when the girl's eyes widened it reminded her of how Severus' eyes had widened that afternoon. The girl interrupted her thoughts, "Hello! I am Hermoine Granger. You're Katalina Gladstone, aren't you?"
"Yes I am."
"Well, I have been reading about politics and have read a lot about you. I think your research is amazing…you're crying. What's wrong?" Katalina noticed that Hermoine was right and that she was crying. Then she remembered she was asked a question.
"I'm fine. Nothing's wrong."
"When people cry it means there is something wrong. Here have a seat. You can tell me what's wrong. I promise I won't tell anyone, but you don't have to tell me. I just hope you really are fine," she said helping Katalina to sit down. Katalina bust into tears and told Hermoine the whole story from when she first arrived up till now, "and then I came here to hide from Severus. I just wanted to be alone. I feel so stupid. I feel as if I should have never married Severus at all. Maybe thing would just be better that way."
"It's ok. Professor Snape it mean to everyone. I have never heard him tell anyone he liked or even loved them. That's just how he acts. I dislike him sometimes for it even though he can be a good person sometimes. You might have made a mistake in marrying him, but can't you get the marriage annulled? Or get a divorce at least?"
"Maybe I should. If I did then maybe I wouldn't be so depressed all the time. I really do love him, but then I hate him. One thing I'll never forget him saying is, 'sometimes I regret ever marrying you.' My heart shattered when he said that and I guess that was when I realized he didn't love me anymore. That was when I realized I never should have married him if I wanted to live happily ever after. Maybe he was right. May be he never should have asked me to marry him. I am just so confused right now. I guess when I think about it I will always love him, but never will I love him again."
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Severus walked into the library and heard Katalina telling Hermoine everything that had happened. He listened to their conversation and then left almost in tears after Katalina said, "I guess when I think about it I will always love him, but never will I love him again."
Severus hated to think that she had stopped loving him. He knew he could never stop loving her no matter how hard he tried, but it left an empty hole in his heart to know that she had stopped loving him. Severus broke into tears on his way back to his dorm. He never realized until too late Ron and Harry walking in the same path as him. When he bumped into them and fell backwards he looked at them on the ground staring at his pale, tear-stained face.
"Professor, why are you crying?" Harry asked after a moment of silence.
"That is none of your business, Mr. Potter, and I suggest that you and Mr. Weasley get back to your dorms before I give out detentions." Severus' voice cracked when he said this, but the boys listened to him as though as if they didn't it would be their death wish. Severus went back to his dorms and changed into his bed clothes. He then climbed into bed and fell asleep.
The next morning Severus found a blue rose with a white ribbon tied on the stem on his bedside table. There was a note next to it. He picked it up and tears fell down his face as he read:
Beloved Severus,
I want to thank you for everything you have given me, but I think we can both agree that it is best if we part. I received an owl last nigh with a letter telling me that what the Ministry of Magic suspected was false so I am able to return to work. Last night I also realized that I loved you with all my heart, but cannot do so any longer. Thank you once again and good-bye. Forever.
Love Always,
Katalina Gladstone
Severus realized that his last name had been written after Katalina and then crossed off to be changed to Gladstone. The tears that had slowly fallen from his eyes came faster as he understood that Katalina didn't love him any more. That she was gone forever because he had made her think that he didn't love her. In his heart, Severus knew that he loved her and always would no matter what happened, but his mind was telling him to just forget the note. To just forget Katalina and just pretend that he had neither met her nor married her.
Finally after having an internal battle he decided to go with his mind and forget everything. Over the next few days he started to forget her, but couldn't for as he did the hole in his heart grew deeper. He cried himself to sleep at night thinking of her. One day Draco had played a movie that he had taped of Katalina singing at the Hogwarts' Talent Show during her seventh year. Severus cried and felt more emotional pain than he had ever felt in his entire life.
How do you like my story so far? If anyone has any suggestions or a better title then please, tell me. Please R&R, but I'd appreciate no flames. Thanks a bunch to all who read my story and review!