Disclaimer: I don't own Fullmetal Alchemist. Hmmm. For once I can't think of anything else to say XD!
A/N: I'm glad none of you hunted me down and killed me.Very happy indead. Massive Plot twist ahead. Are you ready?
Oblivious
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Ed stood there and waited for Roy to regain his composure enough to speak at least. After all Ed was giving him the chance to blurt out as many excuses as possible. But when he did speak it was a mere expression rather then an actual word.
"Ed!" Roy said.
"Did you have fun?" Ed asked.
"Before this gets anymore out of hand then it already has…"
"Was it fun?"
"Ed, why would you ask me a question like that?"
"You bastard! You couldn't wait could you?"
"Now hold on. Give me a chance to talk!"
"Shut up! I hate you!"
Roy stood there in awe. That was the first time in a very long time that Ed had said that. Well, at least to his face.
"I hate you! I hate you for looking at me. I hate you for letting me get close to you. I hate you for being alive right now. Most of all, I hate myself for falling for you!"
Roy was completely taken back. He had never heard Ed say anything with such emotion. It hurt worse then any pain he had ever experienced. He knew he deserved this, but he sure in hell didn't want Ed to hate him so ferociously.
Ed was the type of person that showed his anger both verbally and physically when he got pissed, and right now he was shaking uncontrollably. Which was a bit unfortunate for Roy.
"You hate me."
"Does that bother you Colonel? Or is it just not clear? I hate you. And if you ever come near me again I swear I will make sure you regret it."
Roy sighed.
Ed looked at him for a few more seconds then walked across the room and roughly placed a folder on his desk.
"I don't want to see you again. I'm basically dead to you."
Roy grabbed Ed's arm as he was walking towards the door.
"Will you just…"
Roy found himself instantly pinned between the wall and the transmuted auto-mail blade digging further into his throat every second.
"Don't fucking touch me! Ever!"
"I can't just let you walk out on me."
"That's not my fucking problem. My fucking problem is you putting your fucking hands on me."
"What am I suppose to do with out you, Ed?"
"You made your bed now fucking sleep in it. Actually I'm sure she will be more then happy to accompany you. From what I hear, Colonel, you were pretty impressive."
"Will you just fucking listen to me for a chance. She didn't mean anything to me. It has always been you and you know it."
"Is that so. Hmmm, you must really love me. You probably love me so much that the whole world knows."
"What the hell do you want from me?" Roy tried to yell but was painfully cut off (no pun intended) by the blade, which had now drawn blood.
Ed looked at him. He couldn't believe it. He couldn't understand why Roy just didn't understand that he was all he ever wanted. Without the secrets and lies.
"I want you to leave me alone. That's all I want from you. Just leave me alone."
Roy looked into Ed's eyes as he removed the blade from his throat and transmuted it back to normal. He saw the hurt creep into them as soon as he had said that. There was also a seriousness to that looked that finally gave Roy's mind the realization that if Ed left he would never come back.
Ed turned back to the door and walked through the crowd that had gathered out in the hallway. Roy ran after him, placing a hand on his shoulder in hopes that maybe he would stop and listen to reason. With cat-like reflexes, Ed swung around and planted a punch directly into the jaw of his commanding officer. Everyone gasped. Roy barely shook it off, and looked at him.
"Please!" Ed said pleadingly. He turned around and ran down the hall and out of the building.
Roy stood there for a second before turning to go back in his office. He slammed the door behind him.
Havoc, Brenda, Fury, Farman, and Hawkeye dropped everything they were holding the second the door slammed.
"Whoa!" Fury said.
Havoc automatically broke in to a huge smile.
"Pay up!" he said.
Much sighing went on as money was once again being transferred.
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Roy walked over to his desk. He had been defeated. For once in his life he had been defeated. If he could have, he would of continued to follow Ed but it was the way he said "please". He knew why Ed had wanted him to stop. Ed didn't want to hurt anymore. He could hear it in the tone of his voice. That is what made him stop. Roy didn't want to hurt him anymore. Roy would do and give everything to makes Ed's pain stop.
Roy picked up the file that Ed had put on his desk. Within seconds of opening it he shut it and threw it back on his desk.
"Fuck!" he said.
Hawkeye ran into the room and looked at Roy.
"Sir, is everything okay?" she asked.
"No, nothing is fucking ok."
"May I ask why, sir?"
"Fullmetal. He wants to be stationed in Xing for 2 years and then relocated to East City permanently!"
"Why don't you just deny his request if it's as bad as you make it out to be, sir?"
"Because he already went above my head and had it signed. It's fucking official. Damnit!"
"Permission to speak freely, sir." Hawkeye asked.
"Fine, I don't care right now." Mustang sat down behind the desk and buried his head in his hands.
"Maybe it would be prudent if you went to talk to Edward?"
"Why would I want to do that?"
"Because it is obvious that you care for him at the least. Letting him leave is going to hurt you more than you think. At least if you talk to him you might be able to change his mind."
Roy slowly raised his head to look at her. She was insane, for one. If he wanted to die he would have just followed Ed. Secondly, no amount of talking could get Ed to stay.
But most importantly, "What kinds of things do you know?" he asked.
"I know only what I am told. You should talk to him."
"You're seriously deranged! He will not hesitate to kill me if I come within 5 ft. or less of him. You should know, without being told, that that is a horrible idea."
"Why is that?"
"Are you not listening? He is being totally irrational right now."
"With all do respect, sir, while you were out fornicating, Edward was sitting at home thinking about you and trying to get up enough nerve to talk this out." Hawkeye said this with a stern yet respectful look on her face.
Roy had never heard her speak to him like this. Sure she shot at him a few times, and she had made her share of bruises, but she stayed clear of his personal life at all cost. Why did she care so much about this particular situation? He knew that she held a lot of truth in what she said, but Ed had pleaded for him to leave him alone and quite frankly he didn't feel up to running into any more walls or auto-mail any time soon.
"I don't think you understand this situation completely." He said.
"I understand more than you think I do. I went over to Edward's house last night and talked to him. He is badly hurt and your lucky he didn't leave for Xing last night." She said," I cannot prioritize the seriousness of the conversation that should be had between the two of you. If you can go and talk to him, for you and no on else, I will see what I can do about his transfer request. He needs you to hear him out just as much as you need him to."
"There is no way possible that he will let me get near enough to talk."
"I'm sure you will find a way, sir."
"You seem to have faith in my "avoid getting turned into a pile nothing by Edward" skills. Care to venture any ideas to add to my list of heroic attempts to get my self killed?"
"I don't know. Why don't you try moving some mountains?" She smiled then saluted him and left to let him stir in his own thoughts.
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For the cadets under Colonel Mustang's command, it was getting to the point where going to work was like convincing yourself to spend 8 long hours in hell. Mustang was always in a horrible mood. Sometimes he would just be a complete prick and other times he was so overly emotional that even the most insentient of soldiers would have had a hard time convincing THEMSELVES that the world still revolved without Ed.
The worst part of this whole fiasco was when the Furher called Fullmetal to report to his commanding officer, or else he would have been considered AWOL. Not wanting to jeopardize his chances of leaving for Xing, he complied with little complaint. Everyone thought that the entire building would be in jeopardy of falling when Ed arrived for work that day. On the contrary, Ed had never been so professional in his life. He walked in there to report and that is what he did. He kept his eyes straight forward, stood up as tall as he was capable of and held his salute until Mustang told him that he could be at ease. Most anyone could vouch for the fact that even if you had no idea what their situation was, no matter how professional it looked you couldn't have cut the tension with an adamantine blade.
Mustang showed up at work in a dejected mood. He was schedule to meet with that certain someone to discuss where he was staying and all the other details of his moving to Xing. Ed's transfer date was getting closer and Roy had yet to be able to talk to him. It's not that he didn't try. He was quite sore from trying. At least he would be able to actually be able to have a conversation with him, although, what Roy wanted to talk to Ed about was on more of a personal level. He had to manage to find a way to keep it strictly professional. This is what he was having a problem doing. It took all he could to keep from having a breakdown when Ed came in to file reports and he was regarded as nothing more than a higher-ranking officer. How was he supposed to talk to Ed about this without grabbing him and just holding him? Just to feel his touch would give Roy enough strength to go on for another week. Roy missed him. He missed his devilish smile, and the way that his hair fell into his eyes at the end of the day after a long days work. He missed his laugh and the way he would take all the blankets just to get Roy to cuddle with him. There was a serious lack of his scent in the house, and he longed to sit and admire him while he read, Also, despite Ed's persona of toughness he was rather jumpy, and Roy missed sneaking up behind him and grabbing him just to hear that slight yelp utter from his soft lips.
Roy hadn't realized that Hawkeye had walked into his office. He had evidently been daydreaming again. He had been known to do this these past few weeks.
"Sir, are you going to be ok? I mean if we have to we can reschedule." Hawkeye asked him.
"No, Lets just get this over and done with. If I need you for anything I will call you in, or rather you'll hear me yelling for your assistance. Please just send him in." Roy managed to say.
"Yes sir."
Hawkeye left his office and shut the door behind her. The feeling of relief he got when she shut the door didn't fool him. It felt almost like that was the big unnerving conversation he had been dreading for 3 days. But he knew better. The doorknob turned.
"Here it goes." Roy whispered.
Ed walked in and instantly placed himself 2 feet before Roy's desk.
"Colonel, sir. You wanted to see me regarding my transfer to Xing." Ed saluted.
"At ease Fullmetal. You're really starting to scare me with your sudden regards to the proper addressing techniques." Roy said almost tonelessly.
"Sorry sir." Ed stopped saluting.
Mustang sighed. What the hell did he do to this boy? He shook his head to release the thoughts of Ed.
"Let's just get this done with, have a seat." He gestured toward the leather couch that was sitting in front of his desk.
He was suddenly plagued by a memory of lying on that couch with Ed after some amazing….
"Coffee!" He shouted.
"Excuse me, sir?"
"Coffee. I need coffee and then we can get started. That is if you have nothing else you have to do."
"No, sir. My day is completely open." Ed said. One could possibly hear a hint of spitefulness in that sentence.
"Good." Mustang said then he called Hawkeye in to bring his coffee.
"Ok, Fullmetal. So you are to be transferred to Xing in 4 days. There you will continue with the research of Dr. Meng Jie Nong. He is said to be getting too ancient to continue this on his own, so you are to research under him for 3 months and then take it over for the remainder of your time there until his permanent replacement comes in. Also while your there I suppose you are also to check out two sisters that go by the last name of Laing, to make sure that they had stopped experimenting with non-willing and willing humans until they get there licenses. "
"Yes, sir. That all seems to be correct." Edward said.
"Yeah, anyway then you are to be sent to East City where you will reside until I guess you decide to move somewhere else. What ever they do to you there is inaccurately speaking not my problem." Roy looked at Ed.
"Well sir, I'm sorry to be leaving your command so unexpectedly, but as you are well aware of the circumstances call for desperate measures."
"Yeah so you say. I think it safe to say that your dismissed. I am fully aware of your intentions in Xing. Good luck to you Fullmetal."
When Ed got to the door he turned to Roy.
"Thank you, sir." Then he turned around and left.
'He didn't salute me. For the first time in 2 freaking weeks he didn't salute me. And did he actually look reluctant to go?' Roy thought.
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Hawkeye walked in to Mustangs office just as soon as Fullmetal was out of sight. She just wanted to make sure that Roy was ok. She had been his Second Lieutenant for years, and she was very fond of him. She loved him. He was almost like a brother to her. We all know how brothers can be, hardheaded, unmotivated, and some times just downright stupid. So with all that said, she was just looking out for his best interest.
"Sir, is it all right to come in?" she said.
"Yes, what is it, Hawkeye?" Mustang said.
"I was just coming in to make sure you were ok."
"Well, I'm the best I can be at the moment. Pretty much everything went relatively well with Fullmetal. So he'll be leaving in a few days."
"Is he still not talking to you?"
"Well, not privately. And he is still one of the most superficial solders I have reporting to me."
"Maybe you should try again. Every time you try you seem to get a little further with him."
"I also get a little more hurt. He has yet to kill me and I think he just might next time I approach him."
"So you are just going to let him leave?"
"I have to. I have no other choice."
Hawkeye sighed. "We'll I'm going to miss you two."
"What do you mean? I'm not going anywhere."
"I beg to differ, sir. I am sad to see Edward go. He has a way to make any day interesting. I was starting to get attached to him. And when he goes, sir, a part you will go too. The biggest part of you will go." Hawkeye turned slowly and walked out the door.
Roy put his head on the desk. He knew very well she was right. That part of him was already gone for the most part. There was absolutely now way to get it back now. Ed had basically written Roy off. How was he supposed to get what he had back? He lay there with his head on his desk for a while and thought back to when they first started seeing each other.
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He remembered lying with Ed on the floor in front of the window. They lay there looking at the stars. It had taken Roy forever to convince Ed to stay because evidently "watching the stars" was a little too cliché for him.
"Isn't this nice? Now you see, you would have been missing all this if you got up." Roy said.
"What is there to see? They aren't eating each other. They aren't blowing up anytime soon. They don't move."
Roy laughed.
"You always have to have some form of action every minute, don't you?"
"No, I just don't see why staring at the stars is so romantic? It's boring actually."
"Then why are you still here?"
"Because no matter how boring the stars are you are still here and your interesting."
Roy smiled at him and tightened the hold he had on the blonde's smooth waist.
"I hope you don't mind but I plan on being here for a while."
"Well, I don't mind. But a while isn't a very long time if you thing about it."
Roy leaned down and pressed his lips against his. He pulled away and look at Ed.
"So how about I stay forever? " Roy said softly.
"Well forever is a long time. I might get mad and kill you." Ed said sarcastically.
"It will be well worth it." Roy leaned in again and kissed him passionately.
xxxRoy told the truth. It would be worth it. He had a choice. He could wallow in self-pity (which he would never do), or he could pick up his balls and try again.
If it meant practically attempting suicide, well, Ed was well worth it.
He stood up and called Hawkeye in.
"Sir." She said.
"Where is Fullmetal currently?" He said.
"He went home for the day, sir. He has a lot of packing to do."
"Home, good. I'm taking the rest of the day off. Someone needs to help him."
"Yes, sir." She smiled at him and then left his office.
He grabbed his coat and followed her out.
For all of you who review:
DiamondPrincess2006: Please don't cry. (sniff) I will continue.
Suki Itachi: Yes Roy does deserve to be pulverized. And Ed should have killed him. But Roy might need a little hugging here shortly, maybe. (Is that considered Foreshadowing? I don't think so. Hmmm Oh well XD)
Yuki: From your review before, I can't stand it when they fight about meaningless crap either. They both are so strong and when people make them fight like that it's insulting to them. I wouldn't make them fight about nothing.
And it is time to step back and look at the whole spectrum now. How is Roy going to handle this? He is strong but then what would you do if you were about to lose something that beautiful and sweet and cute and who happens to be Ed? I would die let's see of he does. XD
KuramaIsFine: lol Thank you! I've seen a little bit of it and I liked it and so do a lot of other people. I will take it as a compliment :blushes:
Here's a stupid question, what does nvm stand for? XD
Anonymous: It was most defiantly Ed. You won't be seeing Al in this story and not because I don't like him because I do. I love the kid to death. I have put Him and Winry in Risembol living happily ever after with kids and stuff! XD I think the reason I didn't put him in here was because he would of killed Roy before I could finish Chp. 2. LOL.
Ranger: Hello! I'm happy that you will continue to read whether or not this has a happy ending. It's greatly appreciated. :hugs:
T-Girl: Thank you!
Br14nn4: (Comes out of hiding in the closet) I am safe now that I posted right? Probably not because I left another cliffy. Ekkkk! J/k
I hate cliffies too but sometimes there is need for one. Like the last one. It just made everything so much more intense. HeeHeehe!
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(Hey I just realized how long this chapter was.)