Looks at profile Hmm…two years huh? Well, now I guess we get to see if I've actually gotten BETTER, or learned to suck more at writing than before. Regardless, enjoy the fic. I'm still not sure what possessed me to write something so sappy, and I'm almost ashamed of myself for doing so. The characters are most definitely ooc. Deal with it. Anyway, here it goes.
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"I love you."
Don't say that. You shouldn't say things you don't really mean. I know as well as you do that you can't love me. I'm an insufferable idiot, your loudmouth rival, and, above all, a demon.
"I need you."
Need me? You need me like you need the plague, or that murderous brother of yours. You need someone who can help you revive your clan. I can't do that. I am, and always will be, useless. You don't need me. You've just been tricked by your hormones into wanting me.
"Why are you crying? Don't cry."
You brush aside my tears, and I can't help but love you, want you. It used to be that all I wanted was somebody, anybody, to acknowledge and love me. It never mattered whom. But these last few years…God, all I want is your eyes on me, and only me. I could go without having anyone else see me ever again if I knew that you would always be there by my side. But I can't bring myself to be that selfish. I can't curse you just because I'm lonely. You're lonely too, but there's always hope for you.
"I'll never leave you."
I want to believe that. I want to be your lover. I want to take shelter in your arms, and never bare the cold glared and heated words alone again. I can't seem to stop the tears now, and as I look up through watery eyes, I can see you crying too. I know that's my fault too. God, why can't you just forget about me? Leave me by the wayside and find someone better suited for you, someone who can love you like you deserve. I can't give my tainted soul to you. You're worth so much more than that.
Why is it I can't seem to stay away from you? I've gone and fallen into your embrace, knowing that staying too long will only create a bond that will be more painful to break than ever. But I can't help myself. I've never been able to when it came to you. You were the only one who could get me angry, truly angry, the only person who ever recognized me and challenged me, the only friend, the only…the only one to ever really love me. I hate to feel like this, like I need you just to breathe, to live. But I want you to be happy. Can't you see that? I would do anything to make you happy.
But you've stopped crying, and you're smiling now. You have a beautiful smile. I'd like to see it more. The way your eyes sparkle is heavenly, and it feels as though I've gone and fallen into the arms of an angel. I realize that, for the first time in too long, I feel warm. And I realize that all I really want is to stay here forever.
Will you hate me later? If I stay here, embrace you, kiss you, love you to the best of my abilities, will you hate me if I'm not enough? When you come down from your cloud and face reality, will you blame me for giving in? But I find now that I want to be selfish, just this once, and stay here with you as long as I possibly can.
"I love you."