Title: Twisted Logic
Character Claimed: Light Jak
Rating: PG-13
Pairings: Sorta Light Jak/Jak (if you're looking for it, that is)
Set: After Jak 3
Word Count: 486
Note: My Light Jak entry for my 'fear' drabble challenge.
Summary: He may look all peaceful and content, but there's something unsettling bubbling underneath that shimmery surface. This is my first attempt at really getting in Light's head. And I agree with Snare-chan, he is one hard bastard to write for. (grins)
I do not recall being born. I don't really think that I was. Though, I do not recall not being either. It's terribly confusing. Even for me.
I don't recall feeling much or even caring that I didn't. And that's just how it was, I suppose… For a very long time.
That was up until I was granted my Jak. How I ever existed before him I do not know. But now I am positive that I truly did not. I have come to the conclusion that since I cannot even be bothered to remember a time such as that, it could not have been all too thrilling to begin with.
But life with my Jak, it's far more then I could have ever imagined.
I can finally see, feel, breathe, taste… all the things I helped create. I finally have an actual body of my very own. And a mind full of so many wonderfully entertaining memories. So much more interesting then the existence I cannot seem to recall. Each one sparks such powerful emotions. He's such a feeling creature, my Jak.
How did I ever exist with out him?
But with all that is good there must be a little of the bad, it is the balance that must be maintained. Or so they say. What do they know anyway?
So my wonderful new home was already occupied when I got there. I do not care that it was here first.
You would think that a being of pure light would feel threatened by a being of utter dark oblivion. To a certain extent I suppose you would be correct. There are things about Dark that do disturb me.
And unfortunately, whether he knows it or not, my dear Jak depends on him a lot more then he does me.
It is a bit annoying being over shadowed. I do not recall having dealt with such a feeling before. I do not believe my Jak has either. So I am at a loss at how to approach it correctly.
I must admit Dark does incite the most delicious emotions, the fouler ones that my Jak does his best to smother in the deepest parts of our mind. But Dark always finds them. All the beast needs is a little light to find his way.
I must also admit that Dark has his uses. I still, however, find myself uncomfortable in his presence.
Frankly, he does scare me. But not for what he could do to me… of course not. (snorts) But because of what he can and does inflict on my Jak. He is much too careless when he is set loose. It sometimes takes all my reserves to set things right again.
(sighs) I can never rest, because you never can tell when Dark will get bored and punch his way through.
I will not lose Jak.
How could I ever exist without him?