Chapter 4

Shalimar finally made it back to Sanctuary and walked quietly to her room. Changing into more comfortable clothes she walked back out again and wondered around Sanctuary for a while before finally resting on the sofa. After a few minutes she felt another weight sit next to her and turned to see Jesse sitting there.

"Wanna talk?" He asked her.

"About what?" She questioned.

"Come on Shal, I've known you long enough to notice that somethings wrong."

Shalimar sighed. Where to start. She thought to herself.

"At Emma's appartment today she had a picture of me and her on her desk. I thought for a second that maybe she did feel something for me. It's just me being stupid, no big deal." She told him not really wanting to discuss the matter.

"You have to tell her." Jesse stated.

"Tell her what?"

"About your relationship and the fact that your still in love with her."

"What! Yeah of course I'll tell her about our relationship but no way I'm telling her that I still love her."

"Why not?" Jesse whined.

"She's has enough stress to deal with already, never mind the fact that her ex-girlfriend wants her back and..." The feral trained off.

"And what..." Jesse probed.

"And I'm not setting myself up to be pushed back down again okay? You saw me after she broke up with me, I was a mess. No way am I going back through that."

"Things might be different this time." Jesse pointed out.

"Maybe after everything settles down I'll tell her." Shalimar said hoping that this would shut the molecular up. As much as she loved him, he was annoying her by probing into something that she didn't want to talk about.

Brennan was busy helping Emma settle into her room.

"Bren, can I ask you something?" The redhead questioned.

"Of course." He said not turning to look at her.

"What happened between me and Shal?" Brennan stopped what he was doing and turned to look at the psionic. He slowly walked over and sat next to her.

"I don't know much really, you guys were kinda private. You guys dated for a while, then you freaked and broke up with her."

"I know that but something must have happened to make me break up with her."

"Like I said I don't know much. From what Shal told me, you got scared of getting close to her or one of us, incase you got hurt like you did with Adam."

"But if I cut you guys out of my life, isn't that just the same as loosing you guys?"

"Yeah that exactly what we thought but you just wouldn't change you decision." Brennan told her.

Emma pressed a hand to her forehead. "I hate not being able to remember."

"It must be hard." Brennan sympathised. He pressed a kiss to her forehead. "I'll go and let you get some rest." He said standing up but Emma grabbed his wrist.

"Wait. I wanna know more about me and Shal...if you don't mind." She said her eyes pleading with him.

"Em your best talking to Shal about this."

"I know but I get the feeling that she doesn't really wanna be around me."

"Who doesn't wanna be around you?" The feral questioned standing at the door.

Brennan smile at the two women. "I'll leave you two alone."

Shalimar shut the door as Brennan left. "I just came to see how you were doing. And I think we should talk."

"Yeah." Emma replied.

Shalimar looked around the room for somewhere to sit. She noticed that the room was pretty empty and decided to lean against the desk. The atmosphere seemed uncomfortable and both women avoided eye contact. There was silence for a long while until Shalimar started.

"So..."