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Chapter 4: Heartache
Carter wasn't sure what to say to him now. From the look on Doug's face it was almost as if he already knew. Though the silence that was coming from Carter right now was also a good indication that something bad happened. Carter was thinking about what to say, wanting to get the words right, this wasn't just another patient that he needed to tell this was a friend.
"Carol was hurt very badly in the accident Doug." Carter said looking at him, "we tried everything that we could but her injuries were very severe."
"Was she scared Carter?" Doug remembered very little of the accident, he honestly didn't remember even being in the accident.
Carter took a deep breath before saying anything, "no Doug it happened pretty fast. I don't think she was scared, and I don't think she was in any pain."
The next thing that popped into his mind was that he might have been driving, that this was his fault. "Was I driving?"
"No Doug, Carol was." Carter said, it appeared that Doug was remembering very little of the accident, he'd have to tell him about it more than he wanted to.
"Carol was." Doug repeated back as if he was trying to force a memory back.
"Yeah she was Doug." Carter replied back to him. "You were hit just outside the ambulance bay."
Doug just looked at Carter; his expression was completely blank, as if the life had been sucked right out of him. He was in shock. That much he could feel but nothing else. He didn't know what to say now. The only concern was for that of his two children, "the girls?"
"Helen took them both back to her house. We told her we would call her when you woke up so that she could bring them back if you wanted to see them." Carter said.
There were tears forming in his eyes now as he realized that he would be spending the rest of his life alone, that his children, his beautiful girls, were going to grow up with out their mother. Reality was sinking in for him. His heart ached like it had never ached before. His wife was gone.
"Yeah I would like to see them." He sniffled out, "what time is it Carter?"
"A little after seven am now." Carter said. "You've been out most of the night."
Doug was silent again for a minute. Little pieces of the evening were starting to come back to him now. He remembered that he and Carol were working the night shift together and they had been on their way into work. They were scheduled at seven last night, and he remembered Carol being so worried that they were going to be late. Their conversation in his head. Yet he couldn't remember them in the car or even anywhere near County right now. The last thing he remembered was kissing Carol after opening the car door for her so they could drive into work. But he didn't remember them getting into the accident. Hard as he may try Doug couldn't' remember the accident. He also knew that with time the memories would come back and sooner or later he would have to deal with them. He had other things that he needed to focus on right now.
Carter just looked at him knowing that this all hard to be hard on Doug. "Do you want me to call Helen?"
Doug just nodded there wasn't much else that he could do right now. He wanted to see his girls to hold onto them, to have them near him. His world was tumbling down around him. As he lay in the bed he realized that he was now a single parent of two small girls. That his greatest love on earth was in heaven now and that nothing would be the same for him from this moment forward.